A Way to Yesterday

Chapter 35- Eye Opener

Cara's POV:

Present.

The next day was absolute hell. After my shift I went home for a day filled with more crying and wallowing. I eventually fell asleep and then when I woke up I felt like complete shit. My eyes were puffy and my throat was sore. I tried my best to make it look like I hadn't been crying but it still showed slight signs. I gave up after a while and just left for work.

And then I walked into Liam's room to find him and his wife talking about baby names. The whole time Arolyn was making sure that the attention was kept on her. But I also saw Liam steal little glances at me when she looked down at her phone. I had to admit it gave me a small sense of hope. False hope.

I didn't matter anymore. I still felt awful about lying. But isn't this what I wanted. No it wasn't. I still had feelings for him that never changed. I just never thought it would still be hard to see him with her. I had thought there would be some magical sparks that would make me stop loving him. It never went away.

Now I could only hope that the guilt would ease over time and that it wouldn't send me home crying every night.

"Dr. Kingston?" I blink a few times and look at Niall who was looking at me with a worried and puzzled expression.

"I'm sorry, what?" I say.

"Um. I was just saying that Katy is doing much better. Her x-rays came back normal and it looks like the bones are healing nicely but you have to give them a look and give her the clear to leave," he says. I nod.

"Oh. Okay. I will get right on that. Thank you Niall," I say.

"Is there anything else you need?" he asks.

"Actually there is. Can you get the most recent CT of Mr. Payne's so I can review it. And also get him scheduled with the physical therapist to see how is body functions are," I order him. He nods.

"Right away," he says. I smile.

"Thank you Niall," I say and he turns to leave. I sigh and head to check on Katy. I open her door to find her with a different book in hand. She looks up at me and closes her book.

"Hi Dr. Kingston," she says.

"Good evening Katy. How are you feeling today?" I ask.

"Much better. Do I get to go home soon? I miss my bed," she says. I smile at her.

"Well good news. I hear that your bones are healing nicely but I wanted to take a look myself so may I?" she nods and lies back on the bed. She holds her arm out and I check her entire lower arm she winces slightly but everything seems okay. She lifts her hospital gown slightly and I check her leg. The swelling went down and most of the scaring is healing nicely.

"How bad is it?" she asks. I laugh at her.

"It's actually very good. I think you'll be able to get back to your own bed soon. I just want to get a look at your x-rays to make sure and I will get back to you okay," I tell her. She nods.

"Thank you Dr. Kingston. You're a good doctor." she says.

"And you're a good patient. I'll see you later Katy," I tell her.

"Dr. Kingston. Are you okay?" she asks.

"I'm fine why?"

"You look sad. My mom looked like that when her and my dad were getting a divorce," she says. I swallow and force a smile.

"I'm not sad. Just going through some adult stuff but I'll be okay," I tell her.

"That's what my mom said too. But she was always sad. Until she started dating Adam and now she seems happy. Maybe you need to find you an Adam so you can be happy," she tells me.