A Poisoned Mind

Chapter sixty one

Another two months had passed, and you were completely ignoring Aston once again, but this time, it was for a different reason. You both haven’t spoken to each other for this period of time (two months) as Aston had gotten himself a new girlfriend... Diana. He claims he has known her for a long time, but you wasn’t so sure... She wasn’t someone you’d think he’d be dating.

She was cocky, and stuck up, although he thinks differently. You over heard him in the café about three hours ago telling the lads, that she was a little bit like you, and that she was aware of yours and his history (yours and Aston’s). That’s why she might be over confident and cocky... She was rubbing it in your face that the fact she is dating your ex, and she wants to make you feel terrible about letting him go! Although, you were already feeling that way, you wish you never had that argument in the studio, telling him you REGRET dating him and REGRET meeting him... You wish you could take it back, and go back to the way you and Aston was! You and Aston haven’t been together for almost half a year now, and you felt so lost and frightened without him.

Right now you were sitting in your car, having a good cry about the past and all the hate that has been going on between you two. Not talking to him for two months has killed you deeply, when you thought that you felt that something might be going for him, it was actually a new girlfriend and you felt that you wish you could have stopped that, but now it was too late... He had been dating her for two months, and their relationship was blossoming, to the point that Diana might be the one for him. You were wishing so desperately that will not be the case, as you wanted him back so much, but you were too afraid to tell him how you felt as you knew that he’ll make fun or reject you for the rest of your and his life!

Slowly, but surely the tears that fell down your cheeks soon came to an end, and you decided that you were gonna go in to the studio and tell the lads about what you have coming up in the next two weeks! Making your way in to the studio, you went immediately up to your private studio room. No dancers were meant to be in today, but you didn’t want to hang around in your flat by yourself, so you thought that coming to the studio, might be a great way to concentrate. While you were sitting in your private room, the door suddenly opened and someone was standing in the door way, you looked up from the piece of paper in your hand, to see Aston standing at the door staring at you, like you was something he hasn’t seen before. The staring seemed to have turned in to a staring competition, but he soon lost as he made his way out from your room and down the corridor...

Aston’s POV:

As I was walking down the corridor, I noticed that one of the studio room’s light was on, so I thought I’d check it out. I opened the door and stood in the door way, and my eyes instantly went straight to the body that was sitting there on the sofa, with a piece of paper in its hand. Although, as I had walked in, it’s eyes looked straight up at mine, to make a staring contest. As I stared at her, I was tempted to go over and kiss her, but I didn’t... I stayed cool and walked straight back out. I was with Diana now, and gosh it was going amazingly well! Better than me and (Your name) were... Wait! I shouldn’t have thought of that! (Your name) is so much better than Diana, and in numerous ways! The way (Your name) makes love... Diana couldn’t compare to that, (Your name) was smooth and sexy, whereas Diana... I don’t think she knows how to make love, as she is more hardcore and rough! I hated that. (Your name)’s kiss, is whatever you make of it, you want it passionately, she’ll do it passionately, you want it soft, she’ll do it soft, just like that (Your name)’s kisses were perfect! Diana’s kisses... They are just the same, hard and desperate... Again, I hated that. Diana doesn’t seem to know the meaning of taking things slow and softly, but I still... I don’t know if I actually love her... I suppose I do, but not a lot!

I walked back in to our studio (JLS’), as we were writing a few new songs. “Lads,” I started, catching the guys attention “yeah,” Marvin replied “there’re not meant to be any dancers in today, is there?” I asked slightly confused “no, why?” JB asked “well... (Your name) is in her studio room,” I said, as the lads looked at each other and raised eyebrows as they looked back at me “and? Is that meant to be a problem... She can come in if she wants to,” Oritsé said, but I just pulled a confused expression “but I don’t want her here,” “how come?” Oritsé asked, as JB was starting to log on to the laptop “because...” “Aston you gotta start accepting the fact that she is gonna be around us... She is our backing dancer! Just because you’re in a relationship with Diana, doesn’t mean that (Your name) can no longer be around us! She is our friend, you know... Even if you don’t like it,” Marvin said softly, as I sighed “I just find it awkward, because of everything that has happened,” I mentioned, but Marvin sighed “how is that awkward? You two haven’t spoken for two months now!” He said his voice a little rougher then softer now “I...” “Just get over the fact that you still love her...” “I don’t love her,” I interrupted him, but Oritsé and JB scoffed, making me look at them “yes, you do mate,” JB scoffed again, but I looked desperate for help from Oritsé “I don’t...” I began quietly, but the door had a faint knock in it “come in!” Marvin called out to the person behind the door, as he continued to look at me as I looked down, as the person behind the door moved in “oh hello (Your name),” Marvin said, as I looked up to him, as he stared at me “hey! I wanted to tell you guys something,” she beamed with a massive smile across her face, but didn’t take any notice of me. She was leaning against the long rectangle, glossy brown table, as she was speaking, although my eyes travelled from the back of her head down her body, still going down and down, but then they stopped. That gorgeous bum that she has, must have been staring at me in the face, but while I continued to look Oritsé faked a cough, making me snap my eyes up and over to him, but then he smirked as I sighed and frowned.

I must have been day dreaming, as I was soon alerted of (Your name)’s soon planning “oh, I’m gonna be on TV in two weeks... I’m having a live interview,” she giggled her back still towards me “oh really!” JB smiled greatly “yeah! I’m gonna be on This Morning,” she giggled once again, but Marvin soon became suspicious “what are they gonna chat to you about?” He asked “what happened at the hotel, you know, for JJ’s and Nicole’s wedding,” she said, instantly my heart pounded in my chest, I became nervous and scared for what she might tell them! What happens if she tells them about what actually happened?! What happens, if she said that I done it?! I’m gonna be screwed. “What you gonna tell them?” Oritsé asked, as JB saw that I was scared and scared big time! My hands started ring themselves, and shake with the nerves “I’m gonna tell them what happened,” she said, before leaving us, as the lads looked at me with a shocked expression. Oh shit!