Living your dream

chapter 16

Chapter 16

By the time the doctor and Pattie are done talking Justin has fallen back asleep , Patties eyes are all red from crying , “everything okay” you ask worried hoping one of them is going to tell you what’s going on ,Pattie manages to put a smile on her face “yes sweetie, it’s just all the emotions from today that came up, there is nothing to be worried about” she assures you but you’re not too convinced cause there is the fact that he lost his memory, he doesn’t even know his own name.

“but what about the amnesia?” you refer to your concerns looking at the doctor waiting for him to give you some straight answers, “just tell me how it is, you don’t have to spare me, I can take it” you say with a strict face determined to get some answers and you’re not leaving till you do, the doctor seems to be amused by your determination and the firm look on your face cause he’s smiling “ that’s very common for patients who suffered head trauma and who have been in a coma” he starts to answer your question “we’ll take a head scan in the morning but I’m sure he’ll get his memory back once all the swelling in his brain is gone” he continues , “there is really no need for you to be worried and you can help, just talk to him and tell him about his life, show him pictures about him and his friends and family, it’s just a matter of time till everything comes back” .

Still not sure that the doctor is right you decide to leave it, it’s late and you’re tired, giving Justin a kiss on the cheek you say goodnight to Pattie and go back to your room to get some sleep hoping you’ll look at things different in the morning cause now there is this feeling you have that not everything is gonna be alright , you don’t know why but it’s just a gut feeling.

Lying in bed waiting to fall asleep you go over the events of the day, happy that Justin is awake , your thoughts trailing off to his amnesia thinking what would happen if he doesn’t get his memory back, what if he doesn’t love you anymore, or more important what about his career, what if he lost his amazing singing voice and he can’t sing anymore, that breathing tube could have hurt his vocal cords.

Wanting to get your mind off of it and stop worrying you turn on the tv cause all that thinking and worrying keeps you from falling asleep, it’s the first time you watch tv since the accident , the first channel you watch has Justin’s accident all over the news with the headline “Justin Bieber in coma after car crash” , you didn’t even think about the fact that the media would find out about the accident and you really hope they don’t mention your name but before you can finish that thought you hear them say “Justin crashed into a tree , witnesses claimed he was speeding in an attempt to escape the police after he was seen with his girlfriend” , you heard enough so you turn off the tv “shit” you think knowing that if the fans find out who you are they are never gonna forgive you , you know they are  going to blame you for the accident just like you blame yourself.

After what seemed like hours you finally manage to fall asleep.

In the morning you wake up feeling like crap and if you’re honest you have no idea how many hours you slept, all you know is you had nightmares about Justin’s fans chasing you being angry at you for hurting him to the point where you had to escape and hide somewhere they wouldn’t find you and on top of that Justin was mad too for hurting him so he couldn’t finish his tour and for disappointing his fans, you shake your head trying to get rid of the thoughts of the dream “it’s just a dream (y/n) get yourself together” you say to yourself angry for letting a stupid dream affect you so much.

A nurse brings you breakfast and helps you get out of bed to take a shower and you’re glad that your legs don’t feel like they’re about to give way , when you stand up you feel a lot stronger despite the lack of sleep , you’re also excited and somewhat nervous to see Justin, hoping he had a good night and still remembers you , when you’re just about to leave your room to visit Justin the doctor comes in “so I see you’re back on your feet, I guess you’re feeling better ?” he asks cheerful and you’re a bit annoyed by his good mood, you hate people that are so cheerful early in the morning “yes I feel fine” not making any effort hiding your bad morning mood and the fact that you want to go to Justin “I see you’re eager to see your boyfriend, don’t worry I won’t bother you much longer” he says amused “so no more headache or dizziness ?” he continues on a more serious note , “nope” you say shaking your head “ okay well than there is no reason for you to stay, you can go home today” he says with a smile thinking he just made you happy but you’re far from happy, “okay thanks doctor” you say trying to sound happy and shaking his hand in a polite way.

While you’re walking up the icu to see Justin a wave of panic overcomes you “how can I go home when Justin is still here, and how am I going to face the outside world with everything that happened , everyone must know your name by now” you think not watching where you’re going and making you walk in to the double doors that lead into the icu , “good one (y/n) “ you say to yourself laughing at your own clumsiness , you push the button that opens the doors and walk in straight to the room where Justin is or is supposed to be, when you enter the room you see his bed is empty and all made up like it’s ready for a new patient, you feel your heart drop and you start to freak out , you go back out of the room to the nurses desk “where is Justin?” you ask in a high voice completely in panic, the nurse sees you’re freaking out and comes running from behind her desk “ calm down sweetheart, they moved him to a regular room” she says in a soothing voice.

Letting out a deep breath of relief you start to calm down feeling a bit embarrassed for freaking out like that, “I’m so sorry “ you apologize “ I thought something had happened like he had another seizure “

The nurse smiles at you “no after he went for a scan this morning the doctor decided he could be moved to a regular room” she says in a friendly way, “he’s actually on the same floor as you in room 312 I believe” she continues , you spread your eyes in surprise and you actually get a bit mad cause no one told you he was moved but you just leave it  , thanking the nurse for her good care for Justin you leave the icu and go back to your floor straight to room 312 where the nurse said Justin would be.

When you arrive at the room the door is closed but you hear a tv playing inside, you gently knock on the door and after a few seconds you hear the familiar voice of Justin say “come in” , his voice sounds much louder and not hoarse anymore and the sound of his voice gives you butterflies, it’s the voice you fell on love with at the first place even before you met him.

Slowly pushing the door open you pop your head in to see Justin is sitting up in bed, there is no more oxygen and he only has one iv tube going in his arm, he sees your face and immediately his lights up putting the most gorgeous smile on his face “hey I’ve been waiting for you” he says excited , relieved he’s happy to see you and he remembers you from yesterday you enter the room and close the door.

“hi how are you feeling ?” you ask timid , the butterflies in your stomach making you nervous as if it was the first time you were meeting him again .

“well I feel great especially now that I see you” he smirks giving you a wink and making the butterflies in your stomach to do summersaults , he seems to gotten back to his old self and you wonder if he gotten his memory back “is that even possible overnight” you think to yourself but then he says something that stops you from wondering , “look they’re talking about me, apparently I’m a famous singer” he says excited pointing at the tv screen where they are talking about Justin and the fact that he woke up from his coma leaving the part out where he has amnesia.

Justin has that cute look on his face that makes you smile no matter how hard you try not to, “well I’m glad you find it amusing” you giggle , the look on his face is so adorable like a child that enters a toy store for the first time, and all you want to do is hug him but you hold back not knowing how he’ll react, “don’t you think it’s funny ?” he asks raising a brow “ I mean I wake up from a coma with amnesia and I end up being a famous singer” he chuckles , he turns his head to look at you and you see sparkles in his eyes, the same you saw the first time you guys met causing your heart to skip a beat.

Deep down in your heart you know he’s falling for you again but you’re not going to force things, as much as you want to hug and kiss him you’re going to let him make the first move (again) .

You feel really excited about getting to know each other again , well you know him but he has to get to know you all over again at least if he wants to keep seeing you.

After a few seconds of looking at you he opens his mouth to say something but closes it again turning his head back to the tv , “did you want to say something?” you ask curious , he looks back at you and his face is turning red, his cheeks blushing, he looks into his lap building up the courage but then takes a deep breath and looks back at you straight into your eyes “c-can I kiss you?”