I'd Tell You I Love You, But Then I'd Have To Kill You (Killua x Reader)

Chapter 17- Love x and x Confessions

I stared in awe with my mouth half open at the incredible view that Killua presented with me. Endless hills bounded in between the treetops and mountains covered the landscape- we were higher than the clouds. I felt like the wind would pick me up and carry me away to a far away place. I sighed dreamily, sitting down with my legs dangling off the edge and my h/c hair blowing against the steady wind. I looked to my side to see Killua- unusually close- staring out with me with a small smile on his face. His eyes sparkled in the sunlight, and his silver hair blew around, making it even messier and perfectly framing his face. How could one boy be so, so perfect?

"How did you know about this place?" I asked him, scooting slightly closer.

"I used to come to this forest opening when my parents annoyed me." He responded in monotone, closing his royal blue eyes and taking a deep breath in. "Which was quite often. I love it here and I've never shown it to anyone else." I felt a steady blush creep up onto my cheeks when I heard that.

"It's... Amazing."

We sat in silence for a bit, looking out to the view. I couldn't help but wonder what the mysterious boy was thinking. He bit his bottom lip and lay back, shaking out his hair. I did the same, my face being only inches away from his.

"Y/n... Can I say something crazy?" (AN: When I read over this I noticed the Frozen reference. I'm such a noob) I rolled over to see that he was already facing me, looking directly into my e/c eyes and making me blush even more. He looked slight worried, which was unusual for him.

"Sure." I responded quickly, giving him a small but welcoming smile. He took a deep breath in again, before standing up and pulling me up with him, making me stumble slightly and almost fall over. He suddenly pulled me closer, ppressing one of his hands up behind my back and leaving the other to hang loosely at his side

"Y/n..." He took yet another deep breath, and I could easily tell he was nervous. "I know these couple of months have been... Awkward between us, and I never meant to make it that way- I just felt like it was wrong to start anything and I kept hating myself for trying. The last thing I'd want would be for my family to get involved with you, and I'd hate for anything to happen to you. The truth is... I really like you, Y/n, and it's totally fine if you don't feel the same, I just thought you should know that. I've liked you ever since we first met back at Hunter Academy, and that's one of the main reasons I killed your father. I couldn't bare seeing you hurt like that. But I couldn't bare the guilt either, which is why I left. It was all for you, and all I ever really do is for your sake. So now, Y/n, I ask you- would you be mine?" (AN: who's having fan girl spasms bc I had a huge one writing this xD)

I was completely speechless. I felt tears well up in my eyes. "K- Killua..." I didn't think he was capable of saying such incredible things. He did have feelings. He did understand. I'd underestimated him entirely. Had he done this before?" I looked directly into his eyes again and reached out a single hand to gently touch his cheek, shaking my head in disbelief. "Of c-course I will... I've felt exactly the same way this whole time." He grabbed me and pulled me towards him, kissing me softly. His lips felt perfect against mine, and never had I ever experienced something so magical. Our lips parted, both of us breathing heavily.

"T-thank you..." He whispered, taking my hand and leading me back through the forest and toward the market. "Thank you so much." I smiled at him, and he smiled back- the smile that I absolutely loved and the one that I craved.

"No... Thank you."

--------- (okay, just for the record this story WILL NOT have ANY lemon in it. I'll put in kissing and stuff but I'll keep this PG-13, haha. Sorry if I disappointed any of you but I can't write that stuff, or read it! I have nothing against it or people who read it, but I just don't like it. Carry on reading)

After Killua and I explored Yorknew for a little while, we both decided to head back to our hotel for a while while we waited for Gon. Even though I felt bad about not seeing Kurapika, I was in the best mood. Everything was going the way I wanted it to go, and I now had the most perfect boy in the whole world. Nothing could make me upset.

I threw myself onto the couch and Killus chuckled, sitting next to me on the couch and lacing his fingers into mine, softly kissing my temple and making me shudder. I rested my head on his muscular shoulder and closed my eyes. We stayed in that position for several minutes before I felt my phone vibrate. I lifted my head and checked my phone for texts. My smile quickly turned to a frown, and then a look of surprise. No. They couldn't do that. They wouldn't do that. I shook my head in denial. No. Killua put his arm around me, looking concerned.

"What's wrong?" He asked me. I buried my face into his chest and sighed heavily, squeezing my eyes shut. I couldn't believe this was happening.

"I have to go back to Hunter Academy."

AN:

SURPRISE! An update xD I started this ages ago and then I had writers block for a while, so I'm sorry! I hope you fangirled hard over this chapter anyway xD it was super fun to write! But you have to go back to Hunter Academy? Why? D: stay tuned to find out, and I hoped you liked this cute chapter! Like I said, no lemon. I won't go further than... Idk, attempted groping? I'm a creep xD anyway, like I said I hope you liked it minna!:3