Baby Love

Ch 7

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My mind was wondering off on its own again when I faintly heard someone yelling my name. I still didnt bother paying attention as It seemed to get louder and closer. Instead focusing on the water watching the way the suface would ripple with the slightest breeze or how the fish seemed to effortlessly glide throug it. I was relaxed and happy for once... Until i was falling

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Everything around me seemed to go in slow motion as I fell into the freezing water of the pond. And then it was going so quickly I couldnt keep up. I tried putting my feet down to stand up but the water was deeper than I had thought since no matter how i moved i couldnt touch anything but more water. My lungs were starting to burn from the lack of oxygen as I panicked. I had never been a great swimmer, and being weighed down with wet clothes was definitely not helping. My mind was getting foggy and my vision spotted as I felt somthing pulling me up and out of the water. I gasped loudly trying to oxygen back into my body. I curled in a tight ball shivering so bad it made my teeth clatter. The last thing I remember was feeling someone carrying me away before I blacked out.

A few hours later i awoke cacooned in blankets with someone running their fingers through my hair. I couldnt hold in the cough that bubbled from my chest making my throat burn. "Oh thank god youre awake." Alex said worriedly as he ran over hugging me tight. "What in the fucking hell were you thinking. Not only did you run off, but you did it while heavily medicated. Babe you couldve died if tyler hadnt pulled you out of the water." He practically yelled at me. But in my shell shocked mind i couldnt deal with it, and I ran back to my bunk sobbing. I curled in a tight ball clinging to the teddy bear jack had made for me as a birthday present a few years ago. Much like my special blanket it had been washed so much that it constantly smelled like the guys. I jumped almost hitting my head when I felt a hand on my back. "Babe i didnt mean to make you cry im just worried." Alex said calmly rubbing my back. All I could do was nod and curl tighter. I relaxed a bit though when he crawled in holding me to his chest. "Hun relax okay. Dont let your mind shut down because of this." "I i im trying alex i ssswear." I said quietly before coughing again. He helped me sit up rubbing my back more as i finally cought my breath. "I know youre trying babe, and be honest did the meds help earlier?" He asked soflty leaning me against his shoulder. "They did actually. It was so peaceful... Honestly i was doing good until the whole eating thing came up, and it wasnt you and jack. I came back here and was skyping with cal and luke and... " i cut myself off hiding in his shoulder. "I know hun they called me as soon as you ran out thats how ty was able to get to you quick enough." "I dont even know how i got in the water to be honest. I was sitting on the little wall thing just watching and enjoying the peacfulness and how calm everything was... Then i was falling." I said quietly closing my eyes. "Tyler said you were leaning forward like you were trying to reach for something." Alex said calmly, but I just shrugged. I was slowly starting to fall asleep as he crawled out of my bunk. "Hey alex" i asked quietly. "Yeah babe" "can you ask tyler to come back here please." I asked quietly. He smiled nodding as he walked out. A few minutes later ty came back. "Hey hu..." But I cut him off pulling him into my bunk and curling around him. "Im glad youre ok," he whispered kissing the top of my head. It was even better than the first night that we'd cuddled. He was so warm and inviting. His arms surprisingly made me feel safer than lukes at the moment. I couldnt stop myself from melting into his embrace. "As weird as it is Im glad youre the one that saved me. I cant explain why but I feel safe with you." I muttered into his chest. I nuzzled closer to him as he layed my special blanket over us. "Yknow this is a very...unique blanket," he said quietly looking at a few of the shirts. "I spent a few years collecting band tees and as id out grow them, or stop wearing them id put them in a box. Eventually i made them into this blanket. Its very special and one of the very few physical things that can calm me down." I replied quietly holding it close to me finally relaxed and calm. Tylers steady breathing and the way his fingers gently combed through my hair was beginning to put me to sleep. When out of nowhere my phone started ringing. I reached around fumbling with it a bit before finally answering.

"L- thank fuck youre ok. God, babe you have no fucking clue how scared i was when you just ran out like that.

H- msorry luke im just i dont know you know i hate talking about my problems. And you threw my biggest one right in my face and told me people cant handle me because of it.

L- no baby i swear i didnt mean it like that.

A- what luke meant babe is that none of us can help you if you dont let us. We all know its hard weve watched you go through this for almost two years but we are always here. And you know what we always will be because we care about you. We may just be super close friends who call you our sister, but babe we seriously care abo...

H- HE FUCKING SAID PEOPLE CANT HANDLE ME ASH"

I didnt even bother listening to what he said as I chunked my phone at the wall running to the bathroom and locking the door. I curled in a ball barely fitting inside the small space ignoring the pounding on the door and in my head. After awhile the guys gave up i guess because it got very quiet. Infact I fell asleep after a while. My mind finally falling into the eternal numb feeling. When I woke up it took me a bit to realize i was still in the bathroom. Then it hit me how cold it was. I poked my head out seeing everyone gone and completely lost it. I dug around finding my blades all the bottles of pills and my lighter setting them out in front of me. I started with several very deep cuts,then a few severe burn watching them blister almost immediately. Just as I was about to start downing pills Zach ran on pulling them out of my hand holding me close. "Dont you fucking dare take my sister from me. Ok. I need you here." "THEN WH WHY DID YOU LEAVE" i shouted trying to get away. "I was getting a key babe," he said holding it up so i could see, "I was getting a key so that I could get you out of there before this happened." He said starting to tear up. He led me to the front couch grabbing the first aid kit cleaning me up and bandaging my arm putting numbing cream on the burns so the sting would go away. He pulled me to him when he finished. "Youll be okay. Ill find a way to make sure someone is always around okay we can get through this." He said quietly rubbing my back. I was relaxing into him finally when the others flooded in, but i just covered my ears and curled tighter into zach. After a bit they all calmed down and I stayed curled tightly between zach and tyler. Tyler gently rubbing my back as i leaned into him. "Get some sleep baby i swear i will be right here next to you when you wake up" he said calmly as my eyes started to droop. I moved around quietly basically laying on top of him as I fell asleep. His arms wound tight around my waist his chin propped on my head, and his steady heart beat lulling me away to dream land.