Falling Hurts. A Kian Lawley fanfic

Chapter 25 - differences

Even though it already seems like I've been living with kian and jc this whole time, I haven't. Yes, I sleep, eat, shower, and chill there. But that's different from actually living there.

For a girl, your house has to be a home. You have to be able to be comfortable when you are having cramps from hell, you have to be able to dance around the house jamming to Music when no one's home, you have to be able to pig out and talk about your feelings with your friends, and most importantly you need to be able to eat ice cream and binge watch all of your favorite shows.

What if I can't do that if I live with kian and jc? What if they always have or go to party's. What if one of them are ALWAYS there so I can never dance and sing to amazing Music. What if I get in a horrible argument with one of them, imagine how awkward that'll be.

There I go again, over thinking. But I do need to talk to andrea. "Hey girl" andrea answered after the 3rd ring. "Hey.." I said, trying not to make it noticeable that I'm uncomfortable. "Wassup? Everything ok?" "Yeah, yeah, it's just kian asked if I wanted to move in." I said. "Oh that's great!! Did you say yes? You should because you already practically live there." She said excitedly. "Uhh andrea I think you're forgetting the whole 'you live with me' thing. Where would you live?". "Well I can live at the loft and try to find a person to rent your room out to. And then if I can't maybe I can move into to one of kian & jc's extra rooms, I mean they have like 3". " I mean yeah I guess, but are you and jc even a thing?" I asked. "Idk we talk/text every day. He's the first person I talk to in the mornings and the last person I talk to at night. He's great and I'd like to be a thing with him but ima just go with the flow. I think we're just gonna take things slow for a while." She said. "Yeah that makes sense. But I already said yes to kian, I'm just super concerned about a few things." I said. "Like what?" "Well what if him and I get in huge arguments? What will I do?" I asked. "You'll run to me and we'll talk it out over ice cream. Then I'll tell you to go apologize." "Okay touché. But what if we break up?". "The only way that you guys will break up is if something really big happens and if that happens then we'll get a hotel room and pig out on junk foods and talk about how stupid boys are. And if y'all still haven't made up after that then we'll start house hunting. Babe, quit worrying, everything will be fine. And in two months you'll be in school which is closer to his house anyway." "Gosh Andy, you always know what to say. Thanks for making me feel better. I love you and see you next week." "Bye love" She said before hanging up.

I walked inside from the front porch. And walked into the terrifying sight of kian and jc at their worst, they were playing Mario kart. Which makes them very competitive, and I know to not get in between them while that was happening. It's only 5:30 pm and honestly all I feel like doing is being lazy but I really need to get stuff done. First thing I needed to do was call my parents. I don't talk about my family much because there's not much to tell. I have a mom, dad, and a brother named joey. My brother is 30 and has a baby coming on the way that I'm super excited about. My sister in law is due any day now and they still haven't announced the gender which is driving the rest of my family and I crazy. Kian knows about my family but I forgot to tell him about how I'm supposed to be an aunt soon. Anyway, I'm not that close to my parents, never have been. That's why it was pretty easy to move here. They were kind of sad but they've always liked joey better. When my mom answered with her 'I'm always happy' tone I knew I would have to hang up soon because she exhausts me. "Hi honey! I haven't heard from you in weeks. What are you up to?" She talked in her normal high pitched voice. "Well a phone works both ways mom, but I've been fine." I answered. "Still with that boy? The one you sent pictures of?" I sent her some pictures of kian and I saying how I had a new boyfriend, which I'm sure almost made her have a heart attack because she loves when I'm in a relationship. "Yeah mom, I think I'm actually gonna be moving in with him soon". "Kodie that's fantastic honey! I'm glad you're doing okay. Your father and I miss you. You need to come down for the arrival of your niece!". "WHAT? Mom, it's a girl?". "Yes honey, joey just told us yesterday and he wanted me to tell you the news. Come down here in 2 weeks?" She asked. "Um yeah I'm sure that will work out." "Oh and bring that boy of yours, we want to approve of him." She laughed. "Yeah Yeah we'll see." "Okay honey, well your check should be there by tomorrow, love you bunches but I got to go switch the laundry, hopefully see you and your boy in 2 weeks. Bye doll". "Bye mom, love you".

