One sick love story

Recovery

Being back at home isn't as exciting as I thought it was going to be.
I was in the hospital for another 2 weeks, then they let me go home yesterday. Being in the hospital for that long, sucked. Yep, that's all I can really say about it. I literally did nothing. After my party, I was so tired, and so was ben. He went home for a few days, then he came to visit me in hospital after college quite often. It was just me and the nurses for most of the time though, as my mum really needed to go back to work. She needed something to distract her from the terrible life shes experiencing with me. It probably sucks more being in her position, than it does mine. Feeling helpless. Although I did get a little taste of it when ben had his crash. He's recovered really well now. But my body is still struggling.
It's weird how fast things have gone, it's been nearly a month since his accident. We're now in March.
I was expecting this point in my life to be incredible. After having my seventeenth birthday I had amazing things planned. This was before i got diagnosed. Now I can't do anything I want to do.
I planned on going on a trip with chelsea to somewhere exotic. And doing some crazy things like jumping out of an aeroplane. But instead I'm stuck in the living room, wrapped up In a blanket, talking to myself.
I'm hoping to still do these things one day. Just not yet.

Ben is on his way here. It's Saturday and he has a day off. He hasn't seen me since I arrived home from hospital. We're not going to he doing anything that interesting to be honest, probably just talking. I can't do much else. I'm still recovering from a hectic few weeks.
I here his motorbike pulling up and mentally, I rush to the front door. But not physically. I want to be the one greeting him at the door, but I'm still recovering and I'm very weak. Instead, my mum let's him in,. "Oh hi Ben, your looking so great. How are things going?"
"Much better Sarah Thankyou, I'm almost fully recovered now. I'm back into college and everything."
"Well that's great to here." She starts to lower her voice as she thinks I can't here her, but I can still hear everything. "Ben, it's really good that your recovered, but as you know, Darcy is still really quite sick. So she's not going to be able to-"
"I know, it's alright Sarah, I understand. Now where is she?"
"Oh she's just in the living room"
"Thanks, it's nice to see you again"
"You too."
He walks in looking as hot as ever, with his hair fashionably windswept, and his leather jacket laying perfectly over his shoulders. He takes it off then comes straight up to me to give me a hug. I bury myself In his comforting arms, and relax my whole body into him. "I've missed you" I say.
"I've missed you too, but it's great your home now."
"I guess, but it's still as boring as it was In the hospital. And plus, if I feel ill, there aren't as many drugs to give me in the house than in hospital." Ben quietly chuckles at my sarcastic comment, although it is kind of true. If you felt sick or was in pain, there was always something there to help it. At home, you just have to deal with it.

After hours of just talking and me resting in his lap, we eventually get on to the conversation of the week of his crash and how this eventful month began.
"Can you believe..."I start "that this whole thing happened over a stupid argument."
"I know, and I still feel bad about that so try not to mention it."
"No it's alright ben, I know it was an accident. You don't need to apologise anymore. What I mean is... Is that, Joe kissing me, lead to me being in a medical coma for 2 weeks."
"I know. It's crazy, but hold on... We haven't really talked about him kissing you. What actually happened?"
"Well, basically, you must have noticed him hitting on me before right?"
"Yeah, he does it to all the girls I know but he never actually acts apon it."
"Maybe he done it because I'm more vulnerable than all the other girls. I'm the sick one, so couldn't do anything about it."
"Maybe"
"But anyway, he tried to kiss me a few times before the one you saw. He kissed me once before but I didn't mention anything, but luckily, this time you actually noticed him. I was hoping you'd have a go at him, but I didn't want you guys to get in a full blown fight."
"Well neither did I. But he has been pissing me off for a while before that though."
"Why?"
"Loads of different reasons. He is older than me, and lives a different lifestyle. I want a future, and basically he's thrown away his future by not going to college. He just kind of sits on the couch then goes out once in a while with his mates, to do god knows what!"
"Probably drug dealing" we both laugh but we also know it could be a possibility.
"Now another thing I want to know about that night, was how you got into a car crash in the first place. And why you were out at 4 in the morning."
"Well.. That's a long story. A lot of it I'm still struggling to remember because of the impact to my Brain. But all i can remember really, and I know it's stupid now, but basically... I was so angry with myself at letting you get hurt like that. And so angry at joe for being like he is, kissing on you just took me over the line. It has been borderline, but he just crossed it. I was in our apartment then he comes home drunk with a bunch of girls, obviously I was woken up by him. And you know, the activities that were going on in the bedroom. So I decided to pack my things, get on my motorbike and go to my dads house. My emotions were all over the place, I wasn't really concentrating on what I was doing. Then suddenly, I saw a large car inches from my face, and I can't remember anything after that."
"Oh ben, that must have been terrifying." I give him a loving hug, thn he grabs hold of me tight as our
Lips collide.
"Luckily I can't remember most of it, the doctor told me I was very lucky I done no damage to my brain. It could have been fatal."
"Yeah, I wouldn't call it lucky though. We don't seem to have the best luck in the world."
"Maybe not, but you've got to think about all the positive things. Because you are still lucky in the sense that you have a family that cares about you very much. A warm, safe home, and a very hot boyfriend." He laughs at his own joke.
"Oh haha, that's very true."
"Also darcy, I know you don't feel like you're getting better, but you are."
"Well you don't actually know that."
"Well actually, I kind of do."
"What do you mean?"
"I was talking to Dr kartor when you were in hospital. I was so worried because obviously you weren't getting chemo for a long time, so I was scared that the Cancer was going to start to come back. But he said, 'no, surprisingly, darcy is doing extremely well. It won't make a difference if she misses this chemo, because actually, she's almost in remision!"
"Wait what? Why haven't I heard about this?"
"I don't know, I guess I kind of forgot about it. Because you were so ill and I was still worried."
"So like seriously, I might be almost cured. I'm going to beat this!"I screamed and jumped up out of his lap.
"Yes Darcy, your almost there. I told you you were going to do this."
"Oh Thankyou Thankyou Thankyou ben."
"Why are you saying Thankyou to me? Im not one who's gone through all the suffering. You've put up a good fight, and you've won."
I just stand there in complete shock. I've gone from being really sick, to finding out I'm almost cured. But what I don't get, is why Dr kartor hasn't told me this. Maybe he told my mum? But
No, she would have told me?

I spend the rest of the day wondering, and questioning if what ben said is true or not.
I can't sleep because of it!
If what Ben said is true. Then this could be it...
Have I won the battle?