A Way to Yesterday

Chapter 33- Doomed

Liam's POV: 

Present.

I look at Cara as she turns and walks out of the room.Our eyes met briefly and I catch a glimpse of something. But only a glimpse. Arolyn grabs my chin and turns my attention back to her. She presses a kiss to my lips and I look at the door again but Cara was gone. 

"This is unbelievable," she says. I look at her and smile again. 

"It really is," I say. She stands up from the wheelchair picks up her purse. "Where are you going?" I ask. 

"I'm gonna go get some rest. I'll be back in the morning," she says. 

"You're not gonna stay here?" 

"No. Why would I?" she says. 

"Well. We just found out you're pregnant and you just fainted. Don't you think you should stay and rest here at least for the night," I suggest. 

"I'll be fine Liam. The hotel is just down the street. I'll be back in the morning," she says. She leans down and kisses my forehead. "See you tomorrow." 

"I love you," I call to her as she walks out. She waves but doesn't say anything. I sit back and sigh. I couldn't believe after everything she finally got pregnant. We had been trying for years and fighting and now it all seemed like a dream. 

But my heart wasn't completely in it. I was happy but I wasn't as excited as I thought I should be. I had a feeling that was due to Cara's presence. She was here and I was still fighting with how I felt about her. But I shouldn't let that take away how I feel about something that I've wanted for so long. 

I did still want this didn't I? Just yesterday I was considering leaving her. 

I couldn't think like that though. I was going to be a father. And I didn't want any child of mine going through what I did with my parents. Of course I was older then but that doesn't mean it didn't have an effect on me. No child should have to live in a broken home. 

But the real issue here would be would Arolyn calm down now that she was pregnant. 

I prayed that she would I couldn't handle another fight like the last. And stress would surely give complications to the baby. 

No matter what happened the baby was going to be my main priority. No matter what Arolyn did or said from here on out I would stick through it. 

Harry's POV:

Cara had managed to avoid me for most of the day. But I caught up with her towards the end of visiting hours. She was rushing into a supply closet. I follow after her. I stop the door from closing and step inside. She has her head in her hands and is facing the wall. 

"Cara?" I ask. She jumps slightly and turns to face me. Tears were starting to form in her eyes and she shakes her head. She attempts to walk past me but I grab her arm. She sobs loudly and practically collapses into me. I hold her to me and she cries. 

"I'm so sorry Harry. I've ruined everything. With Liam and you and my family and just everything," her voice is muffled by my shoulder and the shakiness from her crying. I rub circles in her back. 

"Hey it's okay. It's okay. Don't cry," I say soothingly. 

"No it's not okay. I'm so stupid. I ruined things," she says. 

"What happened?" I ask quietly. 

"I lied. To Liam," she stutters. 

"What do you mean?" 

"I wanted a way to be rid of him so I lied and told him that his wife is pregnant and now I feel terrible for lying to him and hurting you when you've been so good to me and I have no relationship with my family anymore because I ruined that. I feel like I have nobody." I pull her back slightly and lift her chin so that she's looking at me. 

"Hey. It's okay Cara. These things can be fixed. We can get you to your family again and tell Liam the truth. And don't worry about me. I understand why you don't love me. But that doesn't mean that I'm going to stop being there for you." I assure her. I wipe a few stray tears from her eyes. 

She sighs heavily and wipes away the rest of her tears. 

"I don't know why you love me. I'm a horrible person," she says. I shake my head in disagreement. 

"No you're not. I love you because you're a pretty fucking awesome person. And other things but lets not get into that right now," I joke. She smiles slightly but it doesn't quite reach her eyes. She sucks in a shakey breath and wipes under her eyes again. 

"I don't deserve to have you in my life. Not now at least. Maybe if you would have known me in college then you would've liked me better," she says. I assume its a joke but her tone doesn't seem like it. 

"I like you enough now. Don't doubt that," I say. "And I'm here to stay no matter what you say. I'll be here to help you get over this," I remind her. 

"Thank you Harry," she says and wraps her arms around me again. 

"Anytime," I say. I frown slightly because I know that this is all I'll ever get now. I'm always gonna be cursed to be her friend now. All because I told her I loved her. I admitted that I had feelings for her when our relationship was strictly physical. And now she wanted to stay away from that. 

I partially blame Liam. He probably has a very small part to do with her decision but I needed to place the blame on somebody. But perhaps we're only allowed one happy ending and mine and Cara's had been ripped away from us and now there was no possibility of another. 

We were both doomed from the day we met.