Until Dawn (Josh x OC)

Chapter 21: The Break.

I drove back home slowly, mainly because I was tired, so it felt like it took me forever to finally return.

When I parked outside the apartment, I felt relieved from how tired I was feeling.

I rushed back to my apartment, as I opened my door. Josh was still lying down on my couch, I assumed he was watching the TV.

"Josh?" I whispered, noticing that he had fallen asleep.
"Oh hey babe, how did it go?" He asked me, as he yawned widely.
"It was amazing!" I said excitedly as I rushed over to his side.

He smiled at my enthusiastic response, "Good. Make any new friends?" He asked me.
"Yeah there was Hannah and pete. I am paired up with pete and he is awesome, he is sweet but funny. I think working down there will be really fun." I said whilst smiling.

Josh's happy smile immediately dropped as soon as I brought up about pete.

"What's wrong?" I asked him.
"Is pete single?" He replied, in a pissed off tone.
"Yeah..why?" I started to get defensive as I knew that this was leading to another argument.

"So I bet he was all over you. Can't you pair up with the girl?"

I felt really upset by his comment, as it seemed like he didn't wasn't me to have any guy friends.

"No, I prefer pete." I said truthfully.
He sat upright on the couch, as he stared at me angrily.
"Why don't you just go fuck him then?" He said suddenly, with a massive outburst of anger.

I immediately felt angry too, and I knew where this was leading.

"Josh stop being so immature." I said angrily.
"No..no. Go fucking meet up with pete, you obviously prefer him than me. Because he's so 'sweet' and 'funny'." He shouted.

I rolled my eyes as I wanted to start crying all over again, but I managed to keep it bottled up inside of me.

"You are so jealous, over me having a friend who is a guy? You have so many friends who are women, and I don't say that you can't talk to them." I replied, more calmly than him.

He paced back and forth in my living room, as he rested his head in his hands, in a stressful manner.
"I knew it. You never loved me." His voice was filled with regret and anger.
"Shut up josh, I am not listening to you when you are being irrational like this." I shouted back.

"See you don't love me. Go off with pete then or..or even James." He said in pure anger.

My heart sunk with those words, as I couldn't believe he would say such a thing to me, after everything we have gone through to do with James.

I immediately started to cry as I buried my head into my hands, covering my teary and red eyes.

"Lauren, I am sorry.. I didn't mean t-" I interrupted him with my angry shouts, "I can't believe you just said that josh." My cries interfered with my speech as I tried not to reach my emotional breaking point.

"I am sorry.." He said as he walked over to me.

I backed away from him, disgusted with what he suggested. "I don't even know you anymore, you keep changing." I cried, feeling extremely upset.
"I didn't mean it." He repeated.

He leant his back against the wall as he looked down to the floor, not knowing what to do now, knowing that he had messed up big time with me.

"You are the only person I trusted and even now you are against me. Do you want to make me cry?" I shouted.
"No of course I don't, I love you." He said quickly, which I shook my head to as a response.

My head was filled with many thoughts, as I wondered what to do now. I had reached the end with my anger and upset feelings.

"I don't believe you." I said truthfully.
He looked really upset by my disbelief in him.

"This is too fucking draining." I said to josh, tiredly as I cried again.
"What is?" He said worriedly.
"This. Us. Our relationship."

I could see him start to get upset also at this point, as his eyes started to tear up.

"What are you suggesting, Lauren?" His voice was filled with worry and stress, as it was shaking slightly.

"I don't want to do this, but I think we have to.."

"We need to go on a break." I said to josh as I burst into tears.
I could tell how heartbroken he was, as a tear rolled down his cheek.

"O-okay." He said upset.

I could see him stand awkwardly holding onto his arms, in a hurt manner.

"I didn't want to do this. You are perfect and I love you, but I think we both need a break to ourselves. I need sometime to myself, even though I do love you." I said in between cries.

"I would have carried this on if I didn't love you. I know we need a break, I don't want to be arguing with the only the person I am in love with, who is my best friend also." He started to cry more at this point, which made my heart break in pain.

"I agree. We do need a break."

We both started to walk up to each other, as I could see more clearly now how much he had been crying.

"We just need a little break, and then maybe.." I said, as josh walked to my front door.

"Y..yes." He stuttered.

He embraced me in a hug one last time, which made more tears escape his pure eyes.

"Goodbye, Lauren." I could hear the hurt in his voice, as I wanted to take everything back, but I knew this was the best thing to do.

"Goodbye josh."