Insecure

50

"I forgot something." Cody says as we were half to the car after already turning in the hotel key. "What?" I ask a little worried. "I forgot to tell you, how beautiful you look," he says and my insides do back flips. 

"Thank you," I say and he smiles. "Couple goals!" Chelsea says recording us most likely for Snapchat or Instagram. I wave and continue my walk to Cody's car. I spaced out and didn't realize that Chelsea was following me dead doing a Australian accent commenting on my ass and outfit.

"This is our best friend?" I question Ranch, who was already in his car ready to go. "No, yours. I am just the driver." Ranch says and I laugh. "Why does she get put off on me?" I ask. "Girls got to stick together." Ranch says and I smile. "true." I say.

I wave at Chelsea and Ranch as Cody backs out of the parking lot and they wave back. "You guys do know we're going to the same place, right?" Cody asks. "Yeah we know." I say and grab his aux cord. "You're not even going to ask if you can use it." He says and I tap the pandora icon. "No." I say and press play. The first to come on was Drive by Halsey.

Halfway home and about 100 songs later we ended up in Pittsburgh at a gas station so we wouldn't have to stop anymore. "Are you sure that you want to go home?" Cody asks and I quickly reply with, "yes."

"Why? I don't want to miss you." He says. "I need to get home, I've barely been there in a month." I say and he pouts. "Okay." He says and finishes pumping the gas and moves the car. We get out. He comes over to my side and pulls me close to him.

"I'm going to miss you." He says and leans down to kiss me. "That's sweet!" I say when we break away. He smiles. A car horn beeps and scares the crap out of me. I look behind him and see Chelsea smirking. I flip her off and smile at Cody. "Bye babygirl," he whispers in my ear. "Bye Daddy." I say and get into Ranch's car and blow him a kiss.

He stood there in shock then waved back and got in his car. I could finally breath. "Can we please stop and get me some Alieve or Tylenol?" I ask stretching out in the backseat. "Why? What happened to you?" Ranch questions. "She had sex!" Chelsea tries to whisper but yells it.

"Oh My God!" Ranch says kind of excited. "How was it? Stupid question. How was he?" Chelsea asks turning around in her seat. "Painful and awkward." I say and close my eyes so the sun would shine on my face.

"Oh. Well listen that was just your first time, try it a few more times and you will enjoy it, I swear." Chelsea says.

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We got just in time for dinner. My mom was making hamburgers, my brother was home...shocking and I was trying not to be in pain around them. "Hi mama!" Chelsea says and my mom waves not paying much attention. "Smells good, I think we should stay for dinner." Ranch says and I roll my eyes.

"Why not?" I say. They cheer and Ranch kindly takes my bag to my room. "So how was your trip?" Lamar asks when me and Chelsea go to the living room. I look at Chelsea and she gives me a smirk. "Fun." I say.

Cody

When I tell you there is no other girl like Sarah-Jane, there is no one that could ever remotely compare to her. For the first time, we had sex and it was awesome. Although I don't think she felt the same way, she was acting so different after but she said everything was fine. I think I should know her and women in general well enough to know when she/they say they are fine, they most likely are not.

I tried to call her once I had gotten home and settled down but she didnt answer, she was either sleep or just completely ignoring me, either way I can not wait to see her in a few days. I don't know if I can wait that long.

I texted her and told her to call me. I took a nap and woke up around 8, she still hadn't answered or seen it. My mom came knocked on my door letting me know dinner was ready. I made my plate and went back to my room. 

Did she hate me? Was it about last night? Did I do something wrong? Is she ever going to talk to me again?  I sat there for a few minutes determining if I should call her or not and I think you know what I came up with.

"Sissy your phone is ringing." Faythe says. "I don't care." Sarah says. "She says she doesn't care." Faythe says. "Okay." I say. "Who are you talking to?" Sarah asks Faythe. "Cody." Faythe says and waves then shows Sarah who covers up.

"You could have told me that she was in the tub," I say. "Sorry." She says and the screen goes black. "He's not going to see anything else." Sarah says. "He better not." I'm guessing her mom says.

"Sorry, I've just been texting you and you haven't answered which worried me. I thought You guys got kidnapped or something." I say. It was quiet for a few seconds. "When I got here dinner was ready so my friends stayed and then we just hung out with my brother and his friends, I did not want to, and Ranch's parents kicked him out for being gay. So Cody, getting back to you was not of importance, I will call you later." She says and hangs up.

I just laid there. I am part of the problem she just can't say. I get and take my plate in the kitchen. "Why are girls so confusing?" I ask my mom. "We aren't." She says. "I just love every single thing about Sarah, okay, we are in a good, no great place, I think and she is just ughh..."I say and my mom laughs. "You love her." She says.