Living your dream

chapter 18

Chapter 18

Hours have past , it’s already dark outside and you’ve just been avoiding the  inevitable , you see Justin is getting really tired and it’s time for you to go home but you don’t want to go at all and leave Justin there all alone. Most of all you would just crawl into bed with Justin and sleep there but the nurse said you couldn’t when you asked her and at this point your mom is getting impatient. Justin sees your sad face takes your hand and pulls you closer to him “come here baby” he says quiet , you go closer and snuggle in his arms, the safest place there is right now. You wrap your arms around him and crawl as close to him as you can afraid that if you let go he will be gone.

Feeling the tears surface you burry your face in Justin’s chest hoping he won’t notice but he does, he hears you sobbing , “baby don’t cry, I’ll still be here tomorrow” he answers your thoughts taking you chin in between his thumb and index finger making you look right into his gorgeous hazel eyes, eyes that if they could speak they would tell you how much they love you, how much Justin loves you and that’s  why you don’t want to leave him there alone, “I know but I’m gonna miss you so much” you mutter still sobbing thinking this will be the first time you and Justin are going to be so far apart since you met and that thought makes you cry even more. “I’m gonna miss you too more than you realize” he whispers back taking you in his arms kissing the top of your head .

After lying in his arms for a few minutes you hear someone softly knock on the door, you lift up your head and see your mom come in , she and Pattie left a few hours ago to grab some dinner and give you and Justin some time alone. “ honey it’s really time to leave, it’s late and Justin needs his rest” she states in a way you know so good that doesn’t leave room for discussion. “okay give me 5 minutes” you say letting out a deep breath not looking  forward to go at all , “can’t I just hide under your bed ?” you ask pouting , “I’m pretty sure they will find you “ Justin smirks amused by the look on your face. “yeah I guess you’re right and my parents won’t be so happy if I go missing again” you breath , giving Justin a long and passionate kiss you release yourself from his safe arms “if there is anything you need me for just call okay ?” you say sad . “I will baby I promise” he ensures you and then it’s time to go, “i love you and I’ll be here first thing tomorrow” you say giving him one last kiss “ I love you to baby, so much” . letting go of his hand you walk to the door , right before you leave the room you turn around to look at Justin one more time , smiling you open the door seeing Justin is waving at you, waving back you close the door and join your mom who was waiting in the hallway.

“you ready to go home sweetheart?” she asks cheerful happy that you’re coming home again, giving her a fake smile you nod your head inside feeling shattered and angry at yourself, angry for feeling this way, you know you will see Justin again tomorrow but you can’t help it , those few hours away from him are going to be like hell, “he’s going to be fine honey” your mom says in a soothing voice as if she could read your thoughts, you stop to look at your mom “I know that mom and I know I should be happy that he’s gonna stay with us once he’s out of hospital but what if something happens and I’m not there?”

“you really love him don’t you?” your mom asks loving seeing the worrying in your eyes, “oh mom I never loved someone as much as I love Justin, this isn’t just a crush, I want to spend the rest of my life with him” you fall into your mother’s arms not being able to hold back the tears any longer , “oh honey you’ve been through a lot these past few days but trust me Justin is going to be okay you don’t need to worry “ she pats your back in a comforting way , “thank you mom” you whisper to her shoulder” .

“I just want to see you happy sweetheart, that’s all” . hearing your mom saying those loving words makes you feel a bit better like only a mother can do and you know that everything will be alright.