Insecure

15

August 7, 2015

Best time ever, like what has happened to the Sarah-Jane that was so shy she barely went outside or out of her room for that matter. I feel somewhat good about myself and that's all that matter. "Jane, let's go" my mom yells and I snap out of my trance. "Here I come" I yell back and walk to her car. I was going to ask where we were going but decided against it. I was getting bored and anything was better than staying home and enduring Lamar and his friends.

Once we get where we were going, I groan lightly. "Come on, get out" My mom says while I reluctantly get out of the car and then help my sisters. We walked in and I wished to be back in the comfort of my own room. "Come on in sit down" my cousin Sarah-Jane says. For few seconds I didn't move because one my sisters were clinging onto me and two, I was debating on running back home.

In the end I ended up sitting down and letting the misery soak in. Faythe went with my mom and Grace sat on my lap. I start watching tv, ridiculousness was on.

Haunted starts playing and my other cousin Donate sits next to me. I hurriedly rush to pick up my phone.

"Hi" I say. "Hello, friend" Cody says. "I'm out" I say. "Where"? Cody asks.

"Family" I say. "That's fun" he says. "Not really" I say. "Your no fun" he says. "I know" I say. "What's they're name" he asks.

"Sarah-Jane" I say. "Same as yours" he asks. "Yeah." I say. "That's so cute" he says. "No it's not. I'll talk later" I say.

"Tell Mom I said Hi" he says. "She said Hi" I say. "Bye. Sweets" he says. "Bye" I say.

"Cody says, hi" I say to my mom. She just nods and while everyone else is surprised. "What was that" Sarah asks.

"Her friend Cody." my mom says while I jus hide my face. "Friend" Donate asks. "Yeah apparently he has a girlfriend" my mom says. "What" Sarah asks and my mom nods.
....

We get to the store and my mom asked if I wanted to go in. I said "no". She goes into the store and my phone rings.

"Helloo" I say. "Hi, Flower" Cody says and I make a weird face. "D

Please don't call me that. That sounds like something a Daddy would say to his baby girl" I say. "What did you just say" he asks and I laugh nervously.

"I said, please don't call me that." I say. "Whatever you say baby girl" he says and I could tell he was smiling or at least about to start laughing. "I have to go" I say. "Hold on. I was just kidding but that could work on you" he says.

"Your not daddy" I say. "Have you not read my comments" he says and I laugh. "Well, your not mine" I say. "Who is then" he asks. "That's need to know" I say. "I need to know" he says.

"So, when can I meet Sam" I ask. "Nice save. I don't know. You have to meet my family first. This is a two way street" he says. "You say that like we're in a relationship but I would love to meet your family" I say.

"Cool. Your cousins name is Sarah-Jane" he asks and I groan. "Yea. I hate it" I say. "Why" he asks. "Because you don't know who somebody wants." I say and he laughs. "Good bye, boy" I say. "Bye baby girl" he says and hangs up.

We haven't even known each other for a long time but it feels like forever that we've known each other.