Sometimes making life decisions makes me rethink my whole life. How it will change, how it will stay the same,how it will affect the people I love. How it will permanently alter the future.. What will happen? The worst part is the fear behind making the first step or after the decision, the first step carrying on, or still deciding. I'm positive this is what I want, and that I can so so much in the world with it. I just want this. It's just the hard parts, explaining it to my friends, the ones I love the most, overcoming the bottled emotions I always keep. The things I wanna say and do but never can because I'm always held back by the terrifying decision. Pray that I am making the right decision. In my heart I know it's the best for me, my head is still on edge. But follow your heart right? I need the challenge and I need to be brought to my full potential. I just hope this time I do it for me! Not because someone wants me to. But I think, I know this is the better option for me at this moment.. . I hope.. .
