I woke up with a dry sticky mouth. I slowly willed myself to open my eyes. I was in a white sterile room, with bright lights shining down on me from the bed I was crammed into.
That's when it hit me: I was in a hospital.
I started remembering. I saw Jed, my ex. boyfriend with Ariana. I didn't know why I passed out, all I know is when I looked at him I didn't see the boy who broke my heart, I saw the boy who would write notes on gum wrappers in-between classes, and slip them thoughtfully in my locker.
I felt a hand reach up and brush the hair out of my eye. I swatted the hand away refusing to face the fact that my hair was a greasy mess. Someone then grabbed my chin and turned my ever so slightly to reveal that the person playing with my hair was Kellin.
"I'm so sorry, K" I pleaded, taking full responsibility that I probably ruined his show.
"Sh, it's all right. The doctors said that your body gave out from exhaustion, but Ariana said you looked stunned, like you were on the verge of a breakdown... What really happened?"
"I saw him..." I confessed
"Jesus?! You saw Jesus?" Kellin laughed
" No I saw Jed. My ex boyfriend. That's it."
"Oh" Kellin rubbed his temples " so you mean to tell me you still have feelings for this kid?"
I went to speak but I wasn't sure myself. I didn't think I did. Kellin's face was bubbling with anticipation, I begged myself to speak, to tell him how much I wanted to move on but nothing came out. I just still loved him so much, my heart sank into my chest and I could no longer look him in the eye.
"Kellin I want to say no. I want to never look back. You're better for me, I know it in my head. I love him too, and I know that with my heart," as I spoke my mouth squeezed up. A tear welled in my eye. Kellin grabbed my arm,
"Kay, I just really have feelings for you! I thought you moved on! I'm ready to start a life with you. I want to take you on tour, I want you to be mine. I'm almost twenty and you'll be nineteen this summer right?"
My stomach twisted considering I'm not even seventeen. I suddenly felt very small, almost invisible.
I shook my head no, more silent sobs emerged. He knotted his brows, "Kay, what are you saying?"
"I'm saying I'm younger than you thought..."
He sighed deeply giving me shivers. He reached for wallet and rummaged through my loose change and expired gift cards until he found my school ID. It had a young Kay freshly sun kissed, smiling, and genuinely happy. Mind you this was last year. It read Kay Memphis Grade 11 Age Sixteen. Kellin read in dismay, his soft features turned in utter disgust.
With that he threw the ID in my lap and walked out.
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Broke Summers (Kellin Quinn)
FanfictionKay's finally living her dream summer, complete with tan lines, freshly dyed hair, and matching vans. While on a class trip to California she get's lost in her own world, still struggling with re-occurring pain and depression, that is until she meet...
