Falling Hurts. A Kian Lawley fanfic

Chapter 12 - thinking

As I changed into short shorts and a t shirt, (my usual outfit) the question that jc asked me popped into my head. I never really thought about jc in that way, even though I can't disagree with the fact that he is super hot! But Kian and I have a connection. I like Kian but did jc ask him if he could ask me out? And if he did, does Kian even like me? And if he does why would he let jc ask me?

I'm getting way too ahead of myself. I don't even know if jc told Kian.

Thinking can kill.

As I hung my wet clothes on the towel rack I walked to the door. I opened it to see jc right in front of the door. "Shit jc you scared me!" I said with my hand on my chest. "I'm sorry" he said with a laugh. "So um can we talk about the question I asked you earlier?" He asked eagerly. I could tell he was trying to get the conversation over with since he kept looking up the stairs to see if anyone was coming. "Uh yeah about that.." I wasn't quite sure what I was going to say. Jc is great, but I like Kian, a lot. As I started to gather my thoughts and was about to answer him I was interrupted by kian running down the stairs, which sounded more like him falling down them.

"Heyyyy guys" kian yelled when he got to the bottom of the stairs. Jc's back was facing me and he was looking at kian. I couldn't help but to feel like he was making a not-so-happy face to kian. No one said anything for a minute and it was really awkward. "I'm going to go upstairs..." I said awkwardly. You could feel the awkwardness so well it misewell have punched you in the face.

*2 hours later*
Sitting by this bright blue pool thinking way too much, as usual. The moon is so bright, when I look at it it makes me think of the night kian and I had our first kiss. That night was so magical.

"Hey is this spot taken?" Kian asks pointing at the spot next to me. "No, go ahead" I say with a slight giggle then look back at the water that my legs are in. He sits down and puts his legs in as well. "So about your roommate, why is she out of town?" I just now realized that I never told Kian about why zoe isn't home. "My roommate, zoe, lost her dad a couple months ago, she doesn't really let me talk to her about it. But I think she really needed to be there for her mom. And it think zoe really needed her mom's comfort aswell." I see him look at me in the corner of my eye so I look at him. "Oh okay, that's really sad." He says sincerely. "Yeah it is, her mom lives in nyc so I guess she's going to be there for a while." Kian nods. We sit there silent for about 3 mins before kian says "so did jc ask you anything yet?" I knew exactly what he was talking about which kinda made me sad because it proved the point that jc told him he was going to ask me. "Uh, yeah.." I replied. "Well, uh what did you say" "you know what never-" I cut him off. "I didn't say anything, I never really got the chance, but I think I'm going to say no." I could tell a weight was lifted off kian's shoulders because he exhaled and his shoulders lowered. After our talk we really got to know eachother.

We talked about how I graduated from a high school in Memphis, Tennessee. And how I wasn't going to move out of the state until I felt like I needed a break from life. "I decided to come here, enroll in community college, find new friends while finding myself." I said "How did you get the courage to leave all of your friends and family?" He asked. "I'm not sure. It was hard. But I know that I needed it, I might move back there at some point but not anytime soon... since I met you" after that statement I turned my head to face him and smiled. He smiled in return. "See, I moved from tennessee to forget about my feelings. My ex boyfriend adam hurt me, bad. We started to date second semester of sophomore year and dated all the way till October of senior year. It hurt to let go of him. We were each other's "first times". We started to drift apart after he kissed a girl at at a party and I forgave him for it. When I moved to cali I was happy to have a fresh start. That happiness faded about 2 months ago when I noticed that I had only made one friend and that was zoe, and she doesn't even talk to me about her feelings. But kian, you changed my decision. You and your friends are the reason I'm not giving up on cali just yet."

A weight was lifted off of my shoulders now.