Insecure

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I ended up calling Cody that next morning when I woke up to cuss him out for not calling me to let me know he got home. Him and I had completely forgotten about what he whispered to me before he left but maybe it was supposed to be forgotten. I don't think I am confident enough to even to do that yet. I still want to cover up whenever I am around him so being on a camera, I would have talked him out of that eventually knowing me and my insecurities.

"Hey, babe" I say to Cody who plopped down on my bed. He leans over and kiss me on the lips. No matter how many times we do that, I always, get all fuzzy inside. I hate it. "Hey, babygirl." He says. We were going to take my little sisters trick-or-treating and then go to a party afterwards even though there is school tomorrow, which I am skipping to spend the day with Cody.

"Do you have your outfit picked out?" I ask him. He nods. "Do you have yours picked out?" He asked me and I nod. I had two different costumes picked out. One was a minion and one was a purge costume. "What time are we leaving?" I ask. "Whatever time you want." He says.

"Well it starts at 6 and ends at 9. The party starts at 10 and Chelsea wants us to go to her house." I say thinking about the times. "If we leave in about 25 minutes, we will be done before 8:30 which leaves me time to change before going to Chelsea's." I say. "What if we leave in 30 minutes and you can change at Chelsea's." He says and I shrug. "Fine." I say.

We got dressed and waited until my sisters were ready to leave. Which was off schedule but we would make it work. They were going to have candy until next year. Probably not though because old candy is disgusting but you know what I mean.

"We are finally ready?" I question and turn around to make sure they were buckled. They nod. "Alright. Leggo." He says and backs out of the driveway and to the many houses that were waiting for us.

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"I am so tired. I dont wanna do anymore." I say to Cody. "We can stop?" Cody asks the girls. It was 9:44 and it wasnt like they were going to be missing anything. "We need gas." I say to Cody. He shakes his head. "I see that it is on E. Boy if you dont stop." I say to him. He looked scared.

We went to the first gas station we saw and got gas. He went in paid for gas and came out with a bag of junk food and more candy. "He gave me the rest of their candy." He says and I sigh. "Whats in the bag?" I ask. He doesnt answer. He pumps the gas and then gets in the car. We take the kids back home with 2 bags of candy and some bug juices.

"Thank you, Cody for taking them." My mom says and he says, "no problem." I go to my room to get my other costume then I go back to his car. "Whats in the bag, Cody?" I ask. "Nothing." He says. I give him a look and he shakes his head. I roll down the window because I was felt like I was dying. Who ever thought it was a good idea to wear a hoodie and go walking. Not a good combination.

We pulled up to Chelsea's and she rushed out. "I need to change." I say and we head back in. I say hello to her parents while Ranch and Cody hang outside. I change into my second outfit then we head back out in the world.

"Why didnt you leave the minion fit on? You looked good." Chelsea says. "It was getting hot." I said. We eventually ended up getting to the party. Cody lockes the car door which was a good call. His car was the nicest out of everyone who was there.

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I am tipsy not drunk, which is probably why I am be a totally different person right now. Right. I wink at Cody who was supposed to be going to get another drink. But he was talking to someone else. I turned away and continued to dance with the other guy. I recognized him but it didnt come to mind at the moment.

I went low and when i came back up Cody was standing in front of me. "I think you're done." He says and I ignore him. "I mean it." He says and I shake my head. I look behind him for a way to escape. There was no where to go.

I whispered in his ear, "lets go to the car?" He asked, "why". I said, "because i want you to fuck me." He backed up and laughed. "You're fucked up arent you?" He questions. I shake my head. He grabs my hand and we head outside. It was quieter than inside. We walked slowly. I leaned on him for support.

"If you can walk in a straight line, i will fuck you." He says and i could feel my competiveness kicking in. I slightly pushed off of him and started walking. I was doing good, i think, until my phome started to ring. It through me off balance. It was my brother. I immeditedly declined.

"I still think you're drunk." He says. I lean up against him. One hand on his chest the other slowly going to his pants. "Zaddy, i swear im not." I say. "Whats my name?" He questions. I could feel he was getting hard. I backed up and started to walk towards his car. He just stood there. "Are you coming daddy?" I ask.