A few weeks later after I told Ms.____ that I was pregnant, I made my decision to have an abortion.
I would have told my mom about it, but she was really against it and I didn't want to tell her who the father was. So, I decided to go by myself, even though it was hard for me to do it alone.
During Spring Break, I did the procedure that only took 10-15 minutes and after that, I felt like I made a mistake, a huge mistake!
The nurse that was supposed to be checking on me every hour kept me company for two days when I was staying in the hospital. She would tell me on why she want to work in a hospital and she said,"I want to save lives. But the procedure that you did, that was your choice. I'm not against it, but yes, it must have been difficult for you to decide this".
The doctor told me that I will be feeling weak for a couple of days and I should mostly stay home and rest. Luckily for me, I told my mom that I was having...well...cramps and they hurt really bad. So, she believed me and told me just to stay in bed.
For three days I stayed in bed and wondered, "What if I haven't had the abortion? " I mean would my parents be upset with me that I got pregnant or be supportive? Or what if I kept the baby or open/closed adoption?
I will never know
