True Family Love

Down the Rabbit Hole

(P.O.V. Jace)                                                                        When I finally wake up what feels like hours later, I am still falling into the darkness. Strange shapes seem to float by, non staying in my vision long enough to become clear what they are. I am slightly reminded of a little mundane story Clary told me.... Alex In wonderland? I think to myself as I tumble further and further down the seemingly endless hole. After I've been tumbling for hours more i start to feel my eyes closing themselves against the inevitability of exhaustion. As I close my heavy eyes, I see visions of a bloody Clary in a black bed, surrounded by black walls, seen over by a figure in white and red.. almost like an avenging angel standing over her. I'm unable to even think any coherent thoughts before I lose consiousness for the second time today... or maybe it's a different day. I wouldn't know.                          (P.O.V. Clary)                                                                 I awake in the all black room, my heart racing in panic, i sit up quickly, causing a shooting pain in my head, my shoulder, and my lower abdomen.   The pain in my lower abdomen is of one deeper then the surface of my skin. The feeling of it causes me to gasp and feel an unexplainable loss. I stand and stumble into the bathroom, the sight of myself alone is enough to win yet another gasp. I am a bloody mess, my hair is matted all over my head, one side of my face is covered is dried blood, the other side looks crudely cleaned. My arms and chest are covered in brown dried blood as well. I can't even imagine if i had a full length mirror. I close and lock the bathroom door, peeling the ruined clothes off of my sticky disgusting body, careful to avoid any cuts and bruises. As I pull off my jeans and panties, I'm greeted by another sight of blood. I feel sick to my stomach as I see a small figure in the blood. I've miscarried. (I'm rly sorry if that's not how it works, or if it's yucky.. but I wanted to add it in)  I do my best not to scream and cry, even though it mightve been Sebastian child, but that doesn't mean I don't feel the loss. I pick up the soiled clothes and dumped them in the trash bin, i turn on the water almost as hot as it will go. As I step into the hit stream of water I can help but sigh. The hot water feels good on my sore muscles, i can't say it feels as good on the cuts. I turn it a little colder and wash my entire body, carefully scrubbing my hair clean. Taking extra precision to be gentle on my head wounds. As I step out of the shower, my skin pink in some places u had to scrub so hard to get the blood off. I wrap myself in a soft navy blue towel, walking back into the bedroom, to find clothes on the bed for me. I put on the suprisingly plain black cotton bra and panties, and a pair of black leggings laid out, along with a dark green shirt that's 3 sizes too big. After my shower I feel better, even so mentally a little. I'm still worried about what Jace thinks, and still feeling a little guilty over him, but I can't help that right now. I sit on the edge of the bed, doing my best to stay away from the still blood stained sheets.
After what feels like a million years, an endarkened opens the door. "Miss Morgenste-"  I quickly interrupt him, "Fairchild." He looks confused and stutters, "uh.. Miss Fairchild... Sebastian, has requested your attendance at dinner." He stands there, ready to escort me should I choose to go. I stand and brush myself off, unconsciously trying to wipe the sins off of my hands, as if maybe I could make all of the murder and blood dissappear. I follow quietly after the endarkened, the only sounds being my ragged breathing the the soft slap of my bare feet against the cold marble floors. As we finally aproach the dinning room, i am greeted by Sebastians deep voice. "Well hello my queen, I'm glad to see you've decided to join me." I cringe internally at the words 'my queen' as I settle next to him I feel lightheaded all of a sudden, probably the loss of blood catching up with me. I try to maintain conversation, but soon my head starts throbbing and the world slowly goes black as I feel myself slipping out of my chair, I'm dully aware of someone picking me up as my world dissapates into complete darkness and silence.