Letters To Louis Tomlinson- One Direction Fan Fic

Chapter 36

Stephanie's POV:

The plane ride isn't too long because we are only going back to California for another day, after that we are going to Texas. I love being able to see the world! Especially with my family, there's no better feeling. I am so happy to be able to go on tour with my sister and best friend while I have the best boy friend in the world.

But I really want to know why Louis broke up with Taylor. Everybody knows she was a bi**h, he always just chose to ignore the truth. So we left him alone and let him be with Taylor we didn't want to upset him.

--1 hour later--

Liam and I are currently sitting in our hotel room just watching tv. Well I'm sure you know where Brooklyn and Courtney are. As I sit there the thought of why Louis broke up with her is gnawing away at my brain. I need to know why, "Is Louis in his room?" I ask Liam. Liam trusts me and that's the other thing I love about our relationship, he trusts me and I can trust him. "I think so. I mean after the whole Taylor thing he's been in there. It's kind of like he went back to the old Louis...Why?" Hearing that he is going back to his old habits hurts but I need to make sure for myself.

"I just want to ask him about something that's all. Would you mind if I went to go ask him quick? I'll be right back." Liam looked at me "Of course not go ahead." I smile and quickly kiss Liam and start to walk down the hall to Louis' room. When I approach his door I stand there for a moment, having my fist stopped a couple inches in front of the door. I am scared to knock and have him open the door to see something awful, but I really want to know about this whole thing.

I knock for what seemed  a second. But soon after Louis was at the door and everything looked okay, but he just looks upset. I guess he really does care about Taylor. "Yes?" Louis asks "um is it okay if I ask you something?"

Without saying anything he steps aside and holds the door open. So I walk into his hotel room. Louis sits down on the couch and pats the spot next to him indicating that's where I'm sitting. I walk over to the small couch and sit down. "So what did you come here to ask me?" Louis asks still sounding upset.

"Well I don't mean to bring up bad times for you but.... Why did you break up with Taylor?" He looks at me and sits there thinking about the question but he wasn't thinking about the reason, he was thinking 'should I tell Stephanie or no'. I could tell by the look on his face. "Why would you ask me that?" Louis asks slightly annoyed, I was taken back by the anger in his voice. Maybe it is dumb of me to ask, but I just really wanted to know the reasoning. One may call it nosey but I call it interested or concerned.

"You don't have to be so rude Louis I was just asking a question?" He looks at me slightly pissed off "A personal question, I might add. This is none of your business, this isn't high school where you find out the gossip about everybody Steph! It's my business!" I am upset about the way he is talking to me but I am also angry. "It was just a question Louis! If you didn't want to answer then maybe you could have flat out told me that you just don't want me to know, you're such a dick!" He looks at me laughing "You must be really dumb."

I look at him slightly hurt by his words "Forget it Louis." I say then start to get off the couch. As I am getting up he grabs my wrist and pulls me back down "Do you really want to know why I broke up with her?!!" Louis never scared me but seeing this side of him is terrifying. I don't answer him but he continues anyway.

"You're so nieve! How do you not notice. Do you honestly not notice how every time you hug Liam I walk out of the room or cringe." His voice starts to crack as if he's about to cry. "I do it for you Stephanie everything I do is for you! I feel guilty for the things I've done to hurt you. And I pay for it everyday by seeing you and Liam together. Seeing all the moments that we could have had. I kept Taylor as a distraction from having feelings for you. It worked for a matter of days but my love for you is too strong. But then I realized that my distraction was hurting you, she was keeping you from having your only family on tour. Seeing that you were hurt hurt me in return so I broke up with her. I DID IT FOR YOU!" He says now towering over me basically screaming in my face. But he isn't finished so I don't dare interrupt.

"I know your heart belongs to Liam. And ugh.... It kills me, it hurts so much to see that you love him and not me. I wanted to be the one who's there.. I still want to be the one! The one who you give all your love to, the one who cares for you everyday of your life. You know the funny part, I always thought I could easily win you back. But it's become so clear that you and Liam are linked, you're inseparable, you love each other so much. I can see it in your eyes. That's one thing I know for a fact...My heart will always belong to you. It was when I first met you, it belonged to you when you first met Liam and my heart still belongs to you. It will always belong to you. I love you Stephanie." That's when you can see the tears start to roll down his cheeks.

It kills me to see him like this but he os right, I love Liam if he had come to me earlier maybe we could be together. How can he do this to me. "How can you do this? When I was with Liam those first couple weeks I thought about you every single day, hoping that you would apologize but you never did. I waited for you but you never came. So you are right my heart belongs to Liam. He was there when you hurt me and he is still there for me. And I'm sorry that you have to go through the pain that I had to go through, I really am. But Liam is the one I love and the one I will always love. I can't live without him. You need to realize that." I start to cry I do not want him to hurt because of me but I can't lie to him, not about this, I love Liam and not him.

All of a sudden Louis kisses me. I pull away and smack his chest. "What are you doing?! I told you I love Liam!If you truly loved me you would not have done that! I can't believe you." The tears rush down my face even faster, why would he do this. I can't keep things from Liam and I'm afraid if I tell him he will be upset. But if I don't tell him and he finds out it will kill him.

"I'm so sorry Stephanie I..." I get up from under him and start walking towards the door. I stop once I reach for the handle "You need to give me some space. I'm sorry Louis. For everything."

He tries to apologize once again as I close the door. I really feel bad for him but what he just did was wrong. I don't know if I can ever forgive him. But I will have to try and act normal around him for the sake of the other boys. It's killing me to think about this but I'm going to have to tell Liam about what just happened. After walking down the short hallway I get to our hotel room door and before entering I take a deep breath. Liam is the best and I don't want to loose him over something I had no intention of.

Thank you for reading! I'll be updating soon! I love all of you who are actually reading my book it means a lot❤️ BTW there's probably a lot of typos, I was writing this story quickly before my phone died. Please remember to vote and comment!-Hannah;)