Falling Hurts. A Kian Lawley fanfic

Chapter 27 - welcome back

The drive to my loft was the worst drive ever. I was balling the whole time and I could barely see over the tears. Also, I was still on my depressing playlist which wasn't making it any better.

I got to my loft at around 10:00 at night. When I got there it felt so empty, I hadn't been there in weeks and all my important stuff was at kian's with me. When I got there I started unloading my bag. I plugged my phone up to the speaker in the living room that shakes the whole building. I didn't feel like getting a noise Complaint so I just played loud enough so you could hear it in every room. I put in a load of laundry, washed the few dishes that needed to be, and made me a small salad. After eating I put my clothes in the dryer then went into my bathroom and turned on the bath. I filled it up with hot water and put in a small amount of bath salts then a bath bomb. After changing the station back to depressing break up songs and stripping down I laid down in the tub for about an hour.

Afterwards I got out and changed into short short pajamas and a random t-shirt. I walked into the living room and sat down on the couch. The feelings about what happened today were coming back. So I turned the TV on and went to netflix.

My phone vibrated and I instantly grabbed it, hoping it was kian. It wasn't.

But it was my bestfriend:)

Text from: Andy😊😈😙💜
"Hey girl, can I call or are you asleep?"

"Yeah you can call" I typed back.

Moments later my phone started ringing. I answered with a simple "hey" in the usual monotone voice I've been using almost all of today. "Hey girl, what are you doing?" She seemed happy. "Nothing much." "You're being short, why?" She asked."Nothing I'm just feeling down, something happened between kian and I. But I can wait to tell you till next monday." "Awh I'm sorry, but are you at kian's or your loft?" She asked. "My loft. Why?" "No reason I was just wondering. Good talking to you, bye" She didn't even let me say bye and quickly hung up.

I wondered why for a minute then blew it off and Continued to figure out what I wanted to watch. I ended up deciding on the fosters. (Which btw is an amazing show). I watched two episodes until I heard a knock on my door. I got up and looked through the peep hole, it was covered. I instantly wondered who it was, being in danger didn't enter my mind even though it sometimes should. Instead I unlocked my door and opened it. I opened it to see andrea with 4 suitcases and 2 gallons of ice cream, one being my all time favorite of Ben & Jerry's: double fudge brownie. My jaw dropped open and I hugged her tightly around the neck.

"What are you doing back so early?" I asked in a slightly better tone than I've used all day. "Well I got done packing pretty early so I ended up just coming down here.". "Well that's great, here let me take these to your new room." I took 2 of her suitcases to the extra room, setting the ice cream on the table on the way there. She took the other 2 and sat them in there. "So I was wondering if you wanted to go back to Tennessee with me in like two weeks?" I asked. "Oh yeah that should work out. So is kian not going anymore?" She asked. "No.." when she brought up kian I looked down at my feet. She could tell something was wrong. "Come on, let's talk." She grabbed the ice cream and we walked over to the couch and sat down. We opened our ice creams and started eating them. "What happened?" She asked breaking the small silence. "Well, I was excited to tell him about my niece and I thought he would be excited to meet my family. But when I told him he acted uncomfortable and told me that is was a lot of 'pressure'. And I got mad and said 'Well moving in with you is a lot of pressure.' And I walked outiside because I was going to get Chinese food and we got in an even worse argument. I ended up saying something stupid like 'living alone has it's perks and he said 'being single has its perks'." After I said those last words a tear rolled down my cheeck. "Awh kodie I'm sorry, he shouldn't of said that. And I'm sure he feels so bad. Have you talked to him since?" She asked. "No, I think he doesn't want to make it worse or maybe he's thought about it and doesn't want to be with me anymore." I said. "Are you freaking crazy? That boy loves you. You're his everything. He would stop the world just to make you smile. We know how hard headed and stubborn he is, you think he'd give this up over some stupid argument." She made a point. "It wasn't the stupidest argument we've had. I think it hurts me the most because maybe he was saying how he really felt." I said. "I doubt that kodie, and you know being single sometimes does have its perks. But you don't want to lose this, you don't want to lose him. He's amazing and I know for a fact you'll never find a guy like him. Anywho, I'm going to go surprise jc. Are you going to be okay for about an hour? Or do you want to try and come with?" She asked. "No, I'll be fine. It's not time, I can't go there. I just want to sit here, eat my ice cream and watch the fosters". I said. "Okay boo, bye."