Insecure

06

July 3, 2015

Dear Diary,

There's only a few days left until the move. I don't know if I'm happy or sad but seeing my family again could be cool.

Maybe this'll jumpstart my new attitude. I don't know if I'll miss this place but then again good memories.

The movie, was my first outdoor movie I liked it. We got some popcorn and candy, I want to do it again.

Sarah-Jane Hines

I look around the room and see what I must clean. I guess I'll be getting everything packed up and cleaned today since we leave Tuesday, I don't have a lot of time.

I grab a box and throw whatever in there. Over the year of being here. I've thrown most of my stuff out so I really don't have much to do.

I turn on the music, which helps me stay focused. I leave out clothes for the rest of the stay and pack every thing else up and stack it outside my door.

I'm not embarrassed to say that I still have my favourite fairy cover with Tinkerbell. (Same until last year- Z)

Music is like my motivation because without it, I would be sitting down doing god knows what. (I actually wrote a poem about music two years ago-N)

"Boy, you know that I want it
I can tell you want me as your lady Can't deny that your sexy
So what's it gon' be

Is you gon' get a job
And make some of that green
You tryna take me out
But you can't pay for me
I guess I got the cash
I'll take one for the team
Baby, can't you see? Oh, oh
I won't ask you to go

But I can't be your suga mama
Your suga mama, baby
I can't be your suga mama
I said, I said
I can't be your suga mama
Your suga mama mmmmm mmmm

I can't be your suga mama
Your suga mama, baby
I can't be your suga mama
And even though I love the thought of you

No, I can't be your... can't be your
Su-, su-, su-, your suga mama
Su-, su-, su-, your suga mama
Su-, su-, su-, your suga mama
Mmmmmm, yeah" I sing and dance while picking up stuff and putting it wherever I decided it needed to be.

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Finally, I have finished the hardest part. I change the song off of "Still Into You" and went onto "BBHMM". I walk out of my room and to the kitchen to see my mom cooking and that it was dark. Where did the day go? Cleaning, right sucks.

"Whatcha cookin" I ask. "Alfredo" my mom says and I nod.

"Did you get your packing done" my mom asks and I nod then get a bottle of water.

"I'm going to get a shower." I say and my mom nods.

I go back to my room and get some clothes before heading to the bathroom. I lock the door just in case someone decided they had to use the bathroom. Just as I opened the bathroom door my mom yelled, "dinner's ready". I put my clothes with the rest of my dirty clothes and then went to the kitchen.