Baby Love

Ch 15

Heathers pov

I woke up super early the next day with bright sunlight showing straight into my eyes and groaned. I trued everything I could think of to block the blinding light without getting up only to end up toppling off the bed with a thud. "Ow fuck!" I muttered loudly trying to pull myself back up but gave up after a few tries and just pulled my pillow down curling around it.  To me it felt like hours later I was woken up by a large pair of arms hoisting me up then cuddling me to their chest. I could instantly tell it was Luke the moment I let my head rest on his shoulder. The broadness of his chest and shoulders, and his distinct cologne giving him away as I nuzzled my face into him more. "Lu I don't wanna get up yet.. or ever I mean its not like I can go do anything anyway," i muttered feeling the darkness creeping back into my mind. It was like a black shadow or fog with little tendril-like fingers pressing in and wrapping around me. It felt like while physically I was surrounded by light, I was clouded by a dark shadow making everything seem hopeless. "Sweetheart please don't let shadow back in okay he's lying to you," i heard Luke whisper into my hair using the pseudonym we'd come up with for the darkness when I first went to therapy. But how else is one supposed to act in my situation right now? I mean the one person who I thought would for sure keep me safe on tour with the all time low guys turned out to be all but forcing me to date a guy who in all essence was toxic. And then proceeded to yell at calum who is like my closest brother.  Who in turn whisked me away to a country I've never been to. To stay In a hotel that's way too fancy and posh for my taste. And to top it all of I cant walk because I have some kind of infection in the bottom of my feet from trying to outrun "shadow". I hadn't really realized Id said that out loud until Luke sat me on the bed and crouched in front of me cupping my cheeks as if they were made of porcelain. "Heather... you are the bravest and strongest woman I know for dealing with everything you have. And trust me I know it seems hard right now because I feel so incredibly helpless not being able to help you feel better. But you can beat this," he tilted my head up so that he was looking in my eyes, "you can beat him I believe in you."

My eyes were instantly filled with tears as I hugged Luke's shoulders as tight as I physically could burrowing my face into his neck blubbering my thanks over and over. "Id do anything for you love." He hummed back pulling me onto his lap as he sat back against the head board rubbing my back. I curled up on his lap pulling a blanket over us smiling a tiny bit when I notice its Zack's ravens blanket. I held it even closer taking a deep breath with it pressed to my face inhaling his scent. No one ever seemed to notice how much I got along with Zack. He's much calmer and quieter than the others, but I believe that's why I have always felt so safe with him. As if nothing in the world would hurt me if he was nearby. "You like his blanket huh love," luke asked softly while rubbing my back. "Mhmm it smells good," i hummed in return sniffing it again, "smells like home." I could feel the rumble in his chest as he chuckled holding me closer as the others slowly filed into the room carrying all sorts of bags and boxes. "We brought you new clothes to wear to the shows." Ashton said excitedly dropping an armful of bags onto the bed. "We actually ordered them before this whole ordeal but we're still super happy you'll get to wear them." Cal continued as he sat a few boxes of new shoes at the foot of the bed. "Aaaannnd," mike called while bouncing into the room, "the doctor came by earlier and cleared us to put you in 'loose comfy shoes' for the show tonight. Sooo i got you a new pair of loose fitting boots you can wear while you watch us from your new custom chair." As he said that a bellhop pushed an expensive looking custom wheel chair into the room. I only nodded curling up in Lukes arms more pulling the blanket tighter to my chest. "I dont wanna go." I whined softly feeling like everything had been drained from me. So physically and mentally exhausted I didn't have the motivation to sit up let alone make myself look presentable enough to be seen in public with four of the most well know musicians of our generation. "I know you don't honey, and thats ok. We've got a few more hours before we have to go do anything. Ill stay right here and hold you as long as you want." He said softly while nuzzling into my hair and hugging me tighter to his chest.

