Letters To Louis Tomlinson- One Direction Fan Fic

Chapter 34

Stephanie's POV:

It's now 2 days that we have been in California and 1 day since Liam and I went to Disney land. Every time that I think about being in Disney land with him I start to smile and I'm sure it looks weird to the people around me. They probably think I'm a creep.

I love being with Liam and the boys, but I just miss Courtney and Brooklyn so much. We are so close, we haven't seen each other for almost 2 months. It is getting close to Halloween once again and I can remember all of the fun times that we had together.  I really miss all of it. It's the hardest thing in the world, choosing who I would rather be with, because the truth is that I wish  we could just be together. All of us. I love my friends and Liam equally.

As I'm sitting here staring at the black tv all I can think about is how much I miss my friends. I just want to see them and not over FaceTime or Skype, just in person.

Liam went to the recording studio a couple hours ago and he should be back soon. I really need to talk to him, Liam is very understanding so maybe that will help out my situation.

--1 hour later--

I woke up from my nap from the sound of the door to the bedroom opening. And there stood Liam smiling at me. I want to smile back, but I just can't. Liam can take what I'm about to tell him a million different ways and I'm a little nervous.

But I know that if I try to hide it any longer I will just give up, I just need to tell him and get it over with. Liam noticed that something was wrong "what's the matter babe?" He says sitting down next to me on the bed. It's not until he starts to comfort me that I started to feel a bit more comfortable about what I'm going to say.

"Liam I really miss Brook and Courtney. You must think that I'm annoying for bringing this up.. And I don't blame you. But Halloween is coming up and as I sat here all day, all I could think about was how much fun that I used to have with them on Halloween.It was the one night every year where we could go out and not worry about my mom catching us." I stop for a second and continue quickly so that way I have time to just get it all off my chest without trying to stop myself.

"I don't want to leave you because I love you, I love having the boys as company and supportive friends, and I love being here with you. But Brooklyn and Courtney can't come back out here, they have school. We have this bond that hasn't been broken, even after all those years.. and I don't want to be the one to break it. It's the hardest decision I have to make, because I don't want to not be here with you on Halloween but I just miss them so much. And if I went to see them it would only be for a week."

Liam looks at me, almost the way he did that night sitting outside the restraunt watching the fireworks go off above the castle in Disney Land. I try my hardest not to cry, I can't be a baby, this is what you have to do in life as an adult. You make hard decisions.

"Stephanie if you truly want to go see your friend and sister I'm not going to stop you. I know that you miss them and I don't want to see you hurting. Of course I'm going to miss you but I'll be happy knowing that your happy. If this is something you need to do then you can. I love you so much Stephanie and there's always next Halloween." He says then kisses me.

I just hug him, not wanting to let go. He means so much to me. I've fallen hard. Now I know what your all thinking it's just a week why are you being so emotional? And maybe you're right, maybe I am being too emotional but he is the only person aside from my friend and sister that I love that I feel safe with. And maybe it's the fact that I just love him sooo much, there's always that thought in the back of my head that he will find somebody better and throw me to the side. It scares me. If I loose him then I will be alone and heart broken. But it's one of those times where you have to enjoy each day that you have together and enjoy all of the charitable moments. I love him, I trust him, and I can do this. I can't let my past affect my future.

"I love you so much Liam I'm going to miss you. This week is going to feel like a month...But you're right it's something I need to do. I just can't thank you enough for understanding and just everything you do."

He smiles at me "Thank you for being with me through everything. I'm sure there's more for us to do. We can do this its just one week Steph, sure it will suck but we can do it. I know that our love is strong enough."

"I know it is too Liam." I spent the rest of the night with Liam making plans to leave tomorrow afternoon so that way I can get there early morning the next day, which will be on a Thursday morning. After I get everything ready for tomorrow both Liam and I get ready for bed.

It's silent, which is different, but we're both upset to be far apart for a week. The past few months we have been there for each other daily and now we will be without each other for a week.

As I doze off to sleep I feel the bed move, Liam turns over so that way he is up against my back holding me "please don't let go". Only he isn't whispering it to me, he is telling himself.

--The next morning--

Liam and I spend the rest of the day just sitting in bed and checking the clock every hour counting how much time we have left together. When I see the clock read 12pm I instantly want to cry, but I just can't. I don't want to make Liam upset.

The ride there is quiet and the air is filled with sadness. When we arrive at the airport I just sit for a minute. Staring at the big building in front of me realizing that I am actually doing this. Liam walks me to the gate and we just stand there holding hands not wanting to pull apart. "I love you Liam, I love you so much...I will see you in a week." "I love you too Steph it's only one week... we can do this... I can do this." He says the last part quietly to himself, not thinking that I still hear him. I nod my head.

After Liam speaks they call my flight. I pick up my bags, and for the first time in the past hour our hands become detached. We hug one last time and then I head for the plane. "We're skyping every night!" Liam calls to me "definitely!" I yell back to him holding back the tears. As I board the plane I feel like I'm leaving half of my heart with Liam, I feel like there's a part of me missing.

After sitting there for a couple minutes the plane starts to take off and I just can't hold it back anymore, I start to cry.  It's just one week, I think to myself as I watch the airport move further and further away.

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