I just realized something. I really have a shitty and fucked up life. I really thought I would be done with this story, but I guess not.
I'm starting to turn bad again.
Everything was going so good. Drama free, but the flashbacks.....hurts.
But recently the flashback I have been having was about my best friend...well...ex bestfriend.
She had really curly hair, shy at first then funny. We looked alike that a lot of people from middle school asked us if we were sisters. So we called each other "Twin".
Then one day, I remember that I was in Spanish class that a security guard told me to take my stuff and follow them. Everyone in the class looked at me and I'm asking myself, "What did I do?" Then as I was walking down the stairs to the office, the vice principal saw me and told me to sit down.
He told me, "There has been threats towards you. This person wants to push you down the stairs, stab you multiple times, and shoot you. Do you have any idea why this person wants to do this to you?"
My heart was beating so fast that I might pass out then, I replied, "No idea. Who is this person that would want to hurt me?"
He said, "I can't tell you the name, but all I can say is that you are very close with them".
My bestfriend?! No way! Why would she do this to me? Did I hurt her?
"Where is _______? May I talk to her? I need to know why, since you are not going to tell me" as I was yelling to him.
I can't continue this story because it just hurts talking about it. So long story short, she was in a hospital for a few weeks then never returned to school. She blocked me from social media. And I was hurt so much that I was going to commit suicide.
She didn't even tell me what was going wrong?! No answers as to why she wanted to hurt me. Then and till today I still think about the good memories we had together as close friends, but it makes me so depressed.
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If you are reading this, I just want to tell you I'm so sorry for giving you so much pain that made you want to hurt me. And I hope you will forgive me.
