Living your dream

chapter 15

Chapter 15

Taking the wheels of your wheelchair you roll out the room as fast as you can, going to look for the nurse , you find her at her desk “Justin just woke up!” you say in excitement and nervous your voice sounding louder and higher than you mean to, the nurse gets up from her chair where she was reading a magazine and follows you back to Justin’s room where he’s lying with his eyes open looking around the room like he doesn’t know where he is, “Mr. Bieber can you squeeze my hands ?” the nurse asks him calmly , you look at his hands seeing them both squeeze the nurse’s hands, “very good” she says with a smile on her face, turning to Justin you take his hand “ you’re gonna be okay baby” you assure him in a loving way but there is something different about him, he pulls his hand away looking at you confused and even scared, “why is he looking at me like that” you think worried al kind of things going through your head but you keep your face straight not wanting Justin to see you’re worried . suddenly a soft groan comes from Justin’s mouth as if he wants to say something but he can’t with the breathing tube still being in his throat , the nurse finishes checking his vitals before turning back to Justin “everything looks good, I’m gonna call the doctor and then we’ll get that tube out” she says in a friendly way looking first at Justin and then you, she gives you both a smile and leaves the room to call the doctor.

“omg I need to call your mom” suddenly realizing you forgot, “I’ll be right back okay” you say to Justin , you lean in to give him a kiss on the cheek but he turns away his head making you even more worried and confused, not wanting to go in to it now you leave the room with a frown wondering why he’s ignoring you to the nurses desk, “is there anything wrong dear?” she asks concerned seeing the worries look on your face, “oh no everything is fine, I just need a phone to call Justin’s mom” you say absent still trying to figure out why Justin is acting this way “maybe he’s mad at me” you think not noticing you said it out loud , “sorry sweetheart can you say that again, I didn’t hear you” the nurse says referring to what you just mumbled out loud, “oh no I was just thinking out loud sorry” you quickly say shaking your head to get rid of the mess in your head, “are you sure you’re okay? you were so lost in thought that you didn’t hear me say I already called his mom” she says still concerned , “yes I’m fine really” you assure her , “ thank you for calling his mom, I was supposed to do it but I forgot” and for the first time a genuine smile comes on your face , “you’re welcome dear” the nurse smiles back.

You turn around and go back to Justin hesitant cause you don’t know how he’ll react to you , you hear the double doors behind you open , looking back you see the doctor walking in “so I hear our special patient woke up” he says cheerful , “his vital signs are good doctor” the nurse fill him in , “good, then it’s time to release him from his breathing tube” he states walking in to the room over to Justin’s bed, “let’s ger rid of this tube shall we” you hear the doctor say and you see Justin nodding his head, “when I say cough I want you to cough for me okay?” the doctor says taking off the tape around the tube that held it in place, Justin nods his head indicating he understood, “okay cough” and Justin does as he’s told, the doctor pulls out the breathing tube in one smooth movement making Justin cough even more , he reaches for his throat massaging it “where am I? “ he brings out in a husky voice caused from the tube being in his throat , you have been following the whole thing wanting to give Justin some space and time to adjust to where he is , at this point the nurse also came in to the room giving Justin some oxygen through a smaller tube she puts in his nose, “you’re in hospital” she points out in a loving way, “don’t you remember what happened ?” she asks him Justin shaking his head indicating that he doesn’t .

“it’s okay, you don’t have to worry about that now” the doctor assures him “how do you feel?” he asks giving Justin an overall look , Justin thinks about this question for a second “okay I guess, just a headache “ he finally answers whispering the words still hoarse from the tube in his throat , “what happened?” Justin asks confused to why he’s in hospital looking at the doctor hoping he can give him some answers, “you have been in a car accident” the doctor informs him careful not to give him too much information at once.

You’re still in the background watching Justin talking to the doctor afraid to come closer cause of the way he ignored you earlier.

“you really don’t remember the accident ?” the doctor asks again, “no” Justin answers shaking his head and lifting his eyebrows as if he’s trying hard to remember what happened, “it’s okay son, it’s perfectly normal not to remember when you just been in a coma” the doctor assures him but you notice the doctor has a small frown on his forehead , you know he’s worried about something.

“let’s try something more easy” he says changing the subject “ do you know you’re name ? “ , Justin thinks about this for a long time but he can’t answer the question,  as the seconds go by without him answering the most simple question it suddenly hits you why he was being so distant earlier, he didn’t know who you are, ignoring your thoughts you look back over to Justin who now has a confused and scared look on his face “ why can’t I remember my name?” Justin shrieks in panic now , his heart rate and breathing going up due to him getting worked up.

“calm down, there is no need to panic” the doctor says soothing “you had a big blow to the head and you had a seizure , I’m sure everything will come back in a matter of time”

The doctor’s words seem to work cause Justin’s heart rate and breathing are getting back to normal, the doctor whispers something in the nurses ear making her leave the room after giving you a comforting smile when she passes you, you know the doctor is worried about something, you just feel it but you’re too scared to ask him anything in front of Justin so you decide to wait until he leaves the room.

You hear the nurse talking on the phone but you can’t understand what she’s saying .

Suddenly you hear the double doors go open and someone entering the room quickly “omg how is he?” you hear the familiar voice of Pattie storming in to the room over to Justin’s bed and ignoring you completely giving Justin a scared look on her face , the look on his face making Pattie stop abruptly , the doctor takes her aside so Justin won’t hear what he’s saying and it’s then he notices your presence in the room, you give him a gentle smile not wanting to scare him too when he makes a gesture telling you to come to his bed, hesitant at first you roll over to his bedside.

“hi” you say modest .

“look I’m sorry if I freaked out on you earlier “ Justin apologizes giving you a genuine smile but you see by the look on his face he doesn’t know who you are which hurts you a bit “what if he never gets back his memory” you think to yourself immediately cursing at yourself for thinking the worst , “you don’t know who I am do you?” you ask careful already knowing the answer , “no I’m so sorry” he admits timidly .

“don’t worry about it, like the doctor said it will all come back in a matter of time” you try to convince not only Justin but also yourself.

“are you in hospital too?” he asks when he notices you’re wearing pajamas and seeing your arm in a bandage , not knowing what you should tell him you decide to tell him the truth “uhm yeah I was in the car with you”.

“really, ooh I’m so sorry “ he says surprised.

“it’s okay, I just got a mild concussion and a broken collar bone” you reassure him , “don’t try to think about everything too much, you just woke up from a coma” you continue , wanting to tell him that you’re his girlfriend and who he is so bad you decide to wait, he already has enough information to process to begin with and if his memory comes back he’ll know who you are and he will love you just as much as he did before the accident or so you hope, “but what if the accident changed him, and changed who he is, or even what if he doesn’t get back his memory?” you think worrying yourself.

“is there something wrong ?” Justin asks when he sees the worried look on your face, giving him a loving smile you assure him that you’re fine “no I’m just getting tired, it’s been a long day” .

Justin nods his head indicating he understand “ uhm can I ask you something?”

“yeah sure” .

“who is that?” he asks pointing at Pattie , “oh uhm that’s your mom” you answer , Pattie is still talking to the doctor and you wonder what they are talking about, it’s been over 5 minutes since she walked in and the serious look on both their faces makes you even more worried but you hide it from Justin.

You get a better look at Patties face and you see that she’s crying and at this point you really want to know what the doctor said that is making her cry.