Falling Hurts. A Kian Lawley fanfic

Chapter 20 - three little words

I did the stupidest thing ever.

First, I said "I love you" when it's too early in a relationship and the way I said it was stupid.

Second, I ran away before he could finish

And now I'm sitting on the balcony looking at this beautiful view wondering how I could be such an idiot.

He probably doesn't love me, but if he does then he probably thinks I don't love him.

I know, we've only been dating for like two weeks and only known each other for a month but this month with each other dating or not has been hands-down the best month of my life.

Kian makes me smile, I mean damn his name brings a smile to my face. He is the sweetest, most caring guy I've ever met, and I truly do like and care for him. I would do anything for this boy. He gives me this natural high, that I want to have forever. And his kisses, are just- I can't even explain. Every single kiss wether it's a make out session or just a peck, makes my heart flutter.

So did I just answer one of my many questions about my idiotic action?

I think I do love this boy... I fell for this boy. But it's really gonna hurt if he doesn't love me back.

After realizing what I said wasn't that stupid but what I did after was, I heard the balcony door close.

"Hey"

I knew that voice, and luckily it wasn't kian's.

"Hey andrea" I said not looking away from the view.

"What's wrong?" She said while sitting in the chair next to me.

"Well, I just told kian I loved him in the worst way possible."

"What?? What happened!" She said worried

"Well he was saying that he watched me sleep and I said 'awh I love my little stalker'"

"Oh, well, that's not that bad-" She began but I interrupted

"No listen to this, after I said that, I started rambling and then he was about to say something but instead I said 'I think andrea wants me' and I ran up here"

"You did that? and you didn't let him finish?"

"Yeah I was so scared and nervous about what he was going to say And still am. And I thought about it and I really do love him. No matter what anyone says, it might be 'too early' but I know my feelings and they've never been like this for anyone."

"Not even adam?" Andrea asked.
(Adams my ex bf and the guy I lost my v-card to)

"Adam was different. I was in love with the thought of what we could be. But with kian I'm truly in love with him. Not my relationship."

"Wow. I really think you do love him. Have y'all done 'it' yet?"

"No but I want to. But he said he wants it to be perfect and he said he wants it to be 'his last first' with anyone!"

"Awh that's so sweet. I'm sure he loves you, you're hard not to love" She said with a smile and we hugged
"Thanks andy".
"So can we go out because I really don't want to talk about this with him.... yet" I said.

"No! You guys have to talk! Then we can go out."

"Ughhhhh andrea." I said pouting.

"Come on." She said while grabbing my hand.

We walked inside and walked down the stairs. She grabbed jc's door handle and looked at me. She mouthed "GO"
I rolled my eyes and turned the door handle. As I slowly opened the door, I closed my eyes tight and then opened them.