Falling Hurts. A Kian Lawley fanfic

chapter 31 - compromise

After thinking about what adam said I was speechless, I just walked back to the group. We all figured that we'd had enough drinks and drama so we decided to go back to my house since kian & jc didn't get a hotel yet and my parents weren't home. In the uber I sat in between kian and adam; aka the most awkward uber ride ever. Nick was in the front seat next to the uber driver, me and the guys were in the middle seat, and andrea and jc were in the very back seat.

No one spoke the whole time except for little mumbles here and there from the uber driver or andrea. We all just sat in the dark car listening to whatever nick was playing which mainly consisted of drake. Once we got back to the house we walked in quietly to find no one in sight. I'm guessing that joey and Anna went to sleep upstairs so we all just went downstairs. I asked nick and adam if they could bring down the extra mattress so we would have extra places to sleep.

"Okay so I was thinking andrea and I could sleep on the bed, jc and kian can sleep on the extra mattress, and nick and adam can sleep on the futon. Sound good?" I asked looking at everyone.

"Or we could sleep together.." Kian said walking up to me and wrapping his arms around my waist.

I awkwardly smiled and looked over at adam who scoffed and rolled his eyes.

"You have a problem?" Kian said immediately turning around looking at adam.

"Yeah I-" Adam began to confidently say as they both started walking towards eachother.

"Hey! Guys. Stop." I said angrily stepping in between them.

"Why is there so much tension between them?" Nick said.

"Because one of them is an ex and one of them is a complicated boyfriend" jc said before taking a chug of his beer.

"They're about to both be exes if they dont stop." Andrea said laughing.

I angrily looked at adam and kian back and forth before storming off upstairs.

*Kian's pov*

"Kodie wait-" I said even though she ignored me and kept walking. I sat down on the uncomfortable futon and put my head in my hands.

"You guys need to suck it up and move on from whatever conflict you have between you. Kian, stop being jealous. And adam, they're dating, get over it. I don't care if you have to stay away from eachother the whole time we're here, but you need to stop causing kodie more stress." Andrea said.

"At least I get to go back to cali sometime soon" I said.

"Well nick and I might be moving there. So then you'll see me a lot more, and so will kodie." Adam said.

I was shocked and angry and jealous all at the same time as I walked upstairs.

Kodie was sitting on a wooden swing on the front porch. "Babe, I'm so sorry" I said walking towards her and rubbing her thigh.

"Why can't you guys just get along? Just until we leave? How hard is that?" She said.

"I know and I'll try my best to ignore him. But he might be moving to cali.."

"I know but-"

"Wait. You know that your ex is moving to los angeles. Aka the place we live, and you didn't care to tell me." I said standing up

"I didn't think he was serious until I heard him talking about it to nick." She said

"But still kodie. He still loves you, how am I supposed to be fine with that?" I said angrily.

"Are you seriously only thinking about that. Do you not care about how I feel one bit" She said raising her voice. "My cousin might be moving to a state where I have no family whatsoever. I've been so home sick ever since I moved to cali, and just having nick there might help that. But no, all you care about is that my ex will be there. Your ex lives there as we speak. I can't believe how shallow you are" She said before storming inside.

*Kodie's pov*

I seem like I'm always storming off. I feel like that's all I do in this uneventful life I have. Am I kidding it's very eventful. Just not the events I thought it would be. 2 years ago I was in high school dating the star athlete. I thought my life couldn't get any better. I was applying to four colleges, never thought I would've gotten into UCLA, let alone all the colleges I applied for. I got into university of Tennessee, maryville college, one other one I can't think of right now, and ucla. I was a really good student, kept a 4.0 throughout all my years in high school and was captain of cheer.

I only applied for UCLA because I figured adam was going to get into it as well and that would just be a good option for the both of us. But no, he didn't get in because he didn't apply like he said he was going to. Instead, he got into u.t. but we all see that didn't work.

After the break up, I couldn't stand to stay in Tennessee. But now that I think about it, imagine how different my life would've been if I did. I might have gotten back together with adam. Who knows we might have even be engaged.

But life doesn't always turn out how you think it would. How would that be fun anyway?

I layed in this hammock in my back yard lit up by hanging lights all around my fence. And I just contemplated my life. My choices, the few friends I had, and what I really want to do with my life. I love kids, and would like a career with them, but I also like the thought of acting. Just playing as someone else, seems so fun. When I was a kid, the only thing I would play was house. I would be a mom, or a teacher. It was so simple when we were younger, not having to make big decisions or make money.

I heard the back door open and close. The sound not really phasing me, because I don't care who it was.

"I care about you. You know that right?" Kian said, not being in my vision yet, since the only thing I could see was stars.

"Sometimes it seems like no one cares about me. Like I could fall off the earth and no one would notice." I replied.

"Trust me people would notice. Me, jc, andrea, your family... adam." He said pulling up a chair next to me.

I turned my head looking at him. "You don't have to worry about him. If I wanted him, I would be with him"

"I know. It's just so hard for me to not get jealous. He was your first everything and I can never change that."

"You can be my first for some things. Like my first boyfriend to hold my niece. Or my first fiancé." I said smiling at him.

"What about first husband" he said.

"I'm pretty sure if you're my first husband, then you'll be my last." I said laughing.

"I would hope so" he replied. "I say stupid things sometimes, a lot of times. But that doesn't mean you can just walk away. If I say something you don't like, we need to talk it out."

"I know. Sometimes I just feel like it's better to work things out later so I don't say anything stupid"  "I just think it's easier, if this was to ever go down hill. That you'd be the reason it did. Not me. I know that's selfish, but that's how I feel"

"Yeah and I've messed this up, like all of the times its happened." He said

"But it's okay because here we are."

"You wanna go to bed?" He asked.

"Yeah, but I think I should sleep with andrea tonight. Just so it's not awkward for adam." I said

"Okay babe" he said grabbing my hand.

*next morning*

"Kodie" "kodie" "Kodie wake up !!" My mom said as she shook me.

I groaned because I could tell I didn't get enough sleep. "Anna is in labor. We are taking her to the hospital."