Those few hours seemed to go by in what felt like a millisecond leaving me sitting Indian style on the bathroom counter trying to do my makeup. "You don't need all that bug. You look beautiful as you are," cal said gently as he walked up behind me kissing my cheek. "B but Im not pretty enough to be around you guys in public without my face done." I whined while trying to finish my lipstick even though he was rocking us making it extra difficult. "Oh hush you are more than beautiful enough for us," Ashton responded as he walked by putting his shirt on. My face turning bright red as I watched him a bit too intently. I mean I know Ashton's like a brother to me, but he's still very attractive and I wasn't one to deny him that. I jumped a bit when I looked back up and he was right in front of me pushing my hair off my face saying. "Stop comparing yourself to us, ok. You are absolutely beautiful in your own special way." And then winked as he walked away, "and stop staring too sis you might give people the wrong idea." Causing my face to go even darker red. 

The night went about the same as being on the All Time Low tour minus me being in the photography pit. Which broke my heart because I kept seeing so many things I wanted to get good shots of, but with my feet being injured I couldnt get them. And I knew from experience that the other photographers wouldn't know to get the angles I wanted because its my distinct style to get them. But I was still content getting to watch the guys perform. Seeing them put everything they had into the show always made me smile. About halfway through the set Ashton got down from his drumset and walked towards Lukes mic. "I know this is a bit unusual for me to come to the front but I want to talk to you guys about some recent events. A few weeks ago our good friends in the band All Time Low started their North American tour and had brought a very special photographer with them. Her name is Heather, or a lot of you may know her as our bands adopted sister. Weve been pretty close with her for a few years now, and They did a lot of wrong and harmful things that ended up putting her in a bad position that Im not going to go into details about. However I will ask that  out of respect and love for all of us please don't tweet or post hurtful things about the situation if you somehow know what happened. Its been a very traumatic few days and we would really just like to leave it in the past and move on. We really love you guys and it hurts us more than you know when you do things that hurt the people we love. But past all the depressing stuff lets finish this show in a good note." I watched with teary eyes as he just nodded at the silent crowd and went back up to his kit.

The rest of the show seemed to go rather flawlessly. The guys were having a blast performing and the crowd was as energetic as ever. During the encore I decided to stay in the green room because my right foot had started to hurt again and i just wanted to lie down. But of course as soon as I began to get comfortable they burst into the room screaming nickleback at the top of their lungs. Startling me so much I fell off the small couch making a small thud as my hip smashed into the cement floor. "Holy shit bug Im so sorry we didn't mean to," cal yelled as he scooped me up putting me back on the couch and wrapping his fluffy jacket around me. Luckily I wasn't hurt so I just pulled the jacket closer and curled up more hugging myself tightly. They all sat near me but didn't crowd me. Cal beside me on my left rubbing my back. Luke on my right, perched on the arm of the couch allowing me to temporarily use his thigh as a pillow while his nimble fingers weaved through my hair. And michael and Ashton making themselves busy but still staying in the room. "Hey guys y you dont have to stay in here you can go shower or whatever," I said quietly grabbing a hoodie to use as a pillow feeling luke start to fidget. "Are you sure honey? We can stay a bit longer if you want." Ash replied while giving me a soft look trying to hide the worry in his eyes. "I promise ashy." I nodded and laid down slowly letting myself sink into the cheap couch after balling the hoodie up as a pillow. They all quickly grabbed their stiff and ran to the bathroom seeming to be rushing to see who would get back to me first. It was almost comical watching them run out and sweet seeing a tired yet happy looking cal come back a few minutes later in sweats and a no shirt. "C cuddles," i said kinda quietly reaching my arms out to him. He smiled even more sitting next to me wrapping his long arms around me and pulling me onto his chest as he laid back. "Hmmm youre so warm lil one," he hummed softly nuzzling his now freezing nose into my neck causing me to shiver. "There's no hot water here which was good at first after the show but now I am freezing," he mumbled softly pressing a gentle kiss to my shoulder. I nodded cuddling into him more, "Dave said we can leave in 30 but we have to go out the back way." I could feel him nod into my hair as he held me closer. "The guys should be done soon and well re bandage you feet before we go ok?"