Remember for me

Chapter seven:

"Wow, you were a serious mess after Dad dumped you" Bailey chuckled.

"Technically I dumped him" Meredith corrected.

"Technically, his wife broke up with you for him" Zola smirks evilly.

Meredith laughed, her kids definitely had healthy senses of humour.

"Dad really did get all the hot ones, didn't he?" Bailey asked his mother.

"I suppose so. Addison was definitely a force to be reckoned with and I like to think I'm pretty tough myself" Meredith responded "so he got more than the hot ones. He got determined, hard working and brave ones. Not just hot"

Bailey felt a bit bad about only seeing how hot each of his fathers wives were. But it only lasted a second, because lovely little Lex decided to cut in.

"Mom, I wanna hear the rest of the story!" She said impatiently. Lexie was always a sucker for a good love story, and her parents love story was no exception. If anything, it made her increasingly eager to know more and more of the story.

"Alright Lex, I'll continue" Meredith was glad her kids were taking such an interest in her story, it really made the story worth telling.

"Where was I..."

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Meredith's POV:

It had been a few days since I had my little spat with Derek in the exam room. He's been saying hi casually, but I can see it in his eyes that he wants to say more. More things that I can't just let him say.

He isn't officially back together with Addison yet, the 'She Shepard', and I know that Addison blames me for that. She barely ever looks at me when I'm on her service, and when she does her face is a mask of pure hatred.

Half the time, I want to slap her. The other half, I want to run up to her and inform her that it isn't my fault she slept with Derek's best friend.

As for me...I'm doing okay. Okay is a solid answer, okay means I'm not slowly dying inside every time I'm trapped awkwardly in an elevator with Derek and her.

Call me petty, but even saying Addison's name makes me. Angry.

I miss Derek with a freaking passion. I know that I shouldn't and I know I should just get over it. He has a wife, he's been married for twelve years.

Every Time I think of how long Derek and Addison were married, I think of what Derek said in the exam room just a few days ago.

"Addison was my best friend for twelve years. She was my world. Addison was my family for twelve years. Twelve years we were our own family. That's twelve birthdays and twelve Christmases and twelve thanksgivings"

I felt so young when I thought of how long twelve years actually was. Twelve years ago I was nearly seventeen, still a freaking junior in high school, while Derek and Addison had already known whom they loved and what they wanted to do with their lives.

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It was a long day, no doubt about that. I was tired, but I had to keep on going. My shift wasn't over for another four hours, maybe longer if I got to scrub in on a surgery.

Currently, I was sitting with Christina and Izzie in the hospital basement on an old bed. I casually munched on chips while Izzie sipped coffee and Christina flipped through yet another medical textbook.

"I can't believe Addison. Why the pink scrubs?" I complain.

"I know right, they're just so awful" Izzie chimes in.

"What kind of self respecting surgeon wears salmon coloured scrubs?" Christina wondered aloud, more concerned with how anyone who values their career and is good at their career could wear salmon scrubs than with how ugly they were.

"She comes back and breaks Derek and I up, not like I wouldn't have found out anyway, and then expects him to come crawling back to her?" I rant, clearly angry.

"Well you could get him back" Izzie suggests.

"She's right, he isn't with Addison. It's not over till it's over" Christina says absently.

"You know what, you're right. It's not over till it's over"

I keep repeating that sentence in my head over and over as I stalk to the OR I know Derek is about to be in.

I whisk open the scrub room door, to see Derek scrubbing his hands. His favourite ferry boat scrub cap was on, reminding me of his love for ferry boats.

"Derek listen. I know I haven't let you talk. I know you have to choose between getting back together with Addison and me. Trust me, it's hard for me and I know it must be a million times harder for you" I say as soon as I step foot in the scrub room. Derek turns to look at me, I've undoubtedly got his undivided attention.

"I love you in a really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you love you. So pick me, choose me, love me" my big romantic speech is ended with and OR nurse motioning for Derek to hurry up and get in that OR.

"Meet me at joes bar, at eight tonight. If you do, I'll know your choice. If you don't, well then I guess I'll also know your choice" with that, I turn on my heels and strut out of the scrub room, completely and utterly nervous as to what I just said.

There's no way he wouldn't have the decency to meet me at joes to at least tell me he's staying with Addison.

He will be there I tell myself over and over he wouldn't do this to you.

But later that night, my biggest fears come true.

Because when I leave at nearly ten o'clock, I still have yet to see Derek set foot in joes bar.

A/n- I love this chapter. Mer's big romantic speech always gets me when I'm watching reruns. I'll always miss the 'ol MerDer drama from the earlier seasons. And of course I'll always miss Addison. Lol.
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~Daisy