Aticm and Korosu

Chapter 41

~Ashton~
I drive down the road, nervous as hell. Yasmin and I were heading for town, for what she thinks is a road trip. The box isn't very visible in my pocket, yet I can feel it against my pants. I'm so damn nervous. What if she says no? What will I do then? I'll look like an idiot. I try to forget these thoughts, just ignoring them. God I'm nervous.
                                ~•~
Yasmin and I looked around the deserted town, then heading for the old house. We saw the broken down buildings, old pictures, shattered glass, everything. Each memory came back to me, a smile spreading across my face. She stayed by my side, smiling. I felt the box in my pocket, weighing it down. "Here, let's go." I took her hand, leaning her away from the house and towards the old underground pipes. She stood beside me, smiling. "This is amazing." I softly giggled, taking out the box. My heart was racing at the speed of light, beating out of my chest. Do it ash. Ask her. Kneeling down, I spoke nervously, yet confident with each word I spoke. "Yasmin, you are the pizza to my blood, will you make me the happiest man in the world and marry me?"
~Korosu~
I turned around slowly, hands over my mouth. Oh my fucking God. He just proposed. Stop staring. Answer him. Say yes. Say it. I felt tears begging their way out of my eyes. I slowly nodded, about to cry. "Yes Ashton." He jumped up, hugging me tightly. "Yes! Thank you!" If I had my heart, it would be beating out of my chest. I listened to his, smiling and crying. I'm marrying him. I'm actually marrying him. "Oh! I almost forgot." He kneeled down again, sliding the ring onto my finger, which had a small pizza slice on it. I giggled, looking down at him. I've never been happier in my life.
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We drove home after looking around a bit more, while he called the guys, and I called Sasha. She picked up fairly quick, her voice as peppy as ever. "Hello?" "Hi Sasha!" I smiled, listening to her voice. "Hi! How are you?" "Extremely excited. That's why I'm calling." I could hear her shushing somebody, probably surge. "Ash and I are getting married." Right at that, she squealed, running over her words. I giggled softly, as did ash. "Sasha, calm down, okay?" "Okay, okay, I've got to go die, I'll see you later!" "Bye!" We both hung up, a giggle escaping my lips once more. I'm actually going to marry him. I can barely believe this. We drove home, talking and giggling. I can't wait to spend my life with him. Now, Satan can screw off, I'm keeping my life.

On November 27th, we were married. I couldn't stop smiling the entire time. Ash was the happiest I've ever seen him, and I couldn't stop smiling either. We said our vows, drank wine, danced, and kissed....a lot. I can't believe I've just married him. The only man I've ever felt something towards, and I just married him. Ashton took away my pain, he was the light in the darkness. I can't believe this. I am so happy.
                                ~•~
Later that night, ash and I were at my apartment, drinking and laughing. Eventually, that changed.
I was going to grab a beer for him and my flask, when he asked me something. "What are your thoughts on kids? I'm not suggesting anything, I'm just wondering." I froze in my spot, mind racing. "Ummm..." I thought back to when I was a kid, my parents, the murders in this apartment. My own mind is ruined. I can't even think of having kids. "Yasmin?" Say something. Anything. "Um...I think we've got some time before we have to really consider that." He nodded, standing up. I slowly relaxed, my muscles becoming less tense. Don't think about children. Don't. You won't be like her. You won't.

Vows.
My soul drifted to nowhere
Broken into shards of glass
You were the one who kept me together
I cannot thank you enough
The emotions I feel for you are too passionate to be expressed in words
I no longer welcome death
For I cannot leave the one who kept me alive
The demon within my mind has been silenced
Thank you for the love you offer
I will return the passion with all my effort ~Korosu

You stayed by my side
Even through the pain
You hold the keys that keeps me together
My heart pounds as I see your face
I cannot imagine my life without you
The love I feel is unexplainable
Our bonds are stronger than iron
The flames of passion will forever burn ~Ashton