Falling Hurts. A Kian Lawley fanfic

Chapter 49 - let go

i wake up on a beautiful friday morning, i've only been working at the daycare for 2 weeks but any weekends are my favorite because i never work on them. i look at my phone and it's 11:00 a.m. i barely ever sleep in this late but it's amazing. Kian isn't next to me so i get out of bed. i try to put weight on my ankle, forgetting about the pain as usual, and i wince at the shocking feeling that goes up my leg. i then hop to the bathroom and get my meds out of my hiding spot in the bathroom.

when i truly think about it, i feel bad about lying to Kian. but then again, it can't hurt him. it's just a thing that i hide because i didn't want it to mess with the great job opportunity. i think he'd actually understand if i explained it to him, which i will. soon. but i'm lying to myself, i know i am. i'm scared of what the doctors will say, and i'm scared of losing this job.

after the pain eases i walk upstairs and see Kian and Jc filming a video in the living room and Andrea sitting in the kitchen eating and watching them film. i stop at the top of the staircase and just watch for a little bit, admiring how funny and talented my boyfriend, and one of my best friends are. i then look at Andrea, who looks as if she's doing the same.

she smiles at me as i walk over.

"good morning sleeping beauty. sleep good?" she asks.

"yes, actually" i laugh.

i sit down next to her and we just watch Kian and Jc do what they do best.

"hey, so how's your ankle feeling?" she whispers to me

"it's not good Andy, i'm starting to have to take the pain meds more often and i'm running out anyway. i only have like 15 left. and i know i need to tell Kian and need to get it checked but i'm so scared" i say, confiding in my best friend.

"we need to get it checked out. the longer you wait, the longer it'll take to heal." she says "i think if you tell Kian the true reasoning he'll understand."

"i know, i just also don't want to lose the job. it's so amazing."

"it really is" she replies

just then we hear the boys do their outro so we know it's time to stop talking about it.

"good morning babe" Kian says as he walks up and gives me a quick kiss on the lips

i smile as a response and look over to Andrea and Jc who are in a conversation. i take a look around the open concept of the house and have a thought.

a party.

something i really need right now. to get my mind off of everything. and soon enough Andrea and i will be starting school and won't have any time on our hands to just let go, because of school and work.

"how about a party tonight?" i say out of nowhere, causing everyone's eyes to be on me. "it's a Friday night, it's getting close to the end of summer, and we need this. everything has been so stressful lately and it's just going to get worse. we need a night off to just let go and have a great time."

"i honestly agree, we do need this. soon, Kian and i will be filming a lot and we'll be super busy. and you two will be starting school and working." Jc says.

"i'm down" Kian says smiling and nodding.

"LET'S PARTAY" Jc says as him and Kian run into the living room to start making plans.

"do you really think this is the best thing for you right now? i really don't want your ankle getting any more hurt than it is." she says with concern.

"i need this Andrea. Kian and i have actually been doing really good lately, you and Jc are together, and we got these amazing jobs. we deserve to celebrate, especially since these past few months have been so full of ups and downs. all of us deserve this." i say "also, i'm not sure how long this whole 'getting along with Kian' will be going on for. especially when the news about my ankle comes out."