I missed school for a week because I just found out that I was pregnant.
The father doesn't know yet and to be honest I don't know what I want to do.
I already lost two, one was my decision to have an abortion and the other one was a miscarriage.
I really don't know if I could lose another one. I already lost so much in my life.
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Already back to school and already having morning sickness. I was late to my first class, luckily my teacher didn't notice.
Class ended and I see my boyfriend waiting for me. I walked away from him, I wasn't ready to tell him yet.
He grabbed my arm and said, "Hey babe. I missed you. I've tried calling and texting you to see if you were okay? Are you mad at me?"
"I have to get to my next class!"
He pushed me back and started grabbing both of my arms and yelling, "Please tell me what I did wrong! I know we can work this out! Please babe....let me..."
"Please let go of me!"
"No. Not until you tell me what's going on!"
"I'm pregnant. There you happy!"
"Is everything okay here?" My teacher said.
"Yeah everything fine!" Started to cry
Then he left.
"Hey ______ come inside. Let's talk" my teacher said.
"I can't. I'm going to be late".
"Don't worry. I will write you a pass".
I went inside the classroom and sat down trying to wipe my tears.
"Boy trouble?" She said.
"Yeah. If you say so..."
"May I ask you a question. In advance, I apologize if I am wrong. Would you mind?"
"No I don't" terrified of what is her question.
"Are you pregnant?"
Trying not to show emotion and said, "Why do you think that?"
"Well, you have been absent for a week and you were late to my class this morning and you have this glow and you seemed different. Oh and you're showing. Please tell me I'm wrong".
"I wish". I said when I was looking down on the floor with shame.
"Is that what you and your boyfriend were arguing about?"
"Yeah...well...sort of. I told him and he just walked away".
"I think he needs time to process it. Have you told anyone else?" She said.
"No. I just need time to know what I am going to do".
"Okay sounds good" she smiled.
