I'd Tell You I Love You, But Then I'd Have To Kill You (Killua x Reader)

Chapter 24- Is x That x Y/n?

Your POV:

I suddenly was jolted away by what felt like an earthquake. I tried to scream, but my voice was too hoarse. Shakily I stood up, stumbling forwards a little. Looking around, all I could see was white. This couldn't be real life. My head was still violently spinning, causing me to clutch it and cry out in pain.

"Stop..." I murmured.

"Y/n..." I heard an echoey voice all around me, causing me to spin around in confusion. Where was it coming from? This must be a dream.

"Who are you?" I yelled out. "What do you want?" I heard a chuckle vibrate throughout the white space, causing a shiver to swim down my spine.

"Do you want your headache to stop?" It asked. I could almost feel it smiling. "Why don't you just give in?" My headache slowly got worse. The throbbing pains intensified, making me fall over onto me knees.

"Never." I replied, my hands turning into fists. "I will never give in." Suddenly, an image of Killua came into my head. He was smiling at me in the way that I loved, causing a weak smile to appear on my face. "Never." Then, I collapsed.

Killua's POV:

I sat on the edge looking at Y/n, sighing heavily. Even though she may be battling a demon right now, she looked
as angelic as ever. Her h/c hair spread all over her like a pair of angel wings, and her face was pearl white. I leaned over and tucked a stray piece of hair behind her ear, gently cupping her face.

"Y/n..." I whispered, giving her a small smile. "Please don't give in."

As if on cue, she began to stir in her sleep. I bit my lip, my eyes widening slightly. Slowly but surely, her beautiful e/c eyes opened. She blinked a couple of times before sitting up.

"Where am I?"

"Back in the hotel." Her head turned as she noticed me, and she smiled happily. She leaned forward and hugged me tightly.

"D-do you know?" I hugged her back just as tightly.

"Yeah..." I trailed off, not knowing what else I could really say. "Why didn't you tell me?" I said gently. I was afraid that if I said the wrong thing she might snap.

"I-I don't know. I thought you might..." She stopped mid sentence, biting her lip. She took a deep breath and smiled. "Never mind." I nodded, deciding to respect her decision of not telling me. I could guess why, anyway.

"Um... How're you feeling?" I said awkwardly, blushing and looking away.

"I'm okay..." I saw her eyes flash with anger for a second. "Why did you leave me?" I flinched at her words, but I quickly relaxed and put her hand in mine.

"Listen Y/n. I panicked when Kurapika phoned me. He said he'd seen scars on your neck, and he's researched it..." I took a shaky breath. "I needed to find out more. Which is why I left. I would never have thought you'd come after me like that." Suddenly, she pulled her hand away, standing up with her angry frown increasingly getting larger.

"You shouldn't have just left me, Killua! What were you thinking!" She shouted at me. I stood up quickly, my expression still neutral. This just made her angrier. "Do you even understand me? What if I didn't want your help? Your were stupid, and careless. I bet you don't even care." I felt like none of this was real. I began to slowly walk towards her.

"Y/n, this isn't you. What's going on?" I said calmly.

"Why are you always so calm about everything, huh?" Tears slowly began to leak out of her e/c eyes. "It's because you don't care... You really don't care, do you?" She whispered the last part so quietly an average person would never be able to hear.

"Y/n, of course I care about you. More than anything else. Why else would I be sitting here listening to you like this? I could just leave and forget about you."

"Then do it."

My eyes widened in shock.

"Go ahead. Leave. And don't come back."

I casted a shadow over my eyes. "If that's really what you want." I opened the door and began to close it. As it was about to close, I sighed. "Is this really what I get? For being nothing but good to you?" Then, I closed the door.

I slid down the door and put my head in my hands. Kurapika's words echoed in the back of my mind.

"Remember, demons are deceptive. They'll make Y/n say things, but you can't listen to them. If you really want to help her, you won't leave her."

I took a deep, shaky breath, standing up slowly. Suddenly, I felt a weird throbbing pain in my head again. Illumi's words jumped into my mind.

"Don't fight something you can't defeat." (AN: forgive me if I'm wrong but I think it's something like that^-^)

Run.

I wouldn't do that to Y/n.

I walked back into my bedroom, lying down and closing my eyes.

I would sleep on it.

AN:

WOAAAHHHH AN UPDATE XD sorry the chapters kinda short, but I hurried it along a bit to give you guys a chapter. So, first proper conflict with Killua, huh?:) will he run or will he stay? I added in that needle from the anime cos I thought it was very fitting hehe. Hope you all had a good week!^-^