Can't do it

Chapter 23 I See You Again

         My life had been pretty good, I looked back on my happy life and how better it had gotten since Toby had came into my life along with my little Jason and Emily. I was so busy thinking about how I wanted to possibly go back to school and maybe instead of being a publisher possibly become a councilor to help the suicidal, like how I needed, when I was younger, but never got. I was so consumed into my thoughts I didn't see the ice before the bridge, my bridge. I hit the ice and out of instinct I jerked the wheel out of the way of the bridge.

      I over corrected and tried to hit the breaks... bad thing on my part. The tires slid and my car went the wrong way, and I ended up crashing right into the bars where I once sat smoking with Toby, now falling into the cold icy water. It didn't matter that I had my seat belt on, I was going to die anyway, because of my windows being down I was holding onto stale air and my lungs screamed for fresh air and soon my lungs started to ache. My head started spinning and everything started to go black until I pushed the air out and my sight slightly came back. I sucked in the cold icy water where no air awaited me, and my vision went black again and soon I couldn't see again, in fact I didn't feel anything at all. I couldn't see, hear, smell, or feel anything, it was just black and emptiness.

    After what felt like forever I could see a light and at first it was dim but then after a few moments it got brighter and I walked into the strange bright light. I felt like I was falling and I prepared myself for the colliding of my floor, but it didn't come instead I landed on something soft. I looked down and to see a cloud like substance, and I sat up on my knees to look around. I was surrounded by more clouds and I felt so light I could just float away. I stood up on my feet which had my favorite sneakers and my jeans with holes into them and I had a band shirt on along with my hoodie. I reached up to feel my hair which was just the way I loved it, flippy again.

    A woman approached me "Raiden" She leaned a little to see me more "Is it really you?" she asked. I slowly nodded my head and took in her features. She was beautiful, and she looked an awful lot like my mother when she was younger and healthier except she had wings. She looked to be about 20 "Raiden you've grown so much!" she flung her arms around me and folding her angelic wings around me, making me feel safe, and for a second I thought she was my mother but she had a different feeling than my mother.

   "Alena! get off your brother," there was a small pause" so I can hug him!" I gasped after hearing her name and quickly hugged her back before she could back up "Alena you've also grown so much!" I say, my voice cracking a little from wanting to cry. She giggled and let go "I only grew because you did big bro" She smiled brightly but the smile faded as quickly as it had came and was replaced with a small sad smile. and Another woman came up and hugged me, this is the woman was definitely my mother whom I hugged back lightly at first then tighter as I realized how much I had missed her. Alena's father, my step-dad, came up behind my mother to whom I gave a hug instead of shaking his hand he held out for me but he accepted the warm hug anyway.

    They all looked sad after our little hugs of hello once again, so I gave them a worried look before asking "Is everything okay" Mom looked at Alena and she shook her head but mom tried to get her to not talk but she did anyway "you died at the age of 25 Raiden... You were just starting your life! You had a husband a hansom son and a beautiful daughter! It isn't fair! You shouldn't have died!" She stomped her foot onto the soft cloud, causing little clouds to puff up around us. I smiled at her causing her look of anger to turn to confusion " I have a hansom son and a beautiful daughter and a wonderful husband whom I will wait for, I'll watch over him and my kids, I didn't lose them, just my body. Alena my dear sister life isn't meant to be fair, things just happen, you were too young to die when you did but, I learned to accept it and that is what I will have to do with my own death." I smiled sadly and looked down at the clouds. My mother wrapped her wings around me "baby can you ever forgive me for what I did to you when you were so young?" I turned and hugged her "I forgave you a long time ago." I say before returning to gazing at the clouds below me.