Can't do it

Chapter 20 I'm happy

I literally had nothing to do so...I'm updating again ^~^ 
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    I texted Toby a new idea I got while I was on break at work 'I got another idea, Rennie has some sort of sixth sense where she can feel emotions off someone, anyone, but sometimes when she feels someone is depressed and she thinks it's someone else but it's really strong depression she later finds out it's her own depression, which then she goes into her room and turns on her music, curls into a little ball of quiet sadness, and goes through her favorite app looking at a bunch of happy gay, or sometimes straight, couples which she doesn't really know but makes her more depressed because she's unable to be happy.' I press send and go back to cooking for the waiters and waitresses. 

   I got a text back soon after and when it got slower I checked it 'You're horrible, poor Rennie.' I chuckle and text back 'She's made up, you know that right?' getting an immediate message made me jump a little 'I'm not sure I want Jackson reading this...' he says with a worried emoji. I roll my eyes 'He's my little editor though! Plus he loves it, He wishes the girl was real so he could tell her everything was going to be okay... I'm gunna have her dye her hair black and purple instead of red and black. Maybe' I put my phone away to focus on the task at hand, cleaning up the kitchen after a long hard worked day. Today I was getting paid and that meant I was able to go to the store for groceries and maybe some candy for the kiddies. 

    I didn't get home till late, so the kids were sleeping and Toby was sitting on the couch reading a good book, which happened to be one of the amazing books I got published. I smiled and put away the food and toilet paper, along with some other bathroom products. I stashed some candy in the special cupboard for just me and Toby which contained my favorite ramen and our favorite candy. After that I stashed the rest of the candy in the kid's cupboard which had cereal, now candy, and some sodas. I heard Toby put down the book and walk over to me as I placed the candy in there. 

     I felt Toby wrap his arms around my waist and as I tried to turn around he squeezed tighter, stopping me, "What's up babe?" I question taking notice how he played with the ring on his finger that I had given to him after graduation. "Do....do you think..." he started and stopped himself a couple of times and I hummed to encourage him "Do you think...we moved a bit fast?" He finally finished loosening his tight grip on me just enough for me to turn around and hug him back "Baby, we moved just as fast as we wanted. There isn't a too fast or too slow. We moved how we wanted and that's how it is. Now we're going to be married in a few months with two amazing kids... What more could I ask for other than to be happily with you in a nice house... which..." I stop talking knowing I was getting sidetracked and almost let it out.

    He looks up at me from my chest "Which?" He asks and I sigh putting my forehead on his "I want to go house shopping with you guys this Saturday..." I say mumbling the last part of the sentence and looking away from his amazing only to look back at them and back my head up a little "whoa" I whisper. Toby gets a confused look on his face and tilts his head a little "Hm?" I look at them, This is crazy yet it's so amazing "baby, one of your eyes are blue while the other looks to be green..." I say putting my hands on each side of his face bringing his face closer "Could it be because I'm finally one with Ashton and you?" he asks slightly to himself "I smile  "No more Ashton?" I ask and he shyly nods. 

    Getting excited over the fact I had Toby all to myself finally I kissed him, a long passionate kiss, but Toby kinda ruined the whole moment "You taste like tobacco" he says reaching up kissing me again tasting me some more never mind, the mood is back. My hand started to Travel up his shirt slowly. Let's just say I forget we have kids now because Emily came out of her and her brother's room wondering into the kitchen where me and Toby were having a little bit of a make out "Daddy?" she asks in her high voice rubbing one of her eyes, the Violet one. 

    We jumped apart "Y-yes sweetie?" we both answered her while Toby tries to fix his shirt and I try to look like I wasn't about to take him to bed... bed mmmm. "Can I have some water?" she points to the faucet behind me and holds out her cup. I take her cup and fill it with cold water "What woke you sweetie?" Toby asks her once she's done drinking her water, putting the cup in the dish washer. "Jackson is talking in his sleep again." She says rubbing her eyes again. Toby picks her up, nodding to me, and takes her to the couch to read the book to her so she falls asleep. The nod was telling me that I knew what I had to do.

