Falling Hurts. A Kian Lawley fanfic

Chapter 21 - doubt

*20 mins later* Kodie's pov:
It's dark, he still isn't here. I don't know wether to be mad or sad about this. I'm considering sleep, but I'm also considering leaving. I can't leave, if I did I'd be just as bad as him.

My anger/sadness started to get to me. A tear was rolling down my cheek once again. At this point I didn't even care. Andrea was downstairs asleep, even though it's only 9:30. And I honestly don't care that I'm crying, I need to.

The sound of two car doors closing rings at my ears. They're here, I wipe my tears off my cheeks, but I can't hide my puffy red eyes. As I hear the door open I realize that I'm balled up on this couch with a soft plush blanket playing my music from the speakers. The bass is great but the timing is bad, especially because this song is a sad-rap song.

"Kodie, ar- are you okay?" Kian says slowly.

He sounds fine. Doesn't seem like this has been messing him up as much as it has me.

"Kian I'm great!" I said sarcastically with a sniffle.

He walks around to the front of the couch which happens to be right in front of me. Seeing his face makes my brain furious but my heart hurt. The tears begin again, I'm such a baby.
Quit crying, quit crying. Oh gosh, It's noticeable now.

"Kodie, no, please don't cry. What's wrong?" He asked with a sincere face.

"What's wrong is that you left me. I told you that I loved you and you left. I needed to talk to you about it and you were no where to be found." I stand up. "You are causing these tears and your going to cause way more If you don't love me back. please tell me now if you don't because I really don't want you to see me like this much longer." The tears are coming down like rain.
I hear jc walk downstairs. There's been a pause for a while. This hurts, he doesn't love me.

"Okay, I get it." I say with more tears rolling down my face.

"Wait kodie-" before he could finish I walked out of the front door.

I couldn't leave, I didn't have my keys. But I knew that if I sit on this front porch until I had the courage to go get my stuff that everything would be okay.

Kian's pov: (before kodie walked outside)

I feel so bad. I had no idea she was feeling like this while I was gone. If I knew that she really wanted to talk about it I would've stayed. I'm such an idiot. She ends with "... please tell me now because I really don't want you to see me like this much longer." Her tears make me sad. Seeing this beautiful girl that I love crying makes my body ache. And knowing that I'm the one that caused these makes it 10× worse. "Okay I get it" shit shit. I didn't say anything. I love her. "Kodie wait-" I say turning around as my eyes followed her body. 'Bang' the door slammed. A tear rolls down my cheek.

What. Did. I. Do.

"Dude what's up?" Jc says at the top of the staircase.

"I just screwed everything up." I said clenching my jaw.

"Uhh-" jc started
"What? What's going on? Where's kodie?" Andrea said worried

"Kodie asked if I loved her back. And I didn't say anything." Andrea's jaw dropped. "-but it's not like that, I was thinking so much that I forgot to answer. But I do love her, I really love her."

"So, where is she?" Andrea asked

"I- I don't know she went out the front door... I really did mess up didn't I? Did I mess this whole thing up?"

"Kian I'm sure everything will be fine. Just go talk to her " andrea said

"Do you think she'll talk to me. Wouldn't it be better for you to go out there?" I said nervously.

"No! She'll think you really don't love her now go!!" She said practically pushing me out of the door.

I slowly open the door and close it behind me. I heard kodie sniffling and exhaling loudly.

"Kodie listen, I'm sorry I didn't say anything back. I was just over thinking while you were talking. But I heard everything you said. I felt terrible for leaving and for causing you to cry. I'm so so sorry kodie." I said with a big breath at the end.

"You may have been over thinking but you still haven't said it back." She said looking up at me with her big, blue beautiful eyes that were red and puffy, her lips shivering, and her nose still sniffling.

"Kodie-" I said as I sat next to kodie on the step and I grabbed her hand. She stared at our hands and a couple tears dropped here and there. I pulled her chin to where she was facing me.
"Kodie I love you more than you could imagine. I love your laugh, I love how you laugh at my stupid jokes that aren't even funny, I love that you can be yourself around me and when I make weird ugly faces you make some back. I love your kisses and how I crave them 24/7. I love how when you wake up in the morning you always turn to face me to see if I'm awake, and sometimes I act like I'm asleep and you always say "sleep well handsome" and kiss my cheek. I love every single thing about you, even your imperfections, but your imperfections are what truly make you flawless, in my eyes. I love you and I will say it a million times if I need to, I'll say it every second of every minute of every day."

That smile that I've been waiting for was slowly plastered on her face.

"I mean I was just looking for a 'I love you kodie' but that was so amazing kian. I love you so much" She said with another tear streaming down but this time I exhaled in relief because I knew that was a happy tear.

I smiled back at her, grabbed her cheeks and kissed her. Our tounges danced for a while and when we separated we both smiled then walked in the house.