Aticm and Korosu

Chapter 51

~Korosu~
He didn't know when to shut up.

I couldn't stand it anymore.

That's why I did it.

When he found out, we fought.

We argued.

We physically fought.

But he was right.

But I wanted to feel something

Other than loneliness.

Bianca was with Eric, so I went over to see surge after settling things with him. We were just talking for a while, until he saw them. I knew I should've work a long sleeve shirt and jeans rather than basketball shorts and a cutoff. I should've just done it then. I wished I did, then I would finally feel something.

Peace.

~Surge~
She was just sitting in the room, nothing seemed wrong.
Until I saw her sides
Her wrists
Her thighs.
If I didn't know any better, I would've said they were old.
But I knew they were recent.
The skin was too irritated to have been a "dog."
It was too inflamed to have been "a match accident."
It wasn't an accident at all.
It was her.
"Korosu, why the fuck are you doing this?!"
"Surge, I needed to feel something other than loneliness. I had to. I couldn't stand it anymore." I gripped her wrist, ignoring her sudden cringe.
"Korosu, you need to stop. Please. Your son needs you. Ash needs you. We all need you." She shook her head, jerking it back. "You have no control over what I do." "Korosu, seriously. Do not ever do this again. They need you. If you die, Eric will be left without his mother. He needs you. Ash will be heartbroken. We will all be grieving."
"No you won't. I'm not worth the time, so if I die, just let me be dead. I'm already physically dead, and if I could I would have killed myself already. I can show you the remains of what I once was. So if I die, don't grieve over me. Let me be gone, and when I'm gone, there isn't a return button."
I didn't want to hear her talk like this anymore.
She tried leaving, but I knew better then to let her go.
"Stop this Yasmin."
She stood still, tilting her head back a bit.
"Ash calls me that. The guys sometimes call me that. Eric might call me that. You never will."
She tried leaving again,  but I took her wrist, even though that was the one that broke.
"Yasmin Irwin, stop walking away from me. We need to settle this."
She snapped back, anger flaring in her eyes.
"Nobody. Calls. Me. That." She said through gritted teeth.
Her fist met my jaw.
My knee met her side.
She struck my chest.
I hit her stomach.
She chipped my tooth.
I punched her shoulder.
She broke my nose.
That was that.
I finally let her leave, after saying I was sorry.
"Surge, I will forgive you, but I won't ever forget this."
I nodded, going back to the house.
"And by the way..."
I turned around, listening.
"Never, ever, ever call me Yasmin. Ever."

~Ashton~
"Ready to go guys?" We finished loading the bags into the car, loading inside of it.
"Yep! Let's head home!" Luke smiled, sitting in the drivers seat with Calum. I sat in the back with mike, listening to the soft beat of the music playing over the radio. We seemed to drive for hours, occasionally stopping. We got back into the area, my eyes set on the passing road. When Luke finally pulled into the drive, I couldn't help but smile. I wanted so badly to see my family, yet felt so bad that I wasn't here for them when they needed me.
We finally got back in, Yasmin and Eric sitting on the couch. She was smiling the entire time, eyes set on me. "Hi babe." "Daddy!" Eric jumped up, slowly sliding off the couch. I set by bag down, kneeling down. He ran over, hugging me. "I missed you daddy!" "I missed you too bud!" I smiled, my gaze set on the small boy. His deep brown eyes were just the same as before, but he looked a lot older. He was two after all.
"Well, I'll leave you two to catch up. I'll be back soon ash, okay?" I nodded, raising an eyebrow. "What's going on?" "Oh, I've just gotta see surge for something." Hm. I hope she's alright. It's probably just something because of what happened earlier. She walked out of the house, leaving Eric, the guys and I alone.
We sat on the couch, the boy looking straight up at me.
"Are you sick too daddy?"
"What?" I had absolutely no idea what he was talking about. Don't tell me it's something bad.
"Ever since we went to see you, momma has been sick every morning." I shrugged, holding onto his hand. "Nope." He wrapped his arms around me, smiling. "Okie." I leaned back, wondering what's going on with Yasmin?
~Korosu~
I sat on the steel table, remembering my previous experience with it. When he finally came back in, his arms were crossed. "Let me examine your stomach." I leaned back, staring at the ceiling. "Korosu, let me see your skin." I didn't want him to see my sides and back. He would overreact. "Uh, isn't this fine?" "Korosu just do it." I nodded, hesitantly doing as he asked. He stood beside me, brow furrowed. "We'll talk about this in a minute." He checked out my stomach, smirking. "Oh I know damn well what it is. Now take a test, then we talk." I did as he said, walking back in and sitting on the table.
"Korosu, you can't do this to yourself. Your wrists and thighs are enough, now your back and sides?" I shook my head, looking down. "And on top of that, I can see your damn ribs. Clearly. That's bad Korosu."
"Surge, don't try and stop me. It won't work. I just can't handle this anymore and need an outlet." "This isn't the way to do it!"
I was about to speak, when the timer went off.
"We will continue in a minute."
He left for a minute, coming back with something in his hands. "You really can't do this to yourself. You're risking their life."
"Who's life?"
I was terrified of what he meant.
He handed me the test, my jaw dropping.
Just like before
There were two lines
Instead of one.
I was at a loss for words, my tongue tied in knots. "I...what...this can't happen..."
"If you starve yourself, you're starving them too. If you hurt yourself, you risk their life. Stop doing this."
I couldn't stand what he was saying. Yet I remembered the conversation I had with ash about this.
He looked down at me, whispering softly. "Hey, not anytime soon or anything, but would you ever consider having another child?" I froze up, glancing up at him. I didn't want to put other kids lives in danger. I really didn't. "Uh, we've got some time to think about that though." He nodded, smiling. "Yeah..." The idea was cute, but terrifying at the same time.
"I-I can't promise you anythin-" "you have to Korosu. Promise me you won't do anything." I hesitated for a moment, but nodded. "Good. Now go see your husband." I threw away the test, thanked him, then went back home through the power lines. Once I got back, I knew there was no sense in hiding it. Ash was sitting on the couch with Eric when I called him over. He wrapped his arms around me, and before I could say anything, ash spoke. "Eric told on ya babe." I giggled, listening to his childlike voice. "Did he now?" "Yeah." The boy giggled, waving over at us. "So tell me what's up." I nodded, smiling. "Remember when we talked about another kid?" He nodded, face lighting up. "Well I don't think we have a choice now." He giggled, picking me straight up. I bit my lip, pain shooting through me. "This is amazing." I giggled softly, waiting until he put me down. "We should tell them." He smiled, pep in his voice. I nodded, walking over to Eric. "Hey bud?" He glanced up, smiling. "Yes momma?" "You are going to have a little sister or brother in a while." He bounced up and down, giggling. "Yay!" Ash went to tell the other guys, and at that moment, I remembered slenders orders.
'When you can, you must kill somebody close to you.'
It could wait a few months, but that time would come. When it does, I hope to god that I will be far from anybody I love.
And that I'm dead in the ground.