Can't do it

Chapter 19 Not Even Scared

I literally lost my shit when I heard Toby yell from our room "RAIDEN" I was of course in the kitchen making some waffles and I knew Toby finally woke up realizing I went to town last night because I've been a good good boy for a while now. I honestly was pretty proud of myself. "What my dear~" I yell back "YOU KNOW WHAT" he comes out in the kitchen just in his sweat pants he must have put on while yelling at me. He didn't seem too mad though, just tired. He came up behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist while i cooked "isn't this suppose to be the other way?" I ask taking out the waffle "I don't care...I thought you hated waffles?" he questions watching me put syrup, whip cream, and a strawberry. " I don't, I will always hate waffles and pancakes" I say finishing it up 

   "You can't be human. Why are you making the waffle then?" He asks getting up on his tiptoes to kiss my neck softly. I smiled, and even chuckled a little, "You dummy, It was suppose to be your bed in breakfast but now it shall be couch breakfast" I turn around to kiss his nose " Go sit down." He does as told and sits on the couch waiting for his yummy breakfast his amazing fiance had made for him. "I love you Toby, I hope you know that." I say putting the food in front of him on the coffee table a long with some tea and kissing him. "I know, and I love you too. More than I can say" He says reaching for his waffle. I sit back and sip my tea, nibbling my jelly toast.  

    It didn't seem like a long time before we got to go meet Jackson. I was excited but not as excited. I told Danny that she'd have to sleep in the living room whenever she came over and she seemed pretty cool with it and didn't seem to question it. I asked her not to tell our dads and it seemed like she fallowed or Derek was trying to calm Shawn down from like a week fangirl episode, which wouldn't surprise me in the least, fangirls can be scary!

     I was driving there, nothing new I always drove, and Toby sat in the other seat trying to get more parenting information off the internet. I sighed and focused on the road before turning up my amazing music which Toby scowled at but still head banged with me. He loved it but didn't want to admit it. He was then singing along to my CD and we rocked out, while I tried to be a safe driver, I was doing quite well for singing and half head banging. When we got there Toby slammed the power button off and we went in. 

     Toby made a huge deal of what I was wearing which was just a hoodie and Slipknot Tee under it. I didn't wear bad jeans, I mean they had a hole on the knee but what pants of mine doesn't, at least my hair looked nice and no longer colored, which was defiantly changing soon I even have dye in the car. He was wearing a nice button up shirt and tannish pants, I purposely made out with him in the bathroom so he wouldn't do his hair in a stupid way also because I wanted a taste of my Tob. 

    He rang the doorbell and I messed with my bracelets through my hoodie, they were there if I happened to take off my hoodie, which wasn't happening. A lady came to the door, her face lit up and she let us in. "Jackson, sweetie." she called up the stairs. I chuckled a little because it reminded me of where I used to live before Derek and Shawn. I wonder how Sammie is... I shake my head and look around "Sorry he's just thinking of how this place looks like how his old foster home looked like" Toby always knew. I tore my gaze from what looked to be a family photo to see the lady looking at me "you lived in a foster home?" she asks curiously. I smile and say "My father ran off and my mother killed herself when I was ten." I say "what a lovely carpet" I turn my attention to the ugly carpet. 

    She stared at me with her mouth wide open seeming to not be able to comprehend what I said or trying to decide if she should believe it or not. I did not return her gaze but kept my eyes glued to the really ugly carpet, finding what patterns where visible to my eyes. "I'm sorry about him. His father left when he was young and his mother remarried, having another child, both husband and child died in a car accident and his mother seemed to go a little crazy, trying to kill him for looking like his father and then failed so she killed herself so she didn't have to go to jail." Toby explained and I shrugged when she whispered her sorry's.

    After a bit of talking with the weird old lady Jackson showed up in a black veil brides tee and those seat belt, belts with Panic at the disco on it. "Nice bands" I say pointing he smiles and thanks me. I noticed he also had ripped up black skinney jeans "I told you to dress nice for them" she scowls him and he ducks his head. For a 11 year old he had a hella great fashion style "That's okay, Toby nags me about it all the time too." I say pointing to my lover and Jackson cracks a smile. Toby elbows me "There is a big difference here, you're an adult" he says and I laugh a little "nah I'm just a bigger kid" I say smiling to Jackson, who couldn't stop giggling from the door way.

    Once he stopped he sat in a chair across me and Toby, and once he looked at Toby, Toby gasped and Jackson looked away "no, no, no, Please look at me, Your eyes, they're so beautiful" he says holding his hands up to his mouth like what he did when I proposed to him "I think so too, They're beautiful, like a mixture of my eyes and Toby's" I say pointing to my eye and Toby's. Jackson smiled "Thank you, but my sister has more remarkable eyes than mine." he says bashfully "You have a sister?" Toby asks tiling his head a little and reaches for my hand, squeezing it, and Jackson nods "Emily" He says and at that moment a girl with long curly dark brown hair walked in "Jack, you called?" she tilts her head the way Toby did. She had to be about 6 years old at that moment.

    He nods at us and she turns to reveal her Violet and sky blue eyes. Toby's eyes were more of a lightening blue but hers seemed to hold the entire sky in them. "Wow" I kneel down to her little size and tilt her chin so she looked at me "You have the most beautiful eyes I've ever seen on a girl, ever" I say when I felt her start to make little movements showing she was uncomfortable. Her eyes lit up and they met my soft brown ones "Really?" she asks in a slightly high pitched voice. I nod and stand up taking her with me, holding her up on my hip "Really really" I say booping her nose with my pointer finger and she giggled making me laugh with her. She was honestly too cute.

    Toby was talking to Jackson about living with us and then Jackson interrupted Toby "If I'm going to live with you... I have only one condition..." he starts and Toby nods encouraging him " You have to adopt Emily too..." he finishes and before Toby can even turn around to give me puppy eyes I say "Yes, of course" She squeals in excitement and hugs me tightly but I didn't mind. Toby joined in with happy tears rolling down his cheeks and then we had another pair of little arms wrap around us, Jackson. We were starting our little family already, but I wasn't scared at all.

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Sorry it's short but I think it's coming along nicely.