Pain's Worth IT

Chapter 43- Regret Hits

°°Chapter 43- Regret Hits°°

°°Q's POV°°

°^Pain's Worth It°°

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Lately, I've been thinking about my decisions earlier this year. I don't know what I was thinking and it really hurts to have to let my family go.

I always think about them and being able to spend time with them, but I know that isn't anytime soon. The only way I had contact with them was through FaceTime, if she decides to answer or when my mom goes over or by creeping on her page to see photos of them.

I'm desperate to see my kids and Midnight as well, but she keeps avoiding me. I've never seen her shut me out like this before and it's scary that she may be done with me for good.

I was watching some old, old videos of Midnight and I on my Google drive then watched the video of Lyric taking her first steps. I know I wasn't there, but Midnight sent me the video after we straightened things out.

She looked so confused with her hazel eyes wide open and her hands flaring around to keep her balance. Her legs went up as if she was walking in a marching band or like a soldier. She fell a few times, but then she got a hang of it.

I shook my head with a smile then clicked to see what's next. It was a photo of Midnight and I on the night she gave birth to our son. She was so pissed off and she was clutching onto her stomach, but I still smiled so it could be a good photo.

The next photo was little, two and a half pound, Quayon Walters in his mother's arms. He was so pale and she was so emotional. He was sleeping so peacefully as she smiled down at him with a tear rolling down her cheek.

I kept viewing photos and photos of my family then ended up on a video of Midnight and I in the shower. It wasn't anything freaky going on, just a lot of kissing and groping. I exited out of the video then clicked on it again.

"Babe... What you doing?" Monique walked in.

I slammed my laptop shut and pulled the blanket over me. I put it on the nightstand and scaratched my head with a guilty chuckle.

She tried to grab mylaptop, but I took it back.

Shaking her head, she assumed "You were watching porn, weren't you?"

"Mind your business..." She tried to grab it again "Chill... Mind your business fool".

She got comfortable next to me, wrapping her arms around my torso and burying her head in my chest.

I pushed her hair behind her ear then rubbed her nose, gently, with my thumb.

"You okay?" I clicked my tongue as I looked down at her.

She looked up at me "Never better. Why do you ask?"

I shrugged "Just asking. Any plans for today?"

She smacked her lips as she slowly backed away from me. "I reserved dinner at a restaurant that I think you may like for the evening time."

"Why not now? Like I'm starving and it doesn't look like you made breakfast" I moved the blanket off of me and hopped out of bed.

"Ooh..." she followed behind me as I went to the bathroom "I didn't have any time because I was thinking about later".

I stood in front of the toilet to take a wizz. "What's the whole point of today? What's going on?"

She shrugged with a smirk on her face "You'll see later. Don't worry about it."