Letters To Louis Tomlinson- One Direction Fan Fic

Chapter 3

I woke up the next morning to the sound of my phone buzzing. I look over to my side table next to my bed and see Twitter notifications. I open Twitter and see I have 20 notifications. I look through them all, but none of them were from Louis. I still check to see what the notifications were for. I looked and see people were retweeting my tweet and favoriting it. I also got a couple of positive messages and they said these are great I hope you keep writing these letters. I smiled while going through the messages, maybe writing these would help me to keep chasing after my dream. But then I saw there were two more notifications that I hadn't seen.

I'll admit when I read these two comments it made me upset. They brought down the confidence I literally had just brought up about writing these letters. The comments basically said I was an idiot for doing this and it was useless. I didn't even bother to respond.  I wouldn't let these two people get to me. There were other people who wanted me to keep writing these letters and I wouldn't let them or myself down. With that I opened my notes once again and started to write my second letter but this time it would be a little different. Here's what I wrote:
Dear Louis,
After writing my first letter I was nervous because I was afraid that I sounded crazy. But reading it again I figured out myself that I'm not crazy, I'm just trying to chase after my dream. Like you did when auditioning for the X factor. Even though you succeeded at your life dream and I might not it's worth the try. I also know that you didn't think making it big on the X factor was  possible but you made it. So maybe just maybe I could succeed at you reading at least one of my letters. While writing these letters I've gotten many positive responses but also many negative ones. I won't lie the negative brought me down but then I read the good ones and I realized am I really going to let these people bother me when there are people there supporting me. The answer was no, I decided to push away the negative and look at the positive so that's why I'm writing this letter. I hope that you get to read one of these one day.
Sincerely,
Stephanie

Again I read this letter over and over. I thought it seemed good. It would also show the haters out there that what they said didn't phase me. I had my supporters in this and it made me proud to say that. Once again I open Twitter and insert my letter, then in the caption I tag Louis and say letter 2. These letters made me realize what you must go through. I hope you concentrate on the positive also.

I'm satisfied with what I wrote and post it. After posting it I look through Twitter for a few minutes and then get out of bed to take a shower. When I'm done in the shower and dress into my jeans and tank top with a cardigan I throw on my boots and grab my keys. I was gonna go to the store so that way I can get my everyday things to survive haha.

I walk outside to my small, used, silver, Volkswagon. It was all I could afford with the job. When I get into the car and start driving I see that my car is low on gas. I really needed a new car and to do that I needed another job. I'll probably start looking for one as soon as possible. 

I pull into the gas station near my local Stop and Shop. And when I finish filling the tank,I could just scream. It costed 20 dollars to fill the tank. The funny part is that the gas would only last about 2 days and I would need to fill it again. After getting gas I drive down the street to Stop and Shop so I could buy some food and neccessities.  I park my car, walk into the store, and start shopping.

About an hour later I walk out with about 3 bags of food, deodorant, shampoo, and toilet paper. Great I got stuff that will last me about a week not even all for the price of 80 dollars. Well I won't be buying anything else until I get payed next Wednesday. So that leaves me about... 9 more days, just great. After loading the car I start to drive home. This idea of getting a second job is starting to sound like a great idea. 

It wasn't until I walked into my bedroom that I noticed I left my phone here.  So  I turn on my phone to see if I missed anything important. But when I turn on my phone I see that I have hundreds of twitter notifications. Once again there was nothing from Louis but there were many retweets and favorites. Just like last time there were positive comments and some negative. I say to myself Stephanie just think of what you said ignore it. So that's what I did I just pushed away the negative and payed attention to the positive. I don't know many things about myself but I do know that when I say something I mean it. So when I wrote those things to Louis in my letter I meant it and  I would keep my word and try my hardest not to let it get to me.

With all of these retweets and favorites I got more hope that maybe Louis would see my letters.  But there was also a big part of me saying it was impossible. No matter how hard I try there is going to be  a part of me trying to crush my dreams. But I wouldn't let that part of me win, not this time.

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-Hannah