The Runaway

Chapter 20 (Jess and Macy)

Jess pov

i woke up, in a bed. how the hell did i get here? I remeber that we were all in the living room, and we were playing games, then we watched another movie, i think it was the notebook......maybe i fell asleep?

i rolled over, and rolled onto harry. He probably carried me here. He woke up from me rolling onto him. "Good morning." He half said, half yawned. "Morning styles, how was your sleep?" i asked. He smiled, "Really good actually, maybe one of my best sleeps in a while." He said. i could feel myself blush.

"That's good, i feel the same way." i said. he chuckled, "I asumed, because you fell asleep in my arms and i carried you to bed, you were starting to awake when i laied you down, but i sung a song to help you go back to sleep." He said. i instantly remebered that, i thought it was a dream. "I can see why." he said.

Wait what? "Sorry?" i asked. "You though alowed, you said you thought it was a dream." he said. "OH, i was confused for a seccond."i said. he nodded.

We laied in silence. i guess you could say this is akward. yes he is my best friend. Yes, i love him. Yes, he has a girlfriend. The third 'Yes' is the big problem. That 'yes' means he doesn't love me. That 'yes' means someone else is usually where i am lying down.

At that thought, i qucikly got up. Harry gave me a look. "What's wrong?" he asked. I was now standing beside his bed. "Harry i can't do this, you have a girlfriend, yet i was just in bed with you. we didn't do anything, but it's wrong. It's just confusing me even more, and i don't even think you or anyone else understands!" i exclaim in frusteration.

"Jess, listen i-" He started. "NO harry! i can't do this, i love you but this is killing me knowing that she comes to sleep where i just was, and that you tell her she's beautiful, and make her feel special! I just, I can't. I'm sorry, but i can't do this to myself. Being with you right now is both keeping me alive, and killing me, and it's just so confusing." i whispered the last part to myself.

He gave me a sympathetic look. "Jess, i really think that-" i cut him off again. "Harry, i need to go, i'm sorry. i- i just can't be here right now." i said. he nodded. "I understand. Do you need a ride?" He asked. "No, i'm good. bye harry." i said. i walked over to him and pecked his cheak. a tear slid down his cheak and i was ready to let mine flow, but i couldn't. not in front of him.

i walked out of his room. i walked quickly down the hall, and down the stairs. i got my shoes and bag, and was about to leave. "Where are you going?" Zayn asked. i turned around. "Home." i whispered.

"Are you alright? Love, what happened?" He asked. I ran over to him, and embraced him in a hug. that's all i needed right now. a hug.

"Want a ride?" he asked. i nodded, i needed zayn right now. He is now one of my close friends. We text alot and, he just gives me comfert.

We got in his car, and he started to drive. "Want to tell me what happened?" he asked.

"I woke up, and harry did too, and we were talking. He was making me feel special, and loved, but i realized that.....i was sleeping where another girl has been sleeping. he tells her she is beautiful all of the time, he kisses her, they laugh together....and he is killing me." i whispered. Zayn nodded, "I get it." he said.

"I think maybe you should hold off on seeing him." Zayn said. i nodded, "but then next week you guys go to tour..." i said. he nodded. "I think you should wait till, the day we leave. You'll come to the airport, and say goodbye to everyone. Including harry....when you see him after the week, you'll see how you feel. Then you have a whole month thr yourself, to think things through, and not worry about it. Then when you join us,well...we'll have to wait and see." he said.