The first time isn't deep
It's basically just a scratch from the blades edge
It doesn't bleed a lot at all
But just enough
To feel the rush
The second time isn't much deeper than the first
It hurts so much
But she still feels the sweet release
The pain feels good
One last slow cut across the wrist
The third time id deeper than before
It's bleeding more
It's hurting less
She loves it more
Hates it less
The fourth time she passes out
She cut deep enough to split the skin
It makes me feel better
She explains
I like it. It puts the hurt I feel on the outside
The fifth time she goes to the ER
It's an addiction
Just like other things
She cant stop
No matter how had she tries
The sixth time there is no pain
She hates having a boyfriend
Then he will have to explain
He will leave her
She couldn't handle it
The seventh time it's her throat
She's home alone
Music blaring
She has a knife
Pressed against her neck
Crying
Hurting
Wanting to be gone
One
Quick
Swipe
And Its All Finally Over