One sick love story

My last chemo!!!

Is this really happening? It's hard to believe that today I'm going in for my last chemotherapy session- ever!
It's the last time I'll have to go into the hospital as an in-patient.
I'm still doing my usual, stay in for 5 days, which still kind of sucks. But atleast I know by the end of this week, it will be all over.
"Darcy have you got everything packed!?" My mum shouts from downstairs.
"Yes mum I'm just coming."
I rush down the stairs and almost bash into her. She looks me in the eyes with a massive smile on her face. The recent good news hasn't just affected me, it's impacted my entire family. We can finally be a family again.
"Darcy... I'm just so proud of you."
"Thanks mum"
"Obviously i know you've had your bad days. But throughout it all you've never given up. You're so strong, and dad would be so proud of you."
She gives me a warm, long hug and I can feel her body sigh heavily against mine. She is so relieved it's coming to an end. And so am I.

Luke comes running up the corridor and joins in the hug.
"Hey luke, everything alright?" I ask.
"Are you going away again, for a long time, I don't want you to leave."
"It's alright luke" I bend down so I reach his height. "This is the last time I'm going away okay, after that, I'm not going to be sick anymore. I will be here all of the time."
"Really?" He sounds happy but also a little doubtful.
"Yes luke, I promise." I hand out my pinky finger, and he happily accepts with a smile.
"Pinky promise?" He says.
"Pinky promise."
I hug and give him a kiss on the cheek, then me and mum head to the hospital, but just before we drop luke off at school.
He runs inside really happy. I'm so glad I can finally keep my promise to him.

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"3,2,1..." And they push the needle inside my port. I always screech a little due to the pain. But each time it gets a bit easier. But that doesn't matter anyway, because it's the last time I'll have to have a needle stabbed into me.

I've settled into my room, but sadly this time it isn't private. I'm apparently sharing it with another girl. But she hasn't arrived yet. I guess it will be nice to have some company.

Ben is going to come straight to the hospital after college today. He feels bad as he's not going to be able to visit much because of exams and things, but I don't mind. He's done so much for me, he doesn't need to do anymore.

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The chemotherapy's side effects are really hitting me hard today. I'm feeling really tired and quite neasueas. They've given me some meds but it's not really helping; never has really.
But im trying to brush all the negatives aside and focus on the positives.

I relax down into my bed and try and sleep, until I get a call from ben.
"Hey, is everything alright?" I ask.
"Not really, I'm so sorry Darcy but I don't think I'm going to be Able to come today. I'm behind on my school work and I really need to catch up."
"Oh don't worry ben, that's fine. It's more important you do that, than be here with me."
"I'm so sorry, I hope your okay!"
"I'm fine ben, I honestly don't mind."
"Well... Thank you , I'll come and see you tommorow instead okay, miss you so much."
"Ben I saw you yesterday."
"I know, but it's hard to think about not seeing you when you're in hospital."
"It's alright ben, honestly."
"Love you so much, and see you tommorow yeah."
"Yes, bye!"
Even though I said I don't mind, it's still a little bit upsetting, as I am bored out of my head. But I need to remember... Focus on the positives!

I turn to my left where I see a bunch of doctors and a young girl walking towards my door. They all walk in crowding her, and show her to her bed.
This must be my roommate. As I look at her more closely, I notice she still has a full head of hair. She looks around my age, (maybe a bit younger) but looks absolutely petrified. Bella is one of the nurses and I call her over.
"Bella, come here a sec"
She walks over as the rest of the nurses and doctors sort her out.
"Yes darcy? Everything alright?"
"Yes, fine thanks. Who is this girl, I've never seen her before?"
"Oh this is Melody, she's just been diagnosed. Only a few days ago. She's quite nervous about the whole situation so we're going to try and settle her down."
"Where are her parents?"
"They're on there way up here. They're just talking with the oncoligist."
"Oh okay. "
"You should talk to her at some point. It will be nice for her to here about the whole Cancer journey through someone who's actually gone through it. The doctors can only tell her so much. "
"Okay... Maybe."
Bella goes over to melody, and I watch as they try and calm her down. Her bed is diagonal to mine, so I can see everything quite clearly. But then they shut the curtains around her bed.
I was quite shy when I first came here, but now I don't mind anyone seeing me in my worst state. They're used to seeing me looking hideous and sick. So i always have my curtain open.