Yellow lights blinked above me and wheels squeaked from under me. I woke up to bright overhead hospital lights and a run- down gurney hauling me back into my room. Back again I thought with a sigh. Just perfect! Ugh.
Later that afternoon my school admission officer was sitting across from me asking me "Are you okay,"
What happened?
Did someone do this?
Every time I replied with a shrug. A sad defeated shrug. To my surprise she nodded and accepted my silence. She just scribbled a few notes in a blue miniature planner she took everywhere and then left with a polite nod. Even Ashley and Callie came to see me, their faces filled with agony mixed with concern.
"Why is everyone flipping?! No one has ever cared before." I exclaimed to Callie
"Well It's kind of big you know?" She said with confusion
"Wait, what do you think happened ,Callie?"
"You tried to commit suicide today, Kay," she said softly rubbing my shoulder as she spoke. I shrugged out of her grasp and shook my head.
"No.No.No I didn't. At least I didn't mean to, I swear."
They nodded gravely.
"LISTEN DONT YOU SEE! I'M NOT CRAZY," I wanted to yell more, show them the truth, make them believe, but no one ever did.
"Nurse, please help," cried Ashley after witnessing my outburst. The large wood door slowly opened revealing not a nurse, but Max. He was standing there solemnly, a bouquet of flowers in his shaking hand. He rushed over and sat besides me.
"Kay, my sweet Kay," he gushed
"Stop." I flipped him off while I was at it.
"Look I can't blame you, I just feel so horrible. I haven't slept in weeks."
"Psh and I'm a unicorn," I said with sarcastic oozing in my voice. I looked at his eyes though they looked so familiar to me. I knew them so well. They were genuinely sad, tired eyes with purple rimming. I remembered meeting Kian at a skate shop downtown, I remembered the way my eyes had so much lust when I looked at him. When he broke my heart though, I remembered how I looked like an abused puppy just like Max did now.
"It's ok, I guess."
"You just made me feel so alive that night, I can't imagine losing you, you know?"
"No I don't, I didn't try to commit suicide if that's what your thinking." I growled
" No, I know Kay, I just don't wanted you to lose yourself. " He picked up my arm and I winced as he grazed my cuts.
I looked a little closer at him and I realized how good looking he was. He curled up next to me and whispered, "I refuse to leave this hospital until you forgive me and mean it," he winked.
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Broke Summers (Kellin Quinn)
FanfictionKay's finally living her dream summer, complete with tan lines, freshly dyed hair, and matching vans. While on a class trip to California she get's lost in her own world, still struggling with re-occurring pain and depression, that is until she meet...
