I honestly don't think I'll ever forgive myself. Forgive myself for letting you make me look like a fool. You had me wrapped around your finger. Clinging to every word that would exit your mouth. Every word making me fall more in love with you. When the same mouth that talked so sweetly and made me feel safe. It was the same mouth that was telling her the same lines. The same mouth that kissed me was kissing her. The person I fell in love with was gone at that instant. You switched up on me. The whole relationship, if you can even call it that. You used me for what I did for you. I did everything you asked of me. If you needed me I was there. If you needed money I gave it. If you needed something I was getting it for you. Taking care of you through sickness and in health. Because that's what I was supposed to. But in the end I look dumb, I was doing wiffy shit for a low life scum bag. Someone who would never do the same for me. To think I really wanted forever with you. I was at home sleeping while you where hitting that bitch from behind. I was being faithful, while you were out dogging on me. Literally. So now you're gone see how it feels. When I'm gone, long gone. Don't hmu when you realize she doesn't do it like me. When she doesn't do things for you. She doesn't care but I did. I cared about how you felt, how your day was. I wanted you to be okay. I did my best for you. And you gave me shit in return. You played the part, congratulations. You had me fooled thinking it was real. Really those 3 words never held less of a meaning when they came from your mouth. Why say something you don't mean? To keep me captive for longer? To make me think you weren't out doin things behind my back? I'm not a victim to your games anymore. You're free to leave who ever you want. Go Dog on other girls. I should've known from the first time it happened. I. Forgave you so many times. This time I'm not. Have a nice life. Be the fuck boy you want. Get another girl knocked up while you're at it. This woman will not sit and let a boy play with my heart stings. I will find someone who cares. Thinking you're not replaceable, that I'm gonna cry when you're gone wow you think so highly of yourself. You've been gone and I haven't shed a tear. I don't need you. Temporary isn't what I want, I want forever. And not your definition of it either. The months we've been together you've shown me nothing but lies. But someone else has shown me truth, shown me worth. In about a week. Just goes to show you no matter how long you've known someone or been with someone it doesn't mean they care. You could meet someone and talk for a week and get someone who truly cares.
