Aticm and Korosu

Chapter 43

~korosu~
Over the past four months, things had really changed. My stomach had gotten bigger of course, I actually started taking some college classes so I wouldn't seem like an idiot all the time, and my nightmares continued. I couldn't even think straight anymore. Ashton couldn't be more excited, yet I was scared like hell. What if I end up like Mary? What if I hurt ash, or this child? I can't imagine what I would do with myself. I sat in bed, ash next to me. He had his arms around my waist, sleeping softly. I managed to fall asleep, yet I wasn't met with good dreams.

Voices. I hear people's voices. It's Mary. She is taunting me, laughing in my face. "Stupid girl, you will never be a good parent." I hear her laughter fade, as the scene changes.

I'm in a hospital room. Everything's bright. Ashton's right next to me, holding onto my hand. I feel my stomach contracting, a child moving inside me. I feel blood running down my leg. A cry piercing the air is the last thing I hear before the darkness consumes me.

Ashton is below me, bleeding. He clings onto life, fear in his eyes. The body of my dead child lay next to him, as his heart stops beating.

I jolt awake, my hands on my stomach. Ashton sits up with me, his eyes full of concern. "Baby? What's wrong? Are you okay?" I try to calm down, slowly nodding. "Yeah......yeah I'm fine." He wraps his arms around me, pulling me down onto the bed. Ash starts softly humming amnesia, my mind slowly coming to a halt. He keeps me close, his breaths even and steady. I relax into his arms, looking up at him. "Are you scared?" "About what?" He gazes down at me, keeping me close. "Being a parent and all." He nods slowly, speaking softly. "Yes, but I've basically been one my whole life. Are you?" I wish I could tell him everything, since I've been keeping it all bottled up. I know I can't though, so I just nod slowly. "Hell yes." Ashton hugs me tightly, speaking in a soft voice like before. "You will be a great parent." "That's what I'm afraid of. What if I end up like Mary? What will I do then?" He shakes his head slowly. "You won't. I promise." If only he knew, if only.
"You should get some sleep baby." No....I can't sleep...... "It's fine baby, you're the one who needs sleep." We continued saying this back and forth until we both decided to go to bed. He fell asleep about the same time I did, nightmares coming back.

I'm sitting in the apartment, my hands on my stomach. I'm in the window, yet something's wrong. There's blood on the pane.

My blood.

My stomach contracts, something small kicking me. "No......" Ashton is in the room, not seeing me. I try to speak, yet pain shoots through me. I feel something kick me again, then more blood.

Somebody's holding my child, humming to them. A smile spreads across my face, then fades as I see them stab the child. Then I realize something.

The person is me.

I woke up early again, trying not to freak out. Ash is awake next to me, as I try not to seem afraid. "Good morning baby." "Morning." He smiled down at me, relief surging through me. As I looked up at him, I remembered something.
We find out the gender of the baby today.
I was pretty excited, except for the fact that we had to go to a normal hospital. Hopefully they don't notice exactly who I am, but if they do, I'm pretty screwed.
~Ashton~
Later that day, Yasmin and I headed for the doctors, going so we could find out the gender of the baby. I haven't been this excited since I found out she was even having a baby. We pulled into the parking lot, then waited for them to call our name at the office. She held onto my hand, smiling. Eventually, they called out "Mr. And Mrs. Irwin?" We stood up, following the doctor. It still feels weird to say miss Irwin. She's actually my wife. And now we're having a baby. I cannot believe where we are now.
~korosu~
Sitting on the steel table, I felt extremely nervous. Being in a hospital full of people who could easily get the police in here isn't exactly reassuring. Yes, I could take care of them, yet I didn't want to mess up things for Ashton or this baby. We waited for a couple minutes, until a doctor came in. Ash was standing next to me while she took the ultrasound, his hand in mine. Eventually, she came back with a small paper card. "Well, it looks like you two will have a baby boy on your hands." She smiled, handing me the card. Only one thing stuck to my mind. "Is he okay?" "Yes, he's very healthy, if you need anything call." She left the room, as did we. I held Ashton's hand, looking at the card. There was a small outline of a baby, along with a glitch on part of it. A smile spread across my face, as I handed it to Ashton. We eventually got home, ash to his house and I got to mine. He and I both had copies of the ultrasound, since we both wanted to be able to look at them. I locked the door, heading up to my room with the card. Sitting on the bed, I stared down at the picture, still smiling. "I can't wait to meet you."