So, I get a check for $4,000 a month from my parents. I know it's horrible that I still get money from my parents but they insist on sending it since they're rich. And I'm not going to turn it down. Even though I have a job (that I rarely work at) I still take the money they send. And school isn't a lot of money since I have a scholarship and anything I owe, they insist on paying. They feel like if they pay my way through life that I'll become a doctor or lawyer, but little do they know I don't plan on doing that. Yes, I am taking a small nursing program just to see if I like it but, I'm also taking a program on acting. I would love to be an actress and I'd also like to travel, but life doesn't always end up how you want it to. Kian is doing great, his acting career is going to be amazing, same as jc. And I'd never want to rely on them to get my way, so I'm just gonna go with the flow and try to figure out what I want to be stuck doing the rest of my life.

But on another note, I'M GOING TO BE AN AUNT TO A BABY GIRL. This is crazy, I've never really thought the whole thing through. But the sad part is, I'll rarely get to see her because of where I live. And it's not like I can just move back home. I have school and kian and jc and Los Angeles is doing great for me. If I went back to live in Tennessee I would go insane. I lived there my whole life and I don't need to live there anytime soon. Maybe when I'm older and am starting a family of my own, but I guess I'll have to wait and see.

I ran up stairs at a perfect time, seeing that kian and jc had taken a break from the game and were now lightly arguing while gulping down water bottles. "Hey boys" I said as I sat down at the bar. "Hey babe" "hey" they said almost in sync. "So, I know Mario kart is super important but I'd like to talk to y'all for a second." They both nodded agreeing to listen. "So I know I don't talk about my family much, and all y'all know is that they're rich and send me money, but, I just got some very exciting news. So, my brother joey is married and his wife is about to pop out a baby anytime soon which makes me an aunt, and the baby is a girl." I finished, then exhaled. "Kodie that's great!" Kian said and jc nodded while smiling. "So I'm gonna have to go back home in 2 weeks for the arrival and I might stay a week or so." I said. "Okay hun, that's very exciting" kian said throwing his empty water bottle in the trash and walking past me to the couch. I walked over and stood in front of him "and, um my mom, being the crazy lady she is asked if you wanted to come. Not that you have to, just she wanted to meet you." I said trying not to push it on him. "Oh, meet the parents huh?" He said as if he was questioning the statement. "I mean usually couples do that before they plan on moving in with eachother but if you don't want to its whatever, I'll just go." I said walking back into the kitchen getting my car keys off the hook. "No, kodie I wasn't saying that as in I don't want to go.." He began as he got up and stumbled into the kitchen. "I do, I really do, it's just a lot of pressure." "Oh yeah and moving in with your boyfriend that you've been dating for about 2 months isn't, I get it." I said starting to get frustrated. I walked to the front door and grabbed the handle. "Im getting Chinese food, text me if you want anything" I said bluntly looking at jc then kian. "Babe, let's not fight." Kian said as I opened the door and started walking to my car. "It's not a fight. It's simply me, asking you to go meet my parents and meet my niece for the first time. And you, saying you'd rather not. It's not a fight." I opened the drivers side door and got in. Kian opened the passenger side door and slid on to the seat. "I didn't say anything about me not wanting to go" he said slightly raising his voice. "And that's not all that was said, you also said you didn't want to move in with me." He said. "I never said that,I said that it's also a lot of pressure to have to move in and have to change your lifestyle according to the people you'd live with." "How the hell would you have to 'change' your lifestyle?" Kian said raising his voice louder than mine. "Im a girl, living alone has it's perks." "But.." He cut me off before I could say another word. "Yeah and I'm a guy, being single has its perks."

That hit me like a truck.

He got out, closed the car door and stood there looking at me. I think he realized how much it hurt me, but I didn't want his pity. A tear rolled down my cheek and I quickly wiped it away. "Remind jc to text me if he wants food" I said, with pain behind my voice, and he could tell. I started the car and put it in reverse. "Wait kodie I-" he stuttered and I knew he didn't know what to say so I backed out of the driveway regretting everything that had just went down.