    I went to their room which had two beds on the opposite sides of the room and it looked like half of the room was defiantly a boys room and the other half looked like a girly girls room. I heard Jackson mumbling to himself, but I couldn't exactly make it out. I sat on his bed and pushed his longish hair out of his closed eyes, we might have to take him to get his hair cut, I'll ask daddy Shawn. I moved my lips down to his ear and whispered in my daddy voice "Everything will be okay. You're daddies love you more then they'll let you know... You have Emily Daddy Toby and Daddy Rei." I accidentally woke him up but he heard everything I said "I know" he sighs "It's just..." he rolls over facing the wall, away from me. I could tell "school" I help him finish his previous sentence and he nods so I know I'm right. "Hey, everything with be cool, You'll be the coolest boy there. Two dads? That's two times the awesome, Right? I smile and ruffle his hair "We're so giving you a hair cut soon." I say and he giggles "Nuuuu" he holds his hair pretending to be actually afraid of having his hair cut off. 

      He soon went to bed feeling content and his already sleeping sister joined him soon after, I had to carry her to bed because Toby, being the girl of this relationship, was too weak. We both went outside to have a quick smoke "You should quit" he says and I laugh, remembering how we used to be when we first met, "remember when you always told me that, then we started dating and I ended up influencing you into smokin?" I say taking a puff "Then the time we got caught smoking on the roof by the homeroom teacher giving us detention, leaving us alone for like 20 minutes of it." he adds on and I laugh "Which was a bad thing on her part because we had a make out session on her desk." I say as he leans into me "Oh my gawd I can never forget, one of her sharp pencils stabbed me in the back remember?" I remembered too well. I had lifted him up so I didn't have to be bending over trying to kiss him and one of the pencils stabbed him, he yelped and pushed it away thinking nothing of it because we were having too much fun. " Woulda taken you right then and there if it hadn't been for our damn teacher" I say dropping my finished cigarette. 

    "What do you think his teachers will be like" Toby asks me once we are back inside in our room, me spooning him and my arms around his waist. He was talking about Jackson "I just hope they aren't my teachers" I say bored. "Why's that?" he asks twisting a little so he could see me. I kissed him "Because they all sucked. They didn't like me because I was different than the others." I say looking at my wrist in the dark. Toby brings my wrist up to his face and kisses all the scars "You're perfect now." he says settling back down into my arms and falling asleep, me fallowing soon after.

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"I'm home!" I yell as soon as we enter the old house I lived in for a few years. Danny rushed downstairs to meet me and Toby downstairs, jumping into my arms "I havn't seen you in forever!" she says, then dropping her voice "Did you bring them?" She asks and I nod motioning to behind Toby. She looks around us seeing the two scared children. She crouches infront of them whispering "Hiya, I'm Danny, You can call me auntie Danny If you want." she smiles  Getting up and yelling upstairs "DADDYS, REI AND TOBY ARE HERE WITH A SURPRISE" She turns back to me and Toby and winks before taking her phone out and going into the living room. 

    My dad's come downstairs, Shawn hugging me tightly and then Toby, taking no notice to the kids yet. "I missed you guys!" Shawn says kissing my cheek "Jeeze ma" I say sarcastically earning a flick to the forehead "ow" I rub my forehead and Shawn jumps up and down a little "What's the surprise?" He asks and I see Derek smirk, looking at the kids. "Shawn, say hi to Jackson and Emily." they come out looking at them and Shawn does the same thing Toby did when he saw their beautiful eyes, then he looks at me and I grab Toby's hand "These are our kids" Shawn starts crying, nothing out of the ordinary there, and he goes and hugs them "I'm a grandpa!" he kisses their cheeks and foreheads. While I got another flick in the forehead "I wasn't ready to be a grandpa yet" It was Derek but he was smiling and looking at the kids "old man you were ready before you even met me" I say earning a punch in the arm, so I punched him back. "I'm glad. You finally seem happy." Derek observes looking at my beautiful kids. I kiss Toby's cheek "Yes, I am"