I never thought I'd be the one to be thinking about this. I want you, but I don't. I'm afraid to commit to something, afraid I'd turn into my parents. I'm such a hopeless romantic. I want that relationship where were best friends. That perfect marriage, and kids. How can I even be thinking so far in the future? I'm just so afraid I won't live up to my dreams. My dreams where always on the back burner untill now. You make me want to chase them, but you don't understand how hard it is. How much I'd have to give up to do that. I'll never be the one to have that life, and I've excepted that awhile ago. Just today it's weighing heavy, the truth I guess. I hate it so much because no one can show me that their diffrent. Except you, but to commit to you would put myself in a vulnerable state and I don't know if you can handle that.
