Remember for me

Chapter six:

"Wow. You were a total mess" Ellie stated as Meredith chuckled.

"If someone said Dad would actually leave Addie for you, you guys would get married and have four kids would you have believed them?" Zola asked questionably.

"Honestly, no" Meredith answered "I was a young little intern who experienced her first ever true love heart break. I was a wreck, I didn't think he'd ever be able to explain himself"

"Eventually he did though, right?" Lexie asked, concern leaking through her voice. Meredith nodded, smiling at her youngest daughters concern.

"Everything worked out in the end, but it seems like the journey was too hard to even think of what was at the end" Lexie thought aloud.

"Well at this point, all I knew was that i was in love with a man who was married and was probably just using me for a pass time. I didn't have any idea that Derek Shepard would be my epic love story" Meredith says, her face glowing as she remembered all the wonderful things Derek has done for her. "Four of the best things your father ever gave me are sitting right here in front of me"

"Three you mean. I was adopted" Zola said, an edge slightly creeping into her tone.

Meredith was upset that Zola was even thinking this way "Zo, your father did surgery on you when you were brought over at six months old from Africa. He told me he wanted to adopt you, he was the one who was hell bent on it. I agreed and I was so so happy he decided on that. But if it wasn't for your father bringing it up, I probably would've kept on using those crappy fertility drugs. Your father gave me you, and the day he said he wanted you as ours the grin on his face was so big I thought he'd fallen in love all over again. And honestly, he did. Because he loves you. Your his daughter and if anyone told him different he'd probably deck them" Zola smiled at her Mom, hearing these words were definitely a big reassurance.

"Now, let her get back to the story" Bailey said, smiling. Meredith laughed as she continued.

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Meredith's POV:

"Grey,what in gods name is wrong with you?" Dr.Bailey asked as I rubbed my temples.

What was wrong with me? It was a certain Derek Shepard. And what was I greeted with this morning? Addison Shepard, who was now working at Seattle Grace. Which means I got to hear 'Dr.Shepard' paged about a million times today. Then, to top it off, after getting completely wasted at the bar across the street, my pager went off. There was a huge accident and all hands needed to be on deck.

"I dunno" I slurred, slightly tipsy. I wasn't out of it completely, but I was out of it enough.

"My lord. Go get someone to run an IV on you. Go down to the ER when you're sober enough to do some stitches. Only an idiot would let you in an OR in that state" Dr.Baileys tone was disapproving and angry. Well, she did have a right to be. Wasted interns aren't exactly fun.

So, I found Alex and got him to quickly run an IV. I would've grabbed Christina but with all those traumas coming in, she couldn't be paid to leave the ER. And Izzie was busy with some women who were wondering if their husbands had come in yet. And God knows where George was.

"Geez Grey. If you don't want to give him the impression that he broke your heart then getting wasted isn't the way to do that" Alex muttered, completely unamused.

"Too late. He saw me covered in cookie dough while I was in the middle of the notebook" I giggled hysterically. I don't know what was so funny, but I was wasted so nothing had to be funny. "God Alex, isn't he just such a jerk?" I said as I fell back onto the exam table I was sitting on. The IV was in, and Alex was growing impatient with my intoxication.

"Stay here for an hour or two. Don't move until you can walk in a straight line. I'll be back to check on you" he said, before turning around and leaving.

I wasn't even alone for fifteen minutes when, yours truly Derek Shepard, walked in.

"My god Meredith are you okay?" He asked as he rushed to my side.

"Who invited you?" I slurred my words slightly less, but I suppose he could smell the alcohol.

"Are you drunk?" He was genuinely surprised.

"Did you know that vodka is way better for coping than icecream?" I say as I stare at the ceiling.

"Meredith, I already explained my side of what happened. Can't we be friends?" He begged.

"Your wife is really nice, maybe I'll be her friend!" I suggest, slightly less drunk.

Apparently, Derek's best friend and Addison were fooling around and he found out about it. Now, it wouldn't have been so bad if this was just some random friend but apparently Mark and Derek were like brothers. They'd been friends longer than Derek and Addison even knew each other.

"Meredith, come on. I know your plastered but try to be reasonable"

"I am being reasonable. You either want to go back to your wife or be with me. I won't be the other woman" I state simply. "Now get out. I'm busy trying to de-drunk myself here!"

"Mer, it isn't that easy. Addison was my best friend for twelve years. She was my world. Addison was my family for twelve years. Twelve years we were our own family. That's twelve birthdays and twelve Christmases and twelve thanksgivings. She was a huge part of my life and I don't know if I want to throw all of that away"

I heard was he was saying, but I had an idea of what he actually meant.

"Meredith, I didn't use you and I have real honest to god feelings for you. But I've also had real honest to god feelings for my wife for years, I can't throw all that away"

"I get it. You can't throw all of that away because of one intern with no life experience and high expectations. Well guess what, you just got lucky. I won't expect anything from you ever again" I spat, suddenly feeling sober.

Before he said another word, I was up off the table. I ripped the IV out, and ignoring the pain and blood that came with brutally ripping out an IV, I marched my way to the ER for a night of stitches and concussions.

This chapter makes Grey's seem so depressing. I actually liked Addison, Ya know after her and Derek broke up. I shipped her with Alex but apparently no one else did. Oh well.
Thanks for reading!

~Daisy