Letters To Louis Tomlinson- One Direction Fan Fic

Chapter 39

Liam's POV:

We have today off, so I spend a few hours with Stephanie just lying in bed. But soon after I decide to take Stephanie's advice and go to talk to Louis.

As I walk down the hallway I can feel the anger build up inside of me, I hate that he  kissed Stephanie but deep down I know he is just hurt. I love Stephanie, but I can't hold a grudge against one of my brothers.

When I get to his hotel room door I knock without hesitation so that way I can just get this over with, I had a few things to talk to Louis about. It only takes him about 1 minute to get to the door, but when he sees it is me he looks nervous and scared. Not gonna lie I kinda feel bad for him. He doesn't deserve to be alone but he didn't have to go after the one I love.

I try my hardest to stay calm, "can I possibly come in Louis?" He nods his head and lets me in. It is awkward at first, just standing here. But as I said before, I want to get this over with so I can get back to Stephanie. "Louis I know what happened a couple nights ago between you and Stephanie. I was mad at first but then Stephanie helped me realize something. So I understand where you were coming from."

"I would say sorry, but I know that you're supposed to be sincere when apologizing and mean it. So I can't apologize for kissing her. I love her Liam and I think that I always will. The only thing keeping me from trying to get her back Is the strength of your love. So as I said I won't apologize for kissing her but I can apologize for hurting your feelings." When Louis says this I get a little aggravated, but then I start to think about everything in his perspective. What if it was me in Louis' position would I have done the same things he did or have reacted the same as Louis.? As much as I don't want to admit it, the answer was yes, I would have done the same.

"I understand Louis. Thank you for at least apologizing for hurting my feelings. I appreciate it."
After we get that out of the way we just start to talk about everything, even him and Taylor. Just like I had thought, he never cared for her, he just used her to stay away from Stephanie. I really appreciate the things that he does for Stephanie and I.

When I check the phone on my watch I see that it is 2pm. It doesn't seem like I have been here that long, but I have been there for 2 hours. It is nice catching up with Louis but I should really get back to Stephanie now. I just have to tell Louis about one more thing. It is very important to me and I think he should be the first to know. He deserves to know.

"Louis I didn't just come here to talk about the other night. I have something else to say and I think you should be the first one to know." Louis looks up at me after he takes a sip of his beer. "Sure what is it?"

I take a deep breath, I hope that he doesn't get too upset or angry over this. "Well... There's no easy way to put this for you, ugh god, well I've been thinking about how much I love Stephanie and how much I don't want to loose her. As I look back onto the past 11 months, well they have been the best months of my entire life. What I'm trying to say is.. I want to marry Stephanie. I was planning on taking her back  to Disney land in about a month to propose. I thought you should be the first to know."

As I speak I can see Louis' smile fade to a frown. I know how much her cared and even cares about Stephanie but he needs to know. I don't want to just drop it on him, it wouldn't be fair to him or Steph.

"Oh... That's great I'm happy for you."
"Louis I'm sorry I know how much this mus.."
"No, you are great for her. I can see in her eyes how happy and in love she is. Of course I want to be the one to have that effect on her but I know that I'm not going to be. So at least I know that she will be with somebody that can help her in ways that I always wished I could. You deserve each other, you're perfect together."

"Thank you for understanding Louis. I don't know how you do it, because I know that if I were you I wouldn't be able to do what you do."

Its sounds as if he whispers something but he just smiles. So I decide to head back to my hotel room." I think I should head back now. It was nice talking to you for a while lad."

"Yea you too. I'll see you tomorrow when the crazy schedule begins all over again!" I chuckle and head back to the room. It is good getting to talk to Louis, I think things went well, I just hope that things stay this way.

When I open my door I see Stephanie talking to Courtney and Brook about something that's making them laugh so I decide to join in on the conversation. I mean why not? I need to lighten up a little bit today and not be so tense.

Louis' POV:

When Liam tells me that he is planning on marrying Stephanie I am shocked. I guess I saw this coming eventually but I didn't think it would happen now.

It took everything in me to not cry in front of Liam when he told me his plans on marrying Steph. Sure, I am happy for them, truly happy, but like I've said before I just wish that it could be me and Steph instead of her and Liam. But as I'm siting here right now thinking about everything I know that I can never do the the things that Liam has done to make her happy. That is just my weakness. Never giving her enough.

Seeing her and Liam together hurts me a lot but I always have this side of me that hopes, maybe I will get another chance with Stephanie. But when Liam told me his plans of marriage all of my hope just faded away.

My one wish was to find the love of my life and I thought that my love was Stephanie, but in the end I found out she was not. So now I have a new wish, my wish is to move on so that way this won't hurt so much. Seeing them get married, grow old together, and love each other until the end of time, it is going to hurt me. Even if I do move on and find somebody else it will hurt me. If you're wondering why I'll just tell you.

Sure I might find somebody else but I will never love anybody as much as I love Stephanie. And there will always be a small place in my heart for her. She's a piece of me and always will be. That's just the way things are, that's the thing that sucks about love. You can love somebody with everything you have but just be hurt in the end. But it is a risk that I am willing to take with Stephanie.

Now looking back on everything I wish I hadn't taken that risk. One day I'll move on, it might not be today, tomorrow, or even months from now but I will move on. I have to, if I don't I'll live my life in hurt and pain, I don't want that. If Stephanie can be happy then so can I.

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