My Bestfriend's Daughter | Part III

#66 Regrets

#66 Regrets

ATTENTION: WORD COUNT: 900+

Author's note: * Warning * ANGST all the way on, also a bit triggering so go back to your safe shell if you don't want to feel a little bit hurt.

Marifi's POV

I wipe my dried tears, hug my knees and rest my head on my arms. Trying to sink in all the words, all the heartless shouts my dad said to me. I already knew that will come to me, but I didn't know it'll hurt this much. Like, someone just Eviscerate me. I can't feel anything. Numb, yet hurt from within. I don't know where Zayn went. Did he leave the house without saying anything to me? Or did Dad do something to him? Does my mom know what happened earlier? Questions, questions.. you all have to stop. Another tear I wasted doing nothing but waiting for something, anything, someone to save me. 

I sigh, want to think nothing for  a second. Which not gonna work because what happened earlier, was something to thought about. I don't know what happen last night, was I drunk that hard to forget what happened? I wish I could be drunk all day to forget what was happening to me, then. But life doesn't work like that. I don't feel like living right now, my dad hates me, Zayn left me. Zayn also hurt because of me. Me like this, but I know suicide is never an answer... yet never existing is all I could ever ask. Where did my way go? god , I just want to be happy. I never ask to be lonely..

But what we don't need is what life gives us. Of course with a reason, but does that really have to? We're all same as humans, made mistake, falls in love, do something we will regret. And the reason is to experience life? I don't know, I'm having a hang over right now. I suddenly want a comfort, the warm't I want .. but all I could feel is cold. I hug the blankets. I want to stand up, yet my legs won't work. I try to think for a second... the words , the words dad said to me earlier. Me and Zayn, had sex? I can't remember. But maybe we did yeah, but.. was I ready that time? Was that the reason why I can't move right now? Did Zayn let us have sex while we're drunk? Does that moment is important to Zayn? I wish I could remember them... , man life is f*cked up.

looking up the window to see nothing but the gray colored curtain. A faint knock sound comes from the door made me scared, is it dad? " Come in " I said, loud enough to be hear'd and the door slightly opened. The thought of a blonde haired man with blue eyes didn't appear, yet a little blonde haired girl with a blue eyes did. " Ate "  she sobbed, her eyes puffy and her lips pouting. I tried to stand up, aching , yet I made it as I run to my little sister and hugged her. " What's wrong Nicole? Where's mom? " I ask to my Filipino accent sister.

" M-mom and dad.. f-fighting.. stop.. screaming.. " she cried clutching on my shirt and I just kissed her forehead. I know how much it hurts to see your parents fighting. And it was never fun. I don't know if I should stop them, or I should just stay with my sister. But for once, this thing that is about me.. I have to do something. Anything, to save it. I stand up from my knees, Nicole looking up to me. I reach for her little hand and hold it. " Let's go "

As we are both walking down the stairs I can already hear them shouting.. screaming " You don't understand Niall , people make mistakes ! " Mom glares and my dad's fist clench is enough for me to get scared, but I don't want to go back running. " Yes, and those mistakes should never happen again ! People get angry ! And you should not get involve in this ! "Dad shouted back , ready to punch anything if its going to get too much for him. Mom close her eyes for a moment, breathing in, trying to send what she had on mind to dad. But maybe, dad is blocking his. " I know.. but don't ever hurt someone, Niall. These things is part of life , I know. But have you ever thought about before? You, made me pregnant at young age " She said a tear left her eyes " You made it sound like you regret what happen before. " He said eye brows met together. " I-I maybe.. do. But Niall , you made a wrong decision too ! You left me before ! And I don't want that to happen to Marifi! Can't you understand? You're just making the situation worst ! Instead of let Zayn and Marifi solve their life problems and just --- " 

" What?! So you'll just forget the thing that you all didn't tell me any shit about their relationship and saying that this was all my fault?! You're kidding! " Dad shout his blood boils and I knew it, I run in the middle of them. " Stop ! Fighting please ! I know this is wrong, but dad! Just please -- " " Get out of this shit Mari!  " And then I can see his fist in the air, closed shut my eyes... and I can feel the pang of hard rock on my face. Dad, punched me.As I open my eyes, I cried, dad looked shock too. " That's it , Niall Horan. We're leaving this house! We'll never come back not until you feel bad about this " Mom said , she hold my face and kiss my cheeks as I cry on her. " I-I'm sorry.. " Dad mumbled, mom look back at him and slaps him " I regret marrying you ! "

To be continue.