Holiday spirit

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I don't wanna lot for Christmas, I won't even wish for snow. But la la something something cos all I want for Christmas is you ooooooh oh yeah.

It's funny. You can listen to a Christmas song over and over again, but never fully Understand the correct words.
Is it just me? Or does everyone just listen to the same 5 Christmas songs over and over again.
Nothing beats the classics.

The only difference this year is that I'm unable to get up and dance to them. Instead I'm sitting on the sofa, coughing, and feeling sorry for myself.

To be honest, having Cancer in my lungs hasn't affected me much. I do get more worn out when walking up and down the stairs, and I have the odd coughing fit from time to time. but other than that, it's not much different to the normal Cancer fabulous life I was living before.

Thank god it's only small spots of Cancer. If it was a tumour, my life would certainly be a lot different.

It's the 21st of December, and nearly Christmas! I'm really excited!
Luke is off school and so is ben. Although He's been out with his mates a lot, having loads of Christmas parties. Even though I'm a little jealous, I'm happy for him that he gets to go out and live his life. Rather than being stuck indoors with me all the time.

I'm a little bit down today. It is hard to enjoy Christmas when you know you've got a chronic illness. During the Christmas period everyone's lives just seem to stop, and take a break. Well mine isn't like that, just because it's Christmas doesn't mean I don't have Cancer.
As much as I would like that to be the case.

Ben's coming over later, hopefully he can cheer me up.

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"Like this Mrs greenwood?" Ben asks.
"Yes ben, that's perfect."
Since my dad died we've been unable to put up any Christmas lights outside. It's more of a manly job, no girl really wants to go on a roof.
Ben agreed to do it for us this year,
It has made this whole Christmas season light up. It's hard to celebrate when your missing a family member. But ben kind of fills a large gap in our family. He's part of the family now.
"Thanks ben, you have no idea how much this means to our family."
"That's alright Sarah."
"Come inside, I'll get you a drink."

We both sit down with our hot chocolates, cuddled close to eachother and start talking.
"So why you so down then?" He asks.
"Well... Many reasons, many you could probably guess. But I guess... It's Sadie that's making me the most upset."
"Well... About that-"
"What? About what?" I say excitedly.
"I kind of have a surprise."
"Oh my gosh what is it?" I jump up and down on his lap.
"I've got three tickets to a Christmas firework show for tommorow night, if you want to go."
"Oh my gosh yes yes yes. Thankyou. I've always wanted to go.but wait. Who's the third one for?"
"Take a guess."
"But no. There's no way she'd be allowed out of the hospital."
"I've talked to Dr kartor."
"Wait how?"
"I have my ways. And anyway, he said that she has come of the ventilator, and can come out for one last night."
Wow, I knew he was starting to become nicer. "But she can't walk, so she will be in a wheelchair."
"Oh really? Well... this is just so great."
"The hospital are coming to drop her off in an ambulance tommorow afternoon, then we can take her to the fireworks."
"Wow, this is going to be amazing. She hasn't been outside her room for... Well basically her whole life. It's going to be so incredible."

I spend the rest of the day just going on about how amazing tommorow night's going to be. Sadie needs something like this. It's kind of like a send off, for her, she can finally say goodbye to this world with a smile.

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It's today.
Sadie will be here any minute.

Ding dong